Annoyed.

A few days ago, a friend was discussing with me and telling me who got really good GPAs and stuff, and I felt slightly pressurised, coz wee kim wee SCI people are really good in their studies?! When I compare myself with them, I feel like a bloody ant swimming in a sea of sharks. It's a freaking rat race I tell you. But somehow, instead of putting myself down, I feel even more motivated to study hard? I'm gonna mug like a freak and start a Freak's Club or something. Who wants to join me.

Ok, my own roomie can't see the rationale in me studying hard, but at least my neighbour does. Wkwsci people are really really competitive. They did extremely well last sem and have such bloody high GPAs... that it's scary when I put myself up against them. I can't help but do that all the time. But that's just how you gauge where you stand. And I will study my freakin ass off and make sure I keep up. Endure and get myself in that rat race and not fall behind.

I seriously gotta know how to manage my time. In fact, roomie is a bad influence for being unsupportive of my cause for turning into a freak. And I will turn into a freak if I have to! It ain't Friends for Life, but Freaks for Life yo?!

Can somebody please understand what I'm standing up for?!?!?! Place yourself in my shoes, it's a rat race in wkw! I can't lepak and sit idly. a-n-y-m-o-r-e. Unlike every-onelse.


Besides that, omg, this OCIP thing is the bombz man. Everyone is withdrawing, one by one. I dunno why going to Thailand can be so bloody costly at like, $800-900??? How. Can?! I would withdraw if there aren't strings attached, but knowing this is a thing we worked so hard together for, for the past few months, giving it all up seems like such a bloody ginormous waste. I actually feel sad.

We've still got some time to go before May comes, and it feels like everyone's giving up already, at the beginning of everything. And knowing that everyone's not sticking it out with one another till the very end to try to think of ways to get things done feels quite sucky. Alas, circumstances may cause this whole thing to shut down. But if, knowing that at least we were all in it together till the thing collapses, the feeling would be less bitter.


Sighhh, the worries of a Uni student. 8 years down the road, I'd be laughing at myself for even thinking about all this. As of now, yes, it's very pertinent to my life and concerns the very welfare of my pretty little life.  ¶ 2:56 AM