What are you up to on New Year's Eve?


Before 2011 ends, Let me talk about, "My Life as a Singleton"

Yes, the skeletons are out, I am evergreen and have been single all. my. life. Sometimes, I do get embarrassed about that fact coz it makes one appear as if they are terribly unliked by the opposite sex or there must be SOMETHING SO WRONG about that person. Indeed, I have questioned myself, what the hell is wrong?!

Am I unsightly to look at? Too retarded? Too strange and weird?

Before I get on to that, I must say that most of my closest bestfriends and friends are all, evergreen. But before you go..... "Oh, that explains it all.... IT'S JUST ONE WHOLE BUNCH OF WEIRDLY RETARDED STRANGE GIRLS MIXING AND MINGLING WITH ONE ANOTHER. No wonder"

But to think that something is wrong with ALL of them, that is definitely not true. Well, I can confidently say that allll my friends are very beautiful girls, both on the outside and inside. I can assure you, definitely on the outside since many people have told me my group of friends are good looking girls. I mean, leaving me out FIRST of course.

So, really, there is nothing inherently wrong about them and I'm sure they attract guys' attention.

But I see a common trait, running through all of our veins that could be a possible explanation as to why we're prolly not hitched, with a roof over our head and 7 children to keep up with. Joke. But, really, I think we're just not the typical average girl dudes would fall for. Ok, that may come as an insult to other girls. Let's rephrase that, we're the kinda girls dudes wouldn't fall for.

We are just not girly or gracious or shy at all. We are so loud and un-ladylike that maybe that explains it all. We're just so different!


I remember Shi Ying telling me to keep my "Sofy" away in my room. I'm like, "What sofy or WHO'S SOPHY?!??!" Just imagine some imaginary girl in my room called Sophy or Sophia oh my freakin god. I realised, she was referring to the sanitary pads on the shelf. But I'm like, "For what!!!!" And she reasons that that'd freak any guy out when they come into the room and sees THAT. But I couldn't give 2 flying buggeroos to clear that hahahahahaha and all she could say is, "Wah, you seriously no image to upkeep leh" Hahaha.

I guess, we girls really can't bother about how crazy or funky we may appear to guys. And maybe that is the reason why. I could say it's a problem. But really, a guy should like you...... for who you are right right?!?! Zomg.



And why is it embarrassing, admitting that I am evergreen? Becoz, people tend to think that by this age, 19 I mean, one should be hooked to some dude already and at least get a taste of SUMTHING. At least?! One night stand maybe? I'm just kidding with you.

I kinda agree with what they think in a sense coz I've imagined something like what if one day, my daughter asks when I got my first boyfriend and all I can smile and say is, "erm, your mom's a loser, she got her first one at 30." Holy shit, that's damn freakin old right!? And my daughter would start getting disgusted by her own mom and oh good lord, what if it becomes a deadly vicious cycle!?


With that said, it sounds as if I'm gonna declare my New Year's Resolution as "Get boyfriend or die". But HELL NO, I am not desperate to have one.

In fact, I am TERRIFIED to have one.

I was telling one of my friends that in actual fact, when I think about it, I actually get scared just imagining myself get hooked to a dude. Like c'mon, all my life I've been single so it scares the shitzels and living daylights outta me knowing that, wow, this could be serious and omg, I just won't get used to this.

And my friend, bluntly told me, "Coz you haven't had a boyfriend before" Yes I know darlinggggggg. Hahahahaha. It's a fact and that, I do not deny.

It's not just that... but something as simple as knowing someone fancies me, I'd get petrified because... childish as it may seem, but it's disgusting? The feeling is... of disgust and contempt. Ok, maybe not of contempt, but I get frightened just thinking, woah, this may develop into something. And once I know this, I can't help but not want to have anything to do with the dude anymore and possibly, shun him as much as I possibly can. That's when I don't really have feelings for the dude. Can't imagine if the feeling's mutual, but I may just do the same thing.

No, I'm not lesbian for God's sake. I have liked guys before, doh. Which girl hasn't?! Woah, it's already disgusting admitting to that fact but I'm being honest and true. But of course, they never work out.

Therefore, I must say, whoever breaks this bloody hard shell of mine, must've stolen my heart and taken my breath so freakin' far away that I'd say yes, to the start of a relationship.

I know, all you lovebirds who've had their hearts taken a million times before must think I'm a lil ditzy and immature to think I'm frightened by something like that. But I am and I'm very sure many of y'all were when you were getting into your first relationship. That feeling of uncertainty. And what goes on afterthat? How it'd work out?

And I'm scared imagining myself falling out. I see break-ups and they're always so sad when it's a one-sided thing while the other clings on.

Now, becoz of that, it is another myth that evergreens aren't the best people to go to when seeking relationship advice. It's coz we see it through the eyes of our friends and we are very neutral parties and are level-headed. Empathise? I think we do know how to empathise. Only thing we don't have, is the experience of being in a relationship, so credibility dips.


My friends and I have always talked about our fears and worries. The extreme as to, what if we end up being spinsters!? Then we'd prolly have to stay together and end up being quite miserable that way. Haha.

What a different world it'd be for us, coz I think it's quite funny to see them romatically involved with a dude coz we're all so retarded well, IT'S JUST FUNNEHHHH. But I'm sure, all of them will lead very happy, married and settled lives in the future.

What's left for me is a... hmm, I would leave it to.. what will be, will be. I wouldn't say fate, coz it's so gay to talk about fate. You can't expect such things to happen I guess. When it happens, it just does. I'd be left in a pool of misery and a pathetic mess if I were to constantly try to figure out stuff like that.

As for now, I am LIVIN THE LIFE as a carefree worry-less singleton.


But can I tell you, that while I was writing this post, someone has been on my mind all the time. FREAK YOU OUT!!!!!


I'll end this post off with,



A BIG ASS RETARDED PICTURE OF MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Happy New Year to you, buddy! Lookin forward to a great 2012 ahead. ;)  ¶ 12:23 PM