chickenbackside

2012-02-01T17:38:00.000+08:00

Justa preview of today's- Retro.

Anyway, after yesterday's EXHAUSTING day, I was so tired I almost woke up late for my 9am lecture. Killer eh, those morning classes.

Yesterday's interview went alright. It's a good sign I guess. Shouting is good. But I didn't have to cheer with random strangers, thank god! Hahaha.

Oh and today's 204 session was fun, INTERVIEWING 5 people. I only got to call up 3 coz I either took too long OR PEOPLE JUST DON'T PICK UP PHONES. Hahahah. I reckon it's the latter. Jiaqi and Xiu wei were such darlings for picking up the phone. I definitely sounded rushed on the phone coz I only had 10 mins with 5 people, meaning 2 mins per person!?!?!!

Journalism is fun. Yet, I still dunno what I want to specialise in in the future.

Whatever it is, all's still good. I'm still worried if I'm getting myself involved in too much things tho. Studies above all, now.

2012-01-30T20:36:00.002+08:00

I realised, I've a lot of things to do tomorrow. First, GL interview. School. Geek day. Another audition for something I think I'm interested in ;) And watch Hockey girls Finals' match. + message 3 girls.

Manageable. Just gotta finish more work today!

It's so depressing, seeing how so many people are getting their choice of universities for their Overseas Exchange. It's SO SCARY!!!! One going to UC-freakin-LA. My god! UCLA man. THE USA.

But GPA must be U-C-All-A. Sighhh, Super Envious. These people really know what they want.

But. I know what I want too. I wanna go on Exchange in Sem 2 Year 2 as well. So I'm gonna study real-freakin hard. Gonna apply next sem.

As for tomorrow's GL interview, I should think of it as, IF I GET IT, I GET IT. If I don't, well, I'll use all my time... ON STUDIES. It's a Win-win anyway. That suddenly sounds like a great idea.

LET'S START STUDYING EVEN THO IT'S ONLY 8.30PM BUT WHO CARES. STUDY!!!! I'MMA FREAK, YAY!

2012-01-29T01:12:00.001+08:00

Signed up to be GL in my school. I'm really nervous for it coz I'm quite sure we've to shout in a public place a.k.a Canteen B on Tuesday. Throw my face only lah? And I'm scared the rest will have people there to support them and cheer along, whereas I might have to do it with strangers holy. Tryna rally people, but worse comes to worst, I'll just do it by maselfffff.

Ahhh, so scared. Like if I don't get the GL post, then that's quite sad right?!?! And usually, I don't dare to post about such things on my blog coz homg, if I don't get it then, I'll have to be all sad and emo and announce to the world about how I fail to get what I want. Hahaha.

Such a worry wart.

Anyway, we were supposed to strike a pose with speech bubbles plastered around school and post up the picture on tumblr with a short write-up about ourselves.

I don't know why but all my shots came out girly even though I tried my best to give the ugliest, most hideous and most freakish shot.

BUT THEY JUST DIDN'T?!?!?!?!

I think it largely has to do with what I was wearing.

Luckily, the last shot, saved me

What a freak.

So yeah, please wish me all the best. And I'll blog on that day about what they made me do in Can B if I can. The humiliation zomg. But I'm ready and all fired up to be super ON and high like they all expect me to. Expectations. I will live up to them. Oh yes I will. Some positive psycho-ing here haha.

Oh, and next week's quite exciting too, coz my school's gonna have Theme week again! Sports, Geek, Retro, Red and Jeans theme. One per day. So, we should be able to expect more pictures up. ;D I think my school's so special. It's like our very own party.

Anyway, these days I like to hang out in school more often than in hall? :S Dunno if it's a good thing. Or maybe I shouldn't compare.

I've some CNY pictures to post but I left my cam in hall :( So, zoo badz! K see ya! Oh Kah wai! If you see this, remind me to call you by 10pm on Wednesday, if not, please hound me through sms.

2012-01-26T14:22:00.000+08:00

I just lied the biggest lie I've ever lied in my life.

It has scarred my conscience, but I'm convinced it's for the better for both myself... and well, myself. What an egoist I am, but I HAD TO DO IT. So freakin unethical but I won't do it again! I think I'm going to hell in my afterlife.

Immoral.

2012-01-22T03:05:00.003+08:00

I was already very lethargic after 4 days of touring Hongkong and Macau, but, I was still excited about what was ahead.

Next stop: China, Swatow

Ok, the place wasn't what I thought it'd turn out to be. I imagined like, loadsa trees, thinking it'd be some village land, but nooo, the place is just, grey. I mean literally, it's the colour of grey. Hahaha you'll get what I mean, soon.

And... I had terrible pre-conceptions of my China relatives.

I assumed they'd be very uncouth or very backwarded. But what am I talking about? It's China. They're developing so fast, theyr're getting so rich. Remember how I assumed they wouldn't even know what braces are? Omg, the girl who greeted me USED TO WEAR BRACES. She told me she just removed it.

And speaking of their people, my relatives there are the most MOST MOST HOSPITABLE people I've ever met!!!!! They greeted us with smiles at the airport and I was just thinking who the hell are these people standing there and smiling. I mean, I assumed they were smiling at people behind me, then I realised they were smiling at my Singapore relatives. Immediately they took our bags, greeted us and the girl whom I spoke of just now, hooked her arm around mine and led me. My aunt told me it's a custom of theirs, to hook arms with others.

I was excited, to see the place of my ancestors.

But, there was this one time when I did feel slightly uncomfortable while I was there.

I was alone at the hotel lobby with a group of my Chinese relatives and they were all about the same age as I am.

One of my aunts asked me in Mandarin,

“如果人家问你，你是从哪里来的，你会说什么？”
- If people ask you where you're from, what would you say?

I confidently said, 新加坡人。Singaporean.

SHE COUNTER-ATTACKED ME AND SAID,

“不是！你是中国人！”
- No! YOU ARE CHINA MAN.

I mean, YOU ARE FROM CHINA.

In my head, I was just like going, wtf man what am I supposed to say now?! Like seriously? She was totally attacking me with her Maoist ideas. I was wondering omg, Mao seriously did a damn bloody good job at propaganda.

But I understand her. Becoz, if it were me, and I see Singaporeans migrating to say, Canada, I would be quite angry as to why these people have no sense of loyalty to their country at all? Moreover, they call themselves Canadian? What?! NO! YOU ARE SINGAPORE MAN. Hahaha. But ok, seriously, I understand her sentiments.

But, the thing is, I was born here in Singapore. And bred here. My loyalty is to Singapore, and I can't possibly say I'm from China right!? I have no emotional sentiments for China. That's crazy. If you're talking about my great grandfather then yeah, maybe. BUT IT'S UNFAIR AND CRAZY TO MAKE ME THINK I'M FROM CHINA??!?!?!

There was a slight awkward pause that followed and everyone else there seemed to be anticipating my response, but I just gently explained myself. Luckily, I was called over by my parents after that. MERCY ON ME PLSSSSSSS, THANK GOD. Hallelujah.

Another problem is, going to China with a poor grasp of the Chinese language in a teochew(a dialect I do not know one word of) land, was not a very clever move coz I was practically A MUTE THERE. I really enforced 10 years of what I learnt of my mother tongue in full force while I was there. Omg, I think I almost forgot how to speak English after that. My relative asked me if I can speak Mandarin and I nodded my head and she was like, luckily you can, because if it's english, they definitely wouldn't know how to communicate with me. I gulped.

Whatever it is, I still think they're super friendly. The hospitality they showered us, was unbelievable really. Like a brother. And a sister. It felt like family, even though I had never met them before.

EQUIPPED WITH THE MASTERY OF ALL THOSE LANGUAGES, THERE I WENT, HERE ARE THE PICTURES OF MY HOMETOWNNN,

Remember, the purpose of my visit was for a wedding, you'll see them soon, but before that, my relatives brought us to..... EAT!!!!!!

Day 1,

Their cups and bowls come in really small sizes, I dunno why. Anyway this is like their national drink or something. It's everywhere over there.

They had dish after dish coming in. I swaer, at least 10 dishes. I dunno if it's an everyday thing or it's their custom to do so whenever they welcome visitors. And then, their rice comes last. Strange.

Simple dishes, but yummy.

My relative's freakin huge house. The groom's father's house. Almost like a bungalow, but smaller. However, since it is four storeys' high, maybe it's as big as one.

The wedding was the next day, so we had a day of touring Swatow

The rest of the place was quite dilapidated I've to admit.

A convenience store!

My relatives' old house, before their windfall.

Apparently, my dad slept here before, the last time he came here which was 11 years ago and everyone was just so happy to see it and felt the nostalgia. But I was just, bored.

Plus,

THEY OWN THEIR OWN TEMPLE!!! It's like the village temple. COOL OR WHAT.

Big gigantic tree my dad insisted I take a photo of.

That's you.

Streets,

Told you it's grey!!!!

Hotel.

Our China relatives were freakin generous.. they paid for our hotel stay. Not only that, they paid for our food and transport within China as well. Mind blown.

Communism.

Dinner,

Penises.

FRESHEST SEAFOOD IN TOWN. Btw, I was kidding about the penises, they were fish roe.

Their version of chee cheong fun

Omg, their porridge... looks damn plain but damn.. delish.

China kids playing.

After that, I TOOK A RIDE ON A MOTORBIKE!!!!! Omg, damn thrilling. Their traffic's so bad, honk here honk there but still.. woah, love it. But bad for health coz I sucked in too much of the wind which had a lot of dust. Damn polluted there ugh.

Their version of the KFC

Tried their ice-cream and no, it doesn't taste as vanilla as it should be. It tasted strange. Like play dough if I recall.

Day 2-
DAY OF THE WEDDING!!!! Had to attend the customary tea ceremony in the day and then, the evening reception.

Teochew dimsums to fill our tummies in the morning. Of course, not as good as HK's!!!!

The Groom's house

The Groom's father. Don't play play yo?

They love to eat this I dunno why. It's offered all the time but it's so bloody hard. Olives.

They love to smoke this as well. When nobody was watching I slipped a cigarette pack into my pocket. Heh. Chain smokers wouldn't even know.

Spotted this little cutie over there

Paedophile Singapore aunt. Excuse her please. Zomg if any of my relatives read this, they'd think I've no respect hahhaaha.

Bride and Groom!

Heard the Bride's 18 omfg. Heard the Groom's 28. omfg. Heard he's a really shrewd Businessman. Omg. Just sharing some of the local gossips.

Let's put it to perspective again.

He is my greatgrandfather's brother's son. So I don't know what he is to me. But he is someone, to me. Definitely a someone there, seeing how they're well-off.

I discovered a number of things while I was there also.
He is actually not my greatgrandfather's brother's son. BUT my greatgrandfather's half-brother's son.

My greatgreatgrandfather supposedly had 2 wives. What a player, that one. I'm sorry if it sounds confusing. All the greats. But it's so far back and nobody knew about it till they were there.

Customary Tea Ceremony

Fringe arrangement

Tea.

Traditional tea board.

They have this really intricate and delicate way of pouring and serving the tea. Like they've to go through this whole routine on the board by pouring tea over each cup to wash it. Then serve it.

Smoker.

Couldn't help but,

Shoot it in black and white.
Just look at that cloud.

I featured him ya know. So many other smoker friends, but I chose him! Gasp.

Pretty right this girl?

Cutiepies

One more time.
Don't see him skinny skinny ah, he's pretty street-smart and sociable in the social scene over there.

Pretty bride!

Haha, they look so cute together flustering over her messed up fringe.

This is how they like to hook arms

This is the girl who escorted me almost everywhere I went. I love her so much!!!! Really. She's damn freaking nice it's IMPOSSIBLE.

I think she's pretty!!!! Same age.
Totally doesn't have that typical china look. She's pretty!!! The guys on the other hand, definitely China face.

I got my hat from H&M in Hong Kong btw!!!!! Couldn't resist it, so I had to get it. Unfortunately for me, I think they'll hit stores in Singapore real soon. Booooooo. It's gonna be found everywhere.

And bloody hell, they have this whole void-deck layout place all for themselves. Lunch was there.

I don't know why but despite the size of the bowls, they're BIG?? Like, the bowl holds enough food? It's an illusion!?

Abalone in your face.

If you understand Chinese, this is such an irony.

Wedding car,

Car plate. They're allowed to do this over there, both front and back.

Hate the flower arrangement tho, look damn....... cheena :S I'm sorry, but there's really no better word.

Over to another house after that, it's like CNY

Cute kids.

They start from young.

Night came and it was time for the evening reception,

Surprisingly, the hotel wasn't as swanky I imagined it to be. And people weren't dressed like how we do, over here. Surprising.

So when we came, we kinda made an entrance. People stared and whispered, "ta men shi xin jia po ren"- They're Singaporeans. You'll know how I was dressed afterthat.

Everyone. Smokes. You can freakin smoke indoors. It was suffocating I tell ya.

Emcees

Couldn't get a clear photo for any of their pics

Red Chinese number

Singing by two of the relatives

Chen Ting! That's her name btw. Also a Tan.
And yesss, I wore a Sarong Kebaya. All my Singaporean relatives as well! They wanted to wear something uniquely Singapore. That's why we made sucha big hoo-ha. I'm not Peranakan.. but I discovered my great grandmother was :S I swear this is tiring to discover things about the past. All the greats put together.

Her sister.

Mann, I'm making friends with my own relatives within the 3 days.

This boy is sucha cutie!!!!
I really love him. He's gonna grow up into a charmer.

Weddings end early over there... like 9pm!

Headed to a karaoke after that in a trishaw. They were so nice to ask me along coz I was about to retire to my bed, when they called me unexpectedly.

Btw, remember how I told you I'm gonna find a China guy there.

I DID IN THE END LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

He's damn nice!!!! And my age. He's my uncle tho hahahah wtf were you thinking!

Everyone there's like my uncle and aunty. My cousins are in fact.. the little kids. Hahahahahhaha. Screwed up world.

Day 3-
Omg, finally. I was damn exhausted.. couldn't wait to go home. It was a 6pm flight so we had the day to tour.

Outside my hotel

They have this only in China hotels. Horny lil shitz.
The rest are Sex oils and stuff, I srsly dunno how they work.

Hehe, he wanted to hold my hand ;D

People there have hands that are SO WARM. Can you imagine, this boy's little hand actually warmed MY chilly cold hand. Literally. It's really quite cold over there. But they must be used to the weather. I, on the other hand, couldn't wait to get away from it.

You know, I think the kids over there, including this one must've thought something was wrong with me. Coz I couldn't speak teochew... and he hasn't learnt mandarin. So basically, we couldn't communicate at all with one another. But he liked me awww!!

Aww, I love this picture

CUTIE!!!!!
The girl lah dey.

Can't wait to see this boy again, 10 years' time.

Long alley

Their market, damn old school and traditional. Quite nice to walk through one.

Chairman Mao spotted everywhere. Up till today. He still has influence even tho he's long dead and gone. This is sorta like a home for the aged btw.

Pair of leg warmers I bought in HK. Love it!!!!!! Hope it wouldn't be too hot for me to wear it over here....

LIKE A BOSS!!!!
I swear, this one, smoking like a boss. Salute. She's got style. Singaporean grandaunt btw :S

Farm that a relative owns,

Starfruit and date.

Pathetic dog.

Some water feature in the house. I swear they're rich.

And you wanna know what makes them rich?

Manufacturing these,

here.

I believe you'll get rich starting up any kind of business over there. It's SUCH a lucrative market over in China.

My Singaporean relatives almost got into the venture with them but didn't. Imagine... I could be freakin rich now woohoo!!

Soon, it was time for us to head back to Sunny Singapore.

I really discovered a lot in this trip. I've to admit I was damn exhausted throughout my time there. Plane after plane. But knowing my relatives all the way back in China is, woah. And I'm sorta the next generation to take over so that I can maintain ties and contact with them over there.

China is rich now. My Chinese relatives are the rich ones now, not us. Many years ago, it was us helping them financially. Now, look who's the one earning big bucks now. What's more, they're so freaking kind and generous I really dunno how they can cope with being so nice.

Before arriving China, I thought the joke would be on them, but the JOKE WAS ON ME. Seriously, watch out for China.

Took a few last photos with Chen Ting. I wrote her name as "Tan Ting" in a paper she gave me with her email address on. And she nodded ahh, Tan. We're family!!! But so far apart... Can't believe I forged sucha special bond with someone in a really short time.

I told her, probably the next time I see her would be 10 years later? Damn freaking long. But she said, No, the next time, she's going over to Singapore. Hahah. I swear I will try my best to be a good host when she does come over.

My charming granduncle saw me smelling a bunch of flowers in his home and plucked this and gave it to me. It's damn fragrant!!!

Freakin charming people. I'll miss Swatow.

Boarded the plane(which we almost missed.. long story)

And... it's bye bye China! Treat this as a Chinese New Year post ;D

2012-01-20T22:21:00.003+08:00

The start of the school semester has been good. But so so very tiring.

I can't believe I did so much within the week. Tang Yuan canvassing and I had to deal with stuff here and there. Whew damn tiring. What's more I'm still on my quest towards being the greatest freak of all time!!!! Hahahahah, you guys must think I'm seriously such a freak.

Joelyn your tags made my heart melttt awww thanks girl!!!! I would love to hang out with you guys too. And of course I would! You girls are my bestfriends! I will never forget to go out with y'all! Never! Especially you! Thanks for thinking I'm smart :D That's the greatest compliment I will ever want and love to receive. Really. People like to receive compliments about the way they look. But I like ones that compliment my intelligence. Hahahaha. I'd rather be ugly but smart, instead of a porcelain-faced beauty with a lack of brains. Freakin bim-bo.

Speaking of bimbo, I seriously think I give people a first impression that I'm a bimbo. I do agree with them actually coz I tend to act quite bimbotically in front of new people, simply because I'm nervous around them. Honestly. My hands start flailing and my voice gets louder, with actions I can't seem to control when the nerves set in :S

Anyway, back to school.
I was so touched that so many people asked me how my trip went when I came back, knowing that I missed the first week of school. Especially when you see that they're genuinely surprised to see you back at school. I will blog about my China trip soon haha.

I intend to join a lot of school activities and I hope I'm not making wrong decisions to get myself so involved in so much things. I need to study at the same time. So that makes it a tougher decision for myself. Occasionally, I do turn to God, I SWEAR. When times are tough, people turn to God. I think God needs a holiday himself. Selfish people like myself only turn to him when they're in need of guidance. I shake my head.

But at least, I'm enjoying lessons. I really like my lecturers at wkw. They're good. And I think I'm lucky to get good tutors for my tutorials as well. In fact, I look forward to lessons because of them. I think it's a very good sign. Hopefully this motivates me to pushhhhh myself to study hard. I want that whole jc thing going on again, but not that crazy also. Or I'd go mad.

I like most of my core mods, and that is greatttt. But just today, I had a lesson on Visual Literacy Communication. Something about making videos and I landed myself in a group of Engineering students whereas everyone else were within groups of Wee Kim Wee Mass Comm people. Others started to tell me, I shouldn't have done that, coz it may affect my grades. Coz Engineers prolly wouldn't give very good ideas for video storylines and stuff. Part of me thinks that way too, but another part of me chooses not to believe that because I think if I look at it positively, I think my group will still be able to work well with one another and eventually get good grades. I can't let stereotypes get to my head even though first impressions can be quite accurate at times. I will try my best.

In God I Trust. Then you must be wondering which God I pray to since I'm a free-thinker hahahaha. It's just whoever's listening to me in my head.

2012-01-20T03:56:00.004+08:00

Omg I just love my Block D L5 girls, they totally make my day.

Was feeling quite depressed and shitty but no, talking to them is like comic relief and we laugh and scream even in the dead of night at 3am. (L)

What's more, Hall had some Midnight Fiesta stuff at Geylang/Chinatown and we were like F IT WE'RE REBELS WE'RE NOT GONNA GO FOR THAT!!!! Had our own Midnight Fiesta chit chatting in my room. But srsly, a bit guilty also, like the hours spent talking could've been on my readings. Urghh hahahah.

Confessions of a Muggerholic. Sounds like a tasty drink. Yum.

Check out the time now. I've a 9am class. Only 4/5 hours of sleep. :S

2012-01-19T02:56:00.000+08:00

Annoyed.

A few days ago, a friend was discussing with me and telling me who got really good GPAs and stuff, and I felt slightly pressurised, coz wee kim wee SCI people are really good in their studies?! When I compare myself with them, I feel like a bloody ant swimming in a sea of sharks. It's a freaking rat race I tell you. But somehow, instead of putting myself down, I feel even more motivated to study hard? I'm gonna mug like a freak and start a Freak's Club or something. Who wants to join me.

Ok, my own roomie can't see the rationale in me studying hard, but at least my neighbour does. Wkwsci people are really really competitive. They did extremely well last sem and have such bloody high GPAs... that it's scary when I put myself up against them. I can't help but do that all the time. But that's just how you gauge where you stand. And I will study my freakin ass off and make sure I keep up. Endure and get myself in that rat race and not fall behind.

I seriously gotta know how to manage my time. In fact, roomie is a bad influence for being unsupportive of my cause for turning into a freak. And I will turn into a freak if I have to! It ain't Friends for Life, but Freaks for Life yo?!

Can somebody please understand what I'm standing up for?!?!?! Place yourself in my shoes, it's a rat race in wkw! I can't lepak and sit idly. a-n-y-m-o-r-e. Unlike every-onelse.

Besides that, omg, this OCIP thing is the bombz man. Everyone is withdrawing, one by one. I dunno why going to Thailand can be so bloody costly at like, $800-900??? How. Can?! I would withdraw if there aren't strings attached, but knowing this is a thing we worked so hard together for, for the past few months, giving it all up seems like such a bloody ginormous waste. I actually feel sad.

We've still got some time to go before May comes, and it feels like everyone's giving up already, at the beginning of everything. And knowing that everyone's not sticking it out with one another till the very end to try to think of ways to get things done feels quite sucky. Alas, circumstances may cause this whole thing to shut down. But if, knowing that at least we were all in it together till the thing collapses, the feeling would be less bitter.

Sighhh, the worries of a Uni student. 8 years down the road, I'd be laughing at myself for even thinking about all this. As of now, yes, it's very pertinent to my life and concerns the very welfare of my pretty little life.

2012-01-16T02:00:00.002+08:00

Alright, before I blog about anything else, I must say that....

I'M GONNA DIE from all that second hand smoke I breathed in the past few days. My freakin god, everybody from Hong Kong all the way to China, they smoke cigarettes like they were sucking on candies. It was worse in Swatow, China. I swear. It's like... whew. I was just inhaling all that smoke every second while I was there. You can smoke practically everywhere in China.

But I understand, since it's really cold there, at 15 degrees? No play play ok. Everyday I spend a really long time in the shower, coz I didn't wanna get out from the hot water and face the cold outside. It's just cold everywhere. When the wind blows, you die. I think, I really pretty much prefer the hot weather in Singapore over the cold. Honestly.

However, with 4 seasons, come a wider sense of fashionability (if ever there's such a word). I see better dressed men in Hong Kong. Really. I think they know how to dress up better than our boys here.

And speaking about their people, MANNN HongKongers.... Ok, I heard they can be very rude people. I dislike acknowledging what people say all the time, because if I don't see it for myself then well, you just shouldn't believe it totally. I'm being very level-headed at the same time. They have nice people. But mannn, some of them, especially the hawkers, fffffffking impatient and yes, rude. They simply can't wait I tell you. I think it's part of their culture I guess, so I think, if I were one of them, it's kind of like, a way of life. But as strangers of their country, it would be difficult to understand their customs?! Wahlau, how'd you like if someone smashed your chee cheong fun in front of you. OK, I was just kidding nobody smashed anything but they are just. so. unhappy. all the time?!? WHY?!!

My first encounter was at the immigration check point. First thing I see when I come to your country is YOU! Wah lau eh, the dude was just so freakin fierce. I mean, I understand they need to possess a level of authority but really, some things were just not necessary. SHAN'T GO into details.

But with all bad things, come good things.

I'm just gonna talk about Hong Kong for this post first. It's really too much for one person to bear to report on a week's activities.

Hong Kong has the.... (who am I joking) BEST DIMSUM EVERRRRRRRRRRRRR.

Kinda forgot about that. But well, you'll see some gorgeous looking dimsums soon and before I talk too much, let's start the post with pictures from my XZ-1. I still think my cammie's awesome. ;D

Day 1

The mandatory airplane-in-clouds picture. If I were you, I'd go "lame".

Hong Kong! (Outside my hotel)-Metropark.

The Peninsula Hotel. Not peninsula but THE Peninsula Hotel. Not my hotel of course, coz it's the most expensive hotel in hk, that's what I heard. So duh, I ain't so rich to stay there. It's equivalent to The Fullerton in Singapore.

But I got to dine there! ;D Hahah.

I love this picture. The light shines through those big heavy glass doors. Magnificent.

Words in gold.

Pretty!!

This one pretty too! Oh gross, can't believe I just said that.

High tea! Haven't had pastry presented to me like that before.

Yeah, you'll get to see more food in this post and China post. It's just a food/guilt trip this whole week. I ate and ate and ate like a freakin cow. Am not surprised if I put on a few keeeeloz. But that wouldn't matter, coz I wouldn't know. I don't own a weighing machine.

Pretty tea thingums.
They drink loadsa tea btw. It's a Chinese thing I guess. Tea is good.

What I had as well.

It's English on the first half of the first day in hk. The rest you'll see are completely Chinese food. I love Chinese food, really. What can I say, I am Chinese. Asian food, in general.

I think everyone who goes to Hk, has been here. Or will go here. It's almost like Orchard Road.

I must say, as a whole, Hong Kong is pretty similar to Singapore. Except for the weather.

Vulgar building.

Avenue with the Stars. Something like Hollywood.

The cityline was cloudy like shit on the first day so there was nothing much we could see.

Nonetheless there were the likes of,

and

WA-TAH!

Not too bad now.

The supposed "mist" is actually pollution, I believe.
Oh btw, just to let you know, I went on this trip with my parents. My bro couldn't go coz of you know what. The army.

I'm not sure if this was Mongkok or somewhere called Tsing sua or something like that haha. I think it's the latter.

Busy

Our "Guardian", is their "Mannings"
Freakin vulgar again. Just doesn't sound right ya know? Mannings?

Had Claypot rice here. Really good. You should try it here. With the cold weather... shiok only. In fact, anything hot and steamy is just awesome.

Ladies' Market.
Supposedly the British named this place that. Forgot the reason why.

Day 2

May!! I came here! ;D
All the outlets~ Hahaha.

Took the cable car first tho.

Took the crystal cabin up there. Crystal, meaning the floor's transparent.

My dad was pretty amazed by it, kept wanting me to take pictures of the floor with our shoes.

On the way to see...

THE BUDDHA

The view of the buddha from the cabin.

Once we reached,

Had a raspberry icecream.

The thrill of having an ice cream in cold weather. It never melts. Haha.

DENG DENG DENGGG.

Pretty far, but I can see him

Gotta climb that flight of stairs, about 200 steps.

Omg, he's getting closer.

AND I SEE HIM!!!!
Not really. The sun was facing us. This is his silhouette.

Better.

Ginormous. Quite magnificent really. Tho the Buddha made us squint every time we looked up to him.

Buddha's Angels.

Like this picture

Meddling with the super macro function of the cam. Technology.

There was a beautiful temple up ahead. And we saw joss sticks so bloody huge. I dunno how many wishes you can make with that or how colossal your wish is.

Hi cow.

And Goodbye Buddha.

On the way back. I like this picture. Wished the glass wasn't so dirty.

At night,

One of the best egg omelettes ever!! I know they call it something in dialect but I forgot. Orneh? What?? With the hum inside.

Beef noodles. Ahhh~
Theirs come in clear soup.

Mongkok.
I like their night markets. I enjoy walking along the stalls and seeing what they have to offer.

Lady making you char kway.

Back to Hotel,

Hong Kong's MTR. Yeap you heard me right. It ain't the M-R-T there. In fact, Singapore copied HK's style of railway transport. Very similar huh? Easy way to get around.

For some reason, I kinda like seeing everyone around you dressed in coats and jackets.. in winter clothes. Something I don't see everyday.

Day 3

On the way, in search for the best dimsum.

Spotted this outside one of the hotels along the way. So pretty huh?

Took quite awhile before we finally reached the place.

Maxis Palace.

Omg, THE BEST DIMSUM I TASTED!!!! Here. Really good. Dad followed a travel book and planned the itinerary. The quest for dimsum was worth it.

We were early at around 11am. Note the empty chairs and tables. And watch them fill later on.

Fancy tea.

Dunno what's this called but it tastes good!

I mean, the ladies come in pushcarts, so we take whatever that looked good.

So cute huh! Their carts even have this little screen to show pictures of what their cart has to offer.

Char sau pau

Chee Cheong fun!

Tentacles

CHICKEN FEET!!!!!!!!! My favourite oh ma goodnezz. Like I already took a few before taking this picture, explaining the void.

Black Sesame jelly thingy.

Mango Pudding. Yum-my.

Macro shot of exquisite china

and...

HERE YOU GO!!!
By the time we were leaving,

FREAKIN FULL HOUSE!!!!!!!!

With a queue outside.

Up next, my favourite place in the whole of my Hong Kong trip.

Stanley Market.

The way there.

I mean, throughout the trip so far, all I saw were buildings after buildings and this place was quite scenic. Very lovely.

HK's houses. Their apartments come in these mini sizes.

I swear, they are damn small and their buildings are damn high. Moreover, they don't come cheap. They are pretty expensive in fact... Be thankful for your HDBs. Coz honestly, some of their buildings don't look well maintained. Ours, re-painting every 5-10 years?

Ahhh, this place reminded me of the UK. It was loveeeely. Without the weather, it may be a different thing. But with the cold, it really felt like I was in Europe again

I had to take a picture.

Bought a number of things in Stanley Market.

It really is Europe. I'm not kidding you. Check out the ang mohs. Quite a lot of them there. It was transformed into Europe.

Beautiful

That's that and we headed back to the city for dinner

Fancy schmancy.

O-ooooooohhhh

Snake soup! ;D

Outside,

Nice cobbled steps

Your father owns this

They still have those buses running on lines now. Pretty cool. Like Singapore used to have that but we brought it down after the British left. Whereas they, kept it. Wonder if it's a good thing or not.

Apple store for my bro to see

Took a ferry at night,

To view the clear cityline now,

I like cityscapes. Even Singapore's. They look...amazing at night.

Clock tower

Sorry, but erm, height difference?

Is it just me, or..

Second picture, freaking disturbing.

Priority seats. Random: I've never sat on a priority seat in my life. How righteous ;D

Day 4
Met some of my other Singapore relatives coz they were all heading to China too. But first, to Macau.

I thought Macau was pretty damn boring. There's nothing much, really. I'm always wondering who actually lives there ya know. Like, seriously

Dim sum in the morning

Flower taking ritual

The Venetian. One of the casinos we went to.

Looks quite majestic but alas, they're all fake. Just look at the sky. How beautiful. My ass.

Gambling hide out.

Headed out of the casino after a mere 30 minutes to see what's left of Macau.

This place was not too bad tho.

Went to St.Paul's Church.
Looks like a Muslim temple or something in the picture. Just a regular church tho.

Ruins.

The wall looks quite pretty.

But I've seen a lot of these in the UK so this looked quite meh... But while I was in Britain, I wasn't appreciative of them. Now I kinda am.

Nevertheless, at least they still have this wall left standing.

Look at the number of coins thrown. People think it's a wishing wall -.-

Mom bought some goodies here.

Had an egg tart here. Damn nice. Eaten too fast before I could snap a picture of it heh.

Nice alley.

Wonder what they were campagining for. Something about the black hole.

This one, really too much ah.

Walking back,

I found this.
The whole stretch of road belongs to Lionel HHAHAHA. His canton name's Wing Sing. You lil CANTONESE BOY. I even found you in Hong Kong hahahah.

This is the best,

Gui ling gao!! Hk's damn nice!!!!! Singapore's damn bitter. Theirs'... omg, heaven. I LUVVIT. Best, the stall was just outside my hotel and we had it almost every night.

Finally,

Cherry tomatoes to end the day. Bought in Macau and they were hella good!

That was Hong Kong for youuuuuu~~~

I'm damn tired now. Supposed to sleep early so I can head to hall tmr morning. Decided to stay at home for a full whole day coz I am just too tired... travelling about the whole week. Unfortunately, a blog post usually takes a few hours for me. Urgh.

Ok, I'm off nowwww. See you in my post for Swatow, China. Good trip.

2012-01-15T18:08:00.000+08:00

Hey guys, I'm back from my trip. I'm here to tell you that, I am so damn flustered now. I was in a very awesome holiday mood until I went to facebook and saw my friend posting a status about how she has tons of readings to do. I assumed it was all the stuff I was missing in the first week. Smsed her. She called me. And lo and behold, a ton of stuff just weighed down on my shoulders. I want to go back to my teochew land DDDD; where I only had to eat giam cai and be merry.

Will be back later with posts on my holiday! Hopefully I'd feel better after dinner. Sian!!! I'm told that my coursemates have all begun on their readings and are mugging like freaks already. What's wrong with people nowadays!!! CHILL LEH?!!?

2012-01-08T01:30:00.001+08:00

The Official Video. I like it. ;D

And how I got hooked to it in the first place, was coz of her,

The words fuck you, roll off her tongue so freakin well.

Btw, I found out about a month ago that Rachael Yamagata is coming to Singapore next month. I was so excited and Yi jie said we'd go together! Then, I realised, it's in the afternoon on a week day. Sure miss classes lah wahlau ehhhh. Bro made it worse by telling me yesterday that his friend got 5 tix to watch her concert. Urgh.

Alright, SEE YA KIDS. Hopefully my plane doesn't crash and burn.

2012-01-08T01:23:00.000+08:00

SO, I'm gonna be flying off in a few hours' time at 6.30am. My God, the thought of going to Changi Airport makes me wanna shit already. When I feel like shitting for no apparent reason pertaining to the body's natural way of digestion, it means that, I'm excited. This is how I tell when I really like someone's home. The minute I step into the person's house, holy cow, I feel like shitting. My anus contracts. Alright, too much already.

Anyway, yeah, I'm off to Hong kong for 3 days, then Macau for a day then last but not least, MY HOMETOWN, Chinaaaaaaa!!!!! I mean, my motherland. Ya know, this teochew province in China called Suatow or something like that. I'm sucha letdown. A teochew who knows no teochew. My relatives in China will think I'mma "Huang ren". Apparently, that's what they call people who are not so cultured or something along that line. Like they lost their native tongue.

And imagine them seeing my teeth. They'd wonder what's those metal stuff in my mouth. I assume they don't see much of that over there. But I never know, because my dad says ever since China developed rapidly and became an economic giant, my relatives became rich. MUAHAHAHA.

PLEASE MATCH MAKE ME TO A HAMSUM AND RICH CHINA DUDE PLS PLS PLS. Kidding.

Am pretty excited actually. Coz I've never been to any of the above mentioned places. Many of my friends headed over to Hong Kong recently. How come huh!? All don't care about H1N1 siah. And well, I've always wanted to revisit China. The last time I was there, was, at least 15 years ago. Since then, China has developed massively so I really wanna see Ch Ch China.

If you're wondering why I'm suddenly heading over there, and skipping the first week of school, it's coz my distant relative in China is getting married so they're lugging the entire Singapore contingent over hahah. It's like my great grandfather's brother's son who's getting married. Likeee wowwww.

My wkw friends think I'm a rebel for doing so, but no, this trip has a purpose yo!

Speaking of which, I was afraid I'd miss certain impt dates but it seems like Netball didn't make it to the Finals on Friday. I skipped that day because I had to be a Camp Faciliator. I heard, they didn't have enough subs and IVPs couldn't play, resulting in our loss in the Semis. Felt damn bad lah bloody hell, since I wasn't there when they really needed subs! It's not like I'm good at all, but in bad times, I wasn't there!!! Apa ini.

And since I mentioned about the Camp, I must say, I was drained after handling those P.6s. I can't imagine what it's like for those full-timers who do this all the time. Can die ok. But it was pretty fun afterall. But heart pain that the money's not pocketed by us but OCIP -.- Damn, we better make it to Chiangmai or I'll take all this money back and spend it on myself man!!!!

Some pictures heh, I only took them coz I had to. Otherwise, we're like too busy to do anything

At Bukit Batok Nature Park.
This part of the park looked damn nice lah, that's why I got a shot of it. A massive rock-like thing and a lake. iPhone still quite handy.

Rest time.

Awww, now when I look at them, I think they're so cute. Hahah. But back when I was doing this, it's realleh tiring, shouting here and there zomg. 19 of them eh, no joke k. Felt like a mother.

And as I watch them, my heart reaches out to them, coz I'm always thinking, omg, these kids, still have a long way to go before they reach where I am today, in Uni. They still have their PSLE to come, O levels, and A's. I worry for them, how they'd turn out to be but at the same time, I know these fellas will grow up, mature and pull through.

Btw, I dunno why they like to take pictures and some of ém wanted to keep the photos, especially the boys. Strange max. Generation gap. I remember I hated taking pictures when I was Pri.6 :S

OH OH OH, Ok totally random. But, after my camp faci, I managed to check my courses registered and I got Malay Level 2!!! Kinda expected it actually that they'd give it to me coz despite limited vacancies, it's not exactly a very popular course haha so yeap, I got it. No need to worry about Add-drop while I'm away.

And, no need to worry about anything else in Singapore while I'm over there.

Gonna clear my mind about some things and postpone my moody school blues hahah. Totally trying to escape reality the best I can. Ditching responsibilities tsk tsk.

Alright, I managed to pack all my stuff really fast, thanks to the constant packing to Hall haha, and I'm gonna get ready to sleep!

Soooo, this space is gonna be empty for a week. Will be back in Singapore on Saturday night. Not sure if I can blog after that since school's gonna be on really soon after. We'll see how!

Internet over there... hmm, I know China bans Facebook, Twitter and Msn. They have substitutes like QQ and Kaixin 001 and Douban. Really, you need to get into this whole China thing to understand China.

In the meantime,

Enjoy this while I'm away,

One of my favourite songs by Cee-Lo Green. Never thought I'd like a song by a black guy actually hahaha but I LOVEEE THIS SONG!!!!! Gonna post the video of it too, quite funneh hahaha.

I already remember the lyrics by heart, so by the time I get back from my trip, I expect you guys to know it too. Homework for the week.

2012-01-05T00:03:00.001+08:00

Met up with,

May!

Hokkaido Ramen hahaha

Spot her new mole!
Omg, May, it still kinda freaks me out a lil. You're not the May I know.

Wind.

Testing out the cam

Gifts from Heaven.

Hahahaha, love them all, May! So blessed huh? Birthday + Christmas + New Year gifts muahahahaha!!!!! Makin' y'all jealous only. Thank you, May me love'em all!!! (Oh, and btw yeah your booklet is with me HAHAHA)

Had sorta like a stayover last night at my neighbour's room and this is them, shifting the mattress for the queen, aka, me.

And I just met up with,

Vid!

And I dunno who's this

Hieh hiehhh, Swensen's.

Wore the wrong shirt... coz well, it meant so many things to us. Hahhhaha.

I haven't met them since... FOREVER. One overseas, the other trapped in the jungle. Somehow, it felt like we were back in tpjc. Really. Aga will always be Aga. And Vidthiya, well, she's still as crazy as ever. Same laugh, only I just noticed her trimmed eyebrows?! Don't bring angmoh boyfriend back ah hahahaha.

Man, the past few days felt like Tpjc all over again. No kidding! Fwahahahahahahah.

Guess what, I have to facilitate a camp tomorrow and I'll have to wake up real bloody early tomorrow. I seriously dunno what I signed up for. Seriously. Dreading every moment of it coz I'm such a slack person and suddenly I'm so freakin busy with this and that. Never, happened, to me before. So, I'mma see you in 3 days' time? Haha. Coz really, my schdedule's so tight and I'm so tired and I'm gonna fly off on Sunday. I really hope netball's IHG Finals wouldn't be next week, else I'm gonna miss everything.

2012-01-02T23:44:00.006+08:00

Kinda late but.... HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!

2011 was a damn good year for me. Honestly. But I'm not sure if I could say the same for the entire Europe and Japan. Bad year. What's more Katy Perry just got a divorce?? On New Year's eve or the new year? Either way, it sucks haha. That aside, 2011 was a really good year.

I went for a jog again. I had a nice leisurely jog. It's the first time I enjoyed my jog. Coz it wasn't too tiring. Best of all, I was able to sit on a bench alone and reflect a lot about the year's events and what I expect of myself in the coming year.

I expect a lot of things of myself. Sometimes a little too much. I think everyone thinks the same way. We want to achieve so many things and we feel like we let ourselves down too many times. Every new year, I'd tell myself and be expectant of what BAD things are to come. I always think, wow, I'm gonna experience more events that would make me feel down... and I'm just waiting for the next downfall to happen. But, no, this year, I won't let myself think that way. Or at least, counter-attack such negative thoughts.

This year, I'm going to take time to enjoy the little achievements that come my way and celebrate every possible moment that makes me happy. I read from somewhere, that we humans tend to see our shortcomings too often that we overlook what's best in us. That little spark in every one of us. Something albeit imperfect but unique and special. Be proud of what you've achieved. The tiniest and subtlest of things are really the moments we need to think about and celebrate! Woohoo!

2012 is the one year, or only year so far, I feel damn excited for!

I can't explain it but I get really hyped up just thinking about 2012. It's never happened to me before! It feels like there are endless, BOUNDLESS opportunities out there waiting for me. I'm just living it and waiting for what's to come.
I mean seriously, the past years, when I say I'm excited for the year.... it's all bullshit. It's just foolish optimism. Ok lah, nobody wants to say I'm looking forward to a shitty new year hahaha. But knowing how I'm feeling right now, I guess the feeling's just different and I know how I'm meant to feel.

Or maybe it's coz the prophecy about the end of the world is true and I'm really just looking forward to that and the end of my life haha. SIAO.

~

But yeah, 2011 was good. I discovered myself in some of the most painful processes. I mean, if you've been following my blog, I had some of the majorest worries and fears all spilt here. Some, I've yet disclosed. And maybe... what I am to do now, I would be.

If you know me personally or have been viewing my posts, I think you'd be able to notice things about my face that have been changing.

Yes, my face.

No, it's not plastic surgery...... but Acne.

Remember how after A levels I told myself I must find some sorta way to get rid of the pimples that were appearing on my face that never happened before? I thought it was a little too old for me to be experiencing such things. I thought my skin would get better. But I was wrong.

It got worse.

Every, single, day, I would look at myself and hope beyond imaginable hope that my pimples would disappear and I'd have my pimple-free face again. That I'd once again, be able to run my hand on a smooth patch of skin as the water ran. It wasn't just vanity, but the fact that my own friends cared about skin very.. very much and I was afraid of how people would view me. I don't blame them, it's just.. beauty and society.

It was a very painful time for me. Seriously. I know, how vain could I get? Over pimples. But yes, beauty can make or break someone. In my case, I was falling apart.

I could never hold my face up properly to people when I talked to strangers. In fact, even to my own friends, I tended to tilt my face a lil downwards prolly hoping some sorta shadow would hide the ugly red big things on my cheeks.

I no longer liked to take close-up shots in pictures.

In fact, whenever I went to cosmetic shops, I wouldn't even DARE look at the many mirrors. Even till this day, I shy away from mirrors in these shops sometimes. Phobia I would say, of what I was to see.

It was that bad, and I remember... after an outing with a bunch of friends, having bathed and was getting ready to sleep, I cried once, while I sat on my bed, thinking oh how ugly my skin had become.

It was really, that, bad.

I can tell and show you with pictures of when and how all my fears began,

In mid-J1,

I already thought this was bad, but not too bad. Because someone noticed my small zits appearing and told me my face looked bad. So it all started here and began snowballing into one big journey of insecurity. Now when I look at this picture, I think, hey, it's not so bad lah? Why did I ever listen to that one person?!?! The person told me not just once, but constantly told me, till I got psychoed to think it was.

Btw yeap those were my teeth then. That explains the need for braces hahaha.

Anyway, it just became worse and worse coz I tried every method to get rid of them and tested over the counter skin products. SOMETHING YOU SHOULD NOT DO *WARNINGGGGG

If you don't even wash your face with products, please, don't gey kiang go and buy products and wash your face when your face already looks good. I already made that mistake and I don't want anybody out there to repeat that same mistake.
Becoz what I didn't know and unknowingly did was strip the moisture out of my face over and over again as I changed the different skincare products and sometimes used it more than 2 times a day. I know!? W.T.F WOMAN!!!!! What were you thinking?!?!?!?! I used to not even wash my face with such stuff at all and had clearer skin.

In J2,

I thought, this was really bad. But this was October... A levels was about to start so I couldn't care much about the face and concentrated on my examinations. Studies > Face. At that point of time of course.

JC prom,

The one time I felt I looked good coz I was able to hide my zits with the wonders of make up. But that wasn't solving anything.

The worst it had gotten, was this,

Very bad. Look at my buay song face, you know already.

Just looking at these pictures reminds me of everything and it already feels quite painful.

And remember my trip to the UK? Most of the pictures of JUST ME, turned out looking like that,

Hiding my face. Quite artistic ah this picture haha. But ok, really, I was tryna hide my face.

WHAT A BLOODY WASTE. Coz Britain was so, freakin, beautiful. And all I could muster was this!?!?! What the * really.

I was quite upset. It was then, that I thought, enough was enough. I had enough of waiting for my face to recover. Had enough of the ENDLESS waiting of never knowing when it would. And tired of being insecure.

I wanted my confidence back. Because during that period of time, I was just not myself. Terribly insecure and horribly moody. I couldn't joke and kid around and be funny. I lost it. I lost myself.

And do you know how horrible it is to lose YOURSELF? It is pretty damn bad and I pray to God you'll never experience that. Coz you just don't know how to feel anymore. Or be how you'd be normally around people. I became very socially awkward because I could not get me back. I forgot how to BE me.

I decided, "I'm gonna see a doctor."

I went to a clinic in Tampines. Called Niks. I mean, I've been avoiding this issue the whole time. My good friend Yuanyun had been telling me to go for it, but I refused. Not coz of pride, but for the fact that I was doing this for vanity?!?! I hated knowing that I was paying for vanity. But no. I wonder why it took me so long to realise that my stubbornness was indirectly taking a toll on my confidence. This whole thing was bringing me downnnn.

Oh and I just remembered, a kid once asked me if I had chicken pox on my face hahahaha. And I said yes, I do. And gave a frown. Kids, they can say things that are the most brutally honest. They don't know the gravity of their words and how much words can hurt. But, they are, all true.

And yes, finally, going to the doctor was probably the best decision. And the right time since it was a few months before I entered uni which was in August. It allowed my face to recover and my own psychological wounds to heal. It got me prepared to meet new people, without having to shy away.

Along with the treatments, I read a book about picking myself up and daring to be me again. I know it sounds really melodramatic, but back then...... it was really that bad.

After prepping myself, I knew I was ready.

Sorry if this looks damn disgusting but I took a picture of myself then, just to see how my face was doing as I took the medications prescribed and applied 'em on my face.

It got better.

... and better,

Till... well, you're looking at me now right. Haha.

It isn't as flawless as it used to be. A few scars here and there, with pores that aren't small. I still, do envy people with awesome skin like my friend above, Vivian. Hahah and many of my other friends who have great complexion. But, I'm happy that I gained my confidence back and I don't feel sad anymore when I brush my fingers over my skin. I like what I see now. Yes, I do wish I hadn't tested over-the-counter products but really, I think I grew up and overcame such a bloody painful point in my life. I was at an all-time low in my life then.

BUT NOT LOW ENOUGH TO KILL MYSELF.
I'mma strong girl. Hieh.

Beauty I say, is something very superficial but when you think about it, if it is something that is pulling you down and stopping you from doing things, you've gotta do something about it. Becoz you won't want it to be the one thing that's anchoring you. Cheesy.. but, set. yourself. free.

It doesn't have to be in a way that I did, by treating myself, but if it's something you can't treat, then, accept it, move on and constantly have positive thoughts. It definitely matters. Read it somewhere, don't mind me.

So there you go, the struggle. 20 years down the road, I'd wonder why I got so fed up over something I would think as minor. But as of now, I know how badly the damage it did to me.

I couldn't help but thank my doctor in a card I wrote to her coz I think whatever treatment she gave me helped out a lot. Although I must admit, the clinic's earning damn bloody good bucks since patients become damn reliant on their skin products. :S

So, 2011 allowed me to do some soul-searching especially during that gap period between A levels and Uni. I experienced an all-time low but picked myself up. The good results that came along from the A levels release was also a great respite. But of coz, all good things come to an end and won't last.
Thus, really, we've gotta celebrate all the little good things in life while they last. I try to tell myself not to get fed up easily over small matters or get my insecurities in the way. Life is freakin short.

Jiaqi reminded me that we're turning 20 this year. One year shy from adulthood. Indeed, we're all maturing. But we're in this together, so no fear pretty ladies.

I'm excited for 2012.

And 2012... here I come.

2011-12-31T12:23:00.003+08:00

What are you up to on New Year's Eve?

Before 2011 ends, Let me talk about, "My Life as a Singleton"

Yes, the skeletons are out, I am evergreen and have been single all. my. life. Sometimes, I do get embarrassed about that fact coz it makes one appear as if they are terribly unliked by the opposite sex or there must be SOMETHING SO WRONG about that person. Indeed, I have questioned myself, what the hell is wrong?!

Am I unsightly to look at? Too retarded? Too strange and weird?

Before I get on to that, I must say that most of my closest bestfriends and friends are all, evergreen. But before you go..... "Oh, that explains it all.... IT'S JUST ONE WHOLE BUNCH OF WEIRDLY RETARDED STRANGE GIRLS MIXING AND MINGLING WITH ONE ANOTHER. No wonder"

But to think that something is wrong with ALL of them, that is definitely not true. Well, I can confidently say that allll my friends are very beautiful girls, both on the outside and inside. I can assure you, definitely on the outside since many people have told me my group of friends are good looking girls. I mean, leaving me out FIRST of course.

So, really, there is nothing inherently wrong about them and I'm sure they attract guys' attention.

But I see a common trait, running through all of our veins that could be a possible explanation as to why we're prolly not hitched, with a roof over our head and 7 children to keep up with. Joke. But, really, I think we're just not the typical average girl dudes would fall for. Ok, that may come as an insult to other girls. Let's rephrase that, we're the kinda girls dudes wouldn't fall for.

We are just not girly or gracious or shy at all. We are so loud and un-ladylike that maybe that explains it all. We're just so different!

I remember Shi Ying telling me to keep my "Sofy" away in my room. I'm like, "What sofy or WHO'S SOPHY?!??!" Just imagine some imaginary girl in my room called Sophy or Sophia oh my freakin god. I realised, she was referring to the sanitary pads on the shelf. But I'm like, "For what!!!!" And she reasons that that'd freak any guy out when they come into the room and sees THAT. But I couldn't give 2 flying buggeroos to clear that hahahahahaha and all she could say is, "Wah, you seriously no image to upkeep leh" Hahaha.

I guess, we girls really can't bother about how crazy or funky we may appear to guys. And maybe that is the reason why. I could say it's a problem. But really, a guy should like you...... for who you are right right?!?! Zomg.

And why is it embarrassing, admitting that I am evergreen? Becoz, people tend to think that by this age, 19 I mean, one should be hooked to some dude already and at least get a taste of SUMTHING. At least?! One night stand maybe? I'm just kidding with you.

I kinda agree with what they think in a sense coz I've imagined something like what if one day, my daughter asks when I got my first boyfriend and all I can smile and say is, "erm, your mom's a loser, she got her first one at 30." Holy shit, that's damn freakin old right!? And my daughter would start getting disgusted by her own mom and oh good lord, what if it becomes a deadly vicious cycle!?

With that said, it sounds as if I'm gonna declare my New Year's Resolution as "Get boyfriend or die". But HELL NO, I am not desperate to have one.

In fact, I am TERRIFIED to have one.

I was telling one of my friends that in actual fact, when I think about it, I actually get scared just imagining myself get hooked to a dude. Like c'mon, all my life I've been single so it scares the shitzels and living daylights outta me knowing that, wow, this could be serious and omg, I just won't get used to this.

And my friend, bluntly told me, "Coz you haven't had a boyfriend before" Yes I know darlinggggggg. Hahahahaha. It's a fact and that, I do not deny.

It's not just that... but something as simple as knowing someone fancies me, I'd get petrified because... childish as it may seem, but it's disgusting? The feeling is... of disgust and contempt. Ok, maybe not of contempt, but I get frightened just thinking, woah, this may develop into something. And once I know this, I can't help but not want to have anything to do with the dude anymore and possibly, shun him as much as I possibly can. That's when I don't really have feelings for the dude. Can't imagine if the feeling's mutual, but I may just do the same thing.

No, I'm not lesbian for God's sake. I have liked guys before, doh. Which girl hasn't?! Woah, it's already disgusting admitting to that fact but I'm being honest and true. But of course, they never work out.

Therefore, I must say, whoever breaks this bloody hard shell of mine, must've stolen my heart and taken my breath so freakin' far away that I'd say yes, to the start of a relationship.

I know, all you lovebirds who've had their hearts taken a million times before must think I'm a lil ditzy and immature to think I'm frightened by something like that. But I am and I'm very sure many of y'all were when you were getting into your first relationship. That feeling of uncertainty. And what goes on afterthat? How it'd work out?

And I'm scared imagining myself falling out. I see break-ups and they're always so sad when it's a one-sided thing while the other clings on.

Now, becoz of that, it is another myth that evergreens aren't the best people to go to when seeking relationship advice. It's coz we see it through the eyes of our friends and we are very neutral parties and are level-headed. Empathise? I think we do know how to empathise. Only thing we don't have, is the experience of being in a relationship, so credibility dips.

My friends and I have always talked about our fears and worries. The extreme as to, what if we end up being spinsters!? Then we'd prolly have to stay together and end up being quite miserable that way. Haha.

What a different world it'd be for us, coz I think it's quite funny to see them romatically involved with a dude coz we're all so retarded well, IT'S JUST FUNNEHHHH. But I'm sure, all of them will lead very happy, married and settled lives in the future.

What's left for me is a... hmm, I would leave it to.. what will be, will be. I wouldn't say fate, coz it's so gay to talk about fate. You can't expect such things to happen I guess. When it happens, it just does. I'd be left in a pool of misery and a pathetic mess if I were to constantly try to figure out stuff like that.

As for now, I am LIVIN THE LIFE as a carefree worry-less singleton.

But can I tell you, that while I was writing this post, someone has been on my mind all the time. FREAK YOU OUT!!!!!

I'll end this post off with,

A BIG ASS RETARDED PICTURE OF MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Happy New Year to you, buddy! Lookin forward to a great 2012 ahead. ;)

2011-12-29T00:09:00.000+08:00

Greetings from hall.

Cui looking picture. I think the best photo was of Poh ling's hand shooing my face off.

Anyway, I'll be spending my last days of 2011 in Hall. How fantastic. But of course, I'd be back home on the 31st dohhhh omg that'd be sad if I were to be stuck here!

Netball went really well coz our girls are so darn good. Tomorrow would be a tougher game coz the opponents are stronger. Poh Ling and I felt damn nervous lah? I think it's coz we've never really played a real game before?! What's more, I'm afraid I'd be a liability to my hall netball group. They're really good!! So it kinda feels like omg what if I end up pulling THEM down?!!?! Gaspszzz. But nah, I promised myself that if ever I were to be summoned to play on court, I'd put everything I HAVE to offer on court and be super pro-active. Woo-hoo.

2011-12-27T13:29:00.001+08:00

Check out my new baby!!!!

Yeap, new camera! Olympus XZ-1 (Ironic how it's being taken with my iPhone camera and then this picture comes out looking pretty good actually)

It's supposed to be my family's camera, but it's almost mine since the ratio of usage tips towards who else but me.

I love it!!!! And my family placed so much pressure on me to decide which camera to buy.

I sorta knew what I wanted. Something that wasn't a DSLR and something that wasn't like my old fuddy duddy Canon IXUS. I wanted something slightly more pro, yet compact. I didn't like how everyone's getting a DSLR and whatever... like, I think people like us who only want to take scenic photos and photos of ourselves should get compact. A pro camera is just way too big and bulky. (plus expensive)

After much dilemma and deliberation, I decided to get my Olympus.

I thought I'd get the Canon equivalent which was the Canon Powershot S100 that is pretty similar, but since it has run out of stock, I guess this meant the XZ-1 is for me.

The only thing that stood between me and the XZ-1 yesterday was the fact that it wasn't a Canon. I wanted to score loyalty points. And I was prolly brainwashed by the many Canon ads put up on tv these days... I thought anything but a Canon would suck. But I guess it's time for change. Imma give Olympus a shot.

And this camera, will be my baby for the next, and at least, 4 years of my life. So... from now on, the photos you see here, most likely my Olympus XZ-1 ;D

I suppose spoiling my camera at Bintan turned out to be a good thing afterall. Kidding. It's been with my family for 5 bloody years. Time for change, really.

I just went to research on YouTube on the XZ-1. I know it's kinda lame to be researching on something you already bought when it should be done before you buy anything. It was kind of a spontaneous outing to buy a new camera haha.

This guy is pretty hilarious.

Hmm, he made a comparison with a camera I thought I was gonna buy- Canon Powershot. Yeah, XZ-1 isn't as compact as the Canon, but hmm, I still like the design of the Olympus coz it looks slightly vintage and retro hahahaha. Of course, if I'd gotten the S100, I'd psycho myself the other way round.

Nevertheless, I still love my camera.

And it's white. How beautiful can it get?!

Of course, if I want a more favourable review of my camera, this is the video to watch.

Yay! Definitely the best buy!

I haven't understood all that ISO and Aperture shit yet. So, I'm gonna meddle with the new toy again.

2011-12-26T00:44:00.000+08:00

I can't really understand how people are willing to shift houses!!

A night ago, I dreamt that my family was gonna shift to Cle-freakin-menti. CLEMENTI. WTF!!??! In my dream, I was so so so SO terribly sad. I cried in my dream. Everywhere I walked in my dream, I was crying. And when I woke up, I started crying. I mean now, when I think of it, it's pretty stupid. But THENNN IN MY DREAM, it's like, I'M NEVER GONNA LEAVE PASIR RIS!!!!!!!! The west STINKS. Literally also. Hahahah.

I've lived in Pasir ris all my life. I moved house once, when I was 5 or smth, WITHIN pasir ris (lol, dad couldn't stand the bloody traffic and even slept in the storeroom once and figured, that it was time to move)

So, Imma Pasir ris girl. Material girl song starts playing.

The furthest school I ever went to was Tampines jc. Now, uni, it's a different thing.

But yeah, Pasir ris is my hometown babeh!

However, ever since Uni began and I started bunking in Jurong, Pasir Ris looks kinda different now. It's transforming. Bloody construction sites every-where. New condos being built. One right in front of freakin white sands. I can no longer walk to ws the usual way. The grass... omg... the grass is UN-KEMPT. Hello?? GRC??? Please cut the grass?? It's the first time the grass has grown into mega long weeds. So unsightly... we're looking like a kampong now. Next election I don't vote for PAP then you know ah.

What'ssss happeningggg?

Aside from that, I'm not gonna be like everyone wishing everyone else Merry Christmas. It's too overrated. Boring. Every year it is. New Year's Resolution? Ah heck it, nobody remembers what it was the last year. Can you? Then you must be one heck ova.. hahaha, nothing.

I'm DA Grinch. A few more days to 2012. Pretty scary huh?

Btw, I hate it when people put up religious gospel statuses on fb. Like, shut up? And leave them for Church on Sundays? Urgh. Angry.

2011-12-23T16:35:00.000+08:00

Something random about myself: I don't remember the order of ABCs by heart unless I sing the ABC song in my head.... Yeap, I'm pretty dumb I must say. HA-HA.

Pictures with my fantastic girlz, Playnation+Handburger.

Look at the concentration in Pohling's eyes.

To be honest, I'm not much of a console or wii or games person, but I liked the last game tho heh heh hehhh. Loadsa jumping and screaming muahahhahah.

Handburger @313!

I walked past this place a couple of times and thought it must be good since there are always a lot of people in there. Yeap, I think the burgers are not bad. It's just that... gourmet burgers are difficult to eat? They are too big to hold and it's too strange to use utensils to cut your burger. The rest laughed at me for asking the waitress "how to eat the burger".

Nonetheless, it ain't bad at all! :D

Bumped out and eager to eat.

Like this picture!

Love this picture!

Ah beng & Ah lian hang out area. No kidding.

;D

Honestly, I felt a bit awkward at the start of our meet-up coz it's been a really long time since the 5 of us met up. But uhhh I guess after awhile it was fine :) The train ride back was the best and our conversations were back to how they usually were.

As you can see from the pictures, no fugly frowns, which means my results were not bad. But they weren't extraodinarily good either. In fact, I felt slightly nonchalent. It was the same feeling as post- O levels results. When you feel like...... ok, I'm slightly disappointed but I'm not sad. I can do better than this though.

Happy that my core mods were done pretty ok. Disappointed by Malay which is a B!!! I came out of the exam hall feeling like a winner man!!! Apa ini!? Hahahaha, whatever lah I'm still gonna take Level 2 and make sure I don't lepak to get my A.

I definitely can do better than THAT. However, unlike jc or any other sort of examination system I went through, this is cumulative GPA. So I gotta work really hard in the subsequent semesters to pull my overall GPA up UP AND AWAY!!!!! I'm sure I can do that lah.

Afterall, this is only Year 1 Sem 1. Don't fret. ;D

2011-12-21T23:27:00.002+08:00

First and foremost, I have to apologise to anyone I've offended recently... or if I've been a lil off tangent from my usual self.

I BLAME IT ON PMS.

I haven't had my menses for... 2 WHOLE MONTHS!!!! Omg I swear... this is a record breaking thing. I no longer remember how it feels like to have MENSES. I swear. I see no blood. And it's unusual coz I have my periods regularly and at most, I skip a month. But this is like, 2 months!??! My womb's being a bitch. Ok, like thank you for not bleeding during important occasions.. but when you have to bleed, YOU HAVE TO YA KNOW, WOMBIE?

That is why, my level of tolerance lately is very very low. Do not annoy me, or I will annoy you by doing something you probably wouldn't like. Ugh.

For the record, no, I'm not pregnant. Don't be sucha lame-o.

Anyway.

I will finally be meeting my fantastic4 girls tmr. Finally. The fab 5 is back. Can't wait to see Yen Huei. She's.... wow, haven't met her since fo'eva yo.

Anddd hopefully, I would have ideal grades that would be revealed to me in prolly a few hours' time. Or else, tomorrow would be disastrous and you'd see me with a big fat FUUUGGGLyyy frown on my face. That, would not be nice. At all.

So Rui Lin has offered to buy vodka to drink the night away before we view our grades. We already drank pear sparkling juice that has been kept in my fridge since forever.. like it was already 2 days expired hahaha but whatever.

Yeeeahhh.... it's back to shitty school-related stuff. And I am quite.. pretty frightened just thinking about it urgh!

But before we dwell on all that shit, here are some pictures from last night's post-white christmas fwahahahahahaha.

Emo pic. The Grinch came around.

We weren't much in a celebratory mood coz it was only the fewwww of usssss :(((((
Nevertheless, we had a couple of htht sessions here and there with the guys as well. I know more about my friends now heh heh hehhh.

And recently I've been stuck in hall a lot coz netball trainings have been cancelled so essentially, I only came back for Tuesday. -.- Uh well, more bonding sessions I guess.

Oh and btw yes if you noticed, new hairstyleeeee hahahahaha. I need some getting used to, myself. Really. I didn't quite like what I saw at first, becoz I thought I look quite different with the bangs and stuff. But I'm slowly getting used to it. Bit by bit, my friends. And yessss, I was dressed like a Christmas Tree yesterday. I mean, whatcha expect? It's CHRISTMASSS!!!! ;D

And well, emceeing was as usual~~ Hard to get people to listen to you, but then again, when I am the audience I wouldn't give 2 flying doodleedoos about the people on stage hahahah, so I guess karma can be a bitch. Won't take it to heart. But it's nice when you see people listening. So yeeeeaaa, I should pay more attention to them next time.

AHHhHhahfheak RUGHH, hope my grades would be nice or this would be the first time my hall friends see me create a river as long as the River Nile and as wide and deep as the oceans. They'd see the Niagra Falls right before their very eyes yo.

Oh? Ya dunno what epic proportions of the Niagra Falls? Well,

There ya go. With a lil cutesie rainbow to go along.

All the best to me and everyone else. Ciao!!

2011-12-20T14:28:00.000+08:00

There'll be the White Christmas event later at hall and I'mma gonna emcee again zomg. Time to get mocked on stage again hahah.

Speaking of hall, it's IHG now and omg Hall 3 is not doing so well and lost a number of games. I feel scared for hall 3!! Like it's sad if we don't remain the champion hall this year when it's OUR batch.... :S Omg omg pls let us remain as champions this year. I'll run round the bloody pond everyday if that's what it takes to clinch championship once more!

Oh and I heard... Exam results will be out on Thursday Ahhh!! I'll be staying in hall to receive the results tgt w my hall sistasss
when the clock strikes 12.

Sighhhhh! When hols are just about to end, the stress starts swarming in.

2011-12-19T12:12:00.001+08:00

Omg, Kim Jong il is DEAD!!!!! Tuned in to CNA and it was breaking news :O

The whole world must be talking about it now.

2011-12-17T02:13:00.000+08:00

I'm very tired actually.. BUT I WILL FINISH THE POST. I've a camp training thing to go to later on today at 8 in the morning and Sunday. I didn't know what I signed up for man, I just said I was free, then got the shock of my life upon knowing I've to attend a 2D 1N camp. Good Lord! Uh well,,, LET'S CARRY ON WITH THE BINTAN POST.

Coz it makes me happy?

Third day was the most adventurous hahahaha. But let's continue from where we left, and that is...

THE NIGHT.

Hui Quan was going wild, jumpin on the bed and all. You know, ever since I watched this show about how a couple slept in a hotel room without knowing a dead body was underneath the bed, I now have a ritual of checking UNDER THE BEDS HAHAHAHAHA.

And I always imagine a pair of bloodshot eyes staring right at me once I poke my head under hahahah, freak maself out YO. I freaked the rest out too.

Anyway, we had 2 rooms that had a connector, so THAT was cool ;D

Showing you my unglam state of being. Ya see, I don't just show you my glam side. Everything, is spewed over here.

I now show you, RETARDED SU XIN!!!

Indeed, I have the most retarded friends ov 'em all'.

SEXCAPADE.

That night was really cossssyy. It was a total thunderstorm outside and we retired to our rooms pretty early after Kampong Lagoiiii. Had cup noodles for dinner. Everything was really too expensive for us, penniless university kids.

Watched the Bachelorette 7 and Masterchef together.
Chatted the night away. Gossip. Omg Hui Quan's inner gossip demon came out but I love it when she gives her take on every little thing. Pohling the loser slept early and missed out on everything. Lewwwserrrr.

DAY 3-

Chillin out like ahbengs in the balcony

Then everybody wanted to jump,

Ugh, typical. Literally, cam-WHORE. Hahahhaha. I've got more of these. Just saving you from the misery.

Last day in our bedrooomm,

Look at Hui Quan. Bimmmbo!!!

We no girls yo, we MONSTERS YO?! Man, we are messy lil girls

Last group shot in our room before we checked out at 12.

Well, our ferry was the last ferry to leave Bintan which was the 5pm ferry. So... for 5 hours.. no room, we were quite clueless as to what to do next.

Headed to the resort's pool coz according to Poh ling, it looks hella enticing.

I SEE... CLEAVAGE!!! Nice boobz there Poh Ling.

Playing with the water... childish.

The cool kids,

Awww Hui Quan loves me,,, I love her too!

My friend,

My friends,

FREAK YOU OUT WITH MY WHITE EYE!!!!!

The "Everybody hates Sally" photo. Hahahaha.

The dude who took our photo guessed that we were university kids. BETUL!!!!! You mean, you can tell??

Prolly, a lot of uni kids go there too.

BECOZ YOU KNOW WHAT??? Like we saw 2 batches of Hall 3 people during our trip. The first and last day. I dunno. Is Bintan like the number 1 quick getaway destination!?

Since I've been showing you the good side of Bintan all the time, lemme show you something shitty.

POLLUTION!!!!!!!!!!!

Thick black smoke billowing from the freakin chimney. What. the. shitz. Damn disgusting.

What can I say, Indonesia? First, forest fires, now this? Tsk tsk.

We really didn't know where else to go, so we decided to RENT A BUGGY!!!!

EXCITING PART!!!!

This cool dude sent us back to the hotel first in his buggy coz rental would be done over there.

Before we rented the buggy, we took a picture with

a christmas tree.

Anyway,

OUR BUGGY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

We damn cheapo. Coz 4-seater= $36, 6-seater=$48. BUT WE HAVE 5 PEOPLE!!!! HOW??!?!?!!

So we, I mean Huiquan, bargained with the uncle for a really long time to just give us the 4-seater plsplspls. Damn, she's damn crazy bargaining for everything hahahah but I like!!! He was quite adamant about giving us the 4-seater, claiming it'd be dangerous and whatnot till he called up his boss. His boss agreed to it.

HEE HEEE!!!!!!

So there you go, OUR VERY OWN BUGGY!!!!!!!!!!!

We tipped the uncle of course, for his valued services. Initially we just gave whatever change we had.. but converted to SGD, it was like, only 2 bucks. So Pohling gave more and eventually, it came up to about 4 bucks. The uncle was like wooahhh, so much. I think to them, in rupiah, 4 bucks is like.... wow. Millionaire alr. I dunno why, but when I gave the money to him, it felt as if I was bribing him. Like corrupted. But not really...... ;) And he accepted it with this sly look on his face like oooh moneyyyyy.

Guess who was the first to drive the buggy? I mean seriously... who? Who's a WINNER??????

Well, me, duh, of course?

The picture just screams, CHAMP!!! WINNER!!!!!!! SO KEWLLL!!!

Yeahh,,, and I had a go round the roundabout to have a feel of the driving.

And of course, success, duh?

SO I was driving around acting like this cocky lil bitch.

CHECK OUT THE VIEW YO!!!

They were totally enjoying it. Poh ling was my navigator.

It was all smooth sailing. I was even screaming out, "WAH MY DAD SHOULD SEE ME DRIVE MAN. AND I'LL SHOW HIM I'MMA GOOD DRIVER. I should totally get my license now...." Blahblahblah

Until....

EEEEEE-YOWWWWWW- BANGGGGGGGG. GA BOOM!

AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

Rammed up a kerb. Immediate fail.

WHO'S THE WINNER NOW????????? Smart ass.

Loooooserrrr!!!

AND THAT RETARDED HUI QUAN COULD STILL TAKE PHOTOS OF ALL THIS WHEN WE WERE ALL DESPERATELY TRYNA GET THE THING OUT.

Do you know how freakin scared I was?!?! Wah lau eh! Sheez in my pantz yo. Not jizz but sheez. Hahahah.

But I'm so lucky to have these people around. They didn't start to panic or curse me for almost killing all of them. Instead, they were laughing and giggling, thinking how fun it was to almost get themselves killed. Hahahah wtf, but they rock.

We were just like, 1,2,3 PUSHHH 1,2,3 PUSHHHHHHH. Damn it, it sounds like birth labour, come to think of it.

F! See that crack in the buggy? Shit man. I'm pretty sure I caused that crack. If we were found out, WE"D HAVE A PRICE TO PAY. SO I was kinda freakin out, but... nawww, we were just like, nahhh, nobody's gonna find out.

So duh, afterthat I dared not ever touch the wheel again. Ok, on the way back I did, just to prove to myself I could drive. But with utmost concentration.

So it was time to hand it over.... TO THE PRO.

TAN HUI QUAN. She looks damn cute in this picture!

She's the one with a driver's license. Come to think of it, why didn't she volunteer in the first place?!?!? Hahahah. The uncle just pointed out to me and I was asked to do it!

Anyway, she was damn pro ok. Like she was so fast, even down steep slopes and narrow lanes. And she was the most gungho one among all of us. We were like omg, no, this place, for golf buggies only, we're not allowed to enter.

BUT SHE'S LIKE, with her heck care and I-don't-work-for-nobody attitude and just drove like she could hardly care about anything else.

AISEH.

Now, my turn to enjoy the breeze and awesome surroundings.

But of course, very shakened by the incident.

Check it out!!!!

They have very beautiful golf courses. Seriously! Like Singapore's are really small and unkempt? But here, they're like, wowawaoiwhdoah!!!!!!

We found this reallllllyy pretty place, with a huge landscape of trees and a small little waterfall. Pretty pretty.

Hui quan brought her tripod. And we were ready to do what girls do best.

TAKING PICTURES!!!!!

This is a nice shot. The 4 of us and the backdrop. Marvellous.

Then Hui Quan came up with this awesome funky idea of 8 quick shots. And they're all really retarded.

I'm just gonna show you some of each take.

Take 1!

The backdrop's just.... ahhh............

Take 2!

Take 3! (Notice how the first pictures are all really angelic and lovely.. until you get to the next... Holy.. cow.)

Retarded.

We did running takes as well.

Hahahahahaha!

I love Hui Quan's photo!!

ANG MOH MAX!!!!!!!
Love it.

Then comes the best take, the don't-snatch-my-LV-bag.

LV BAG IS MINE!!!!!!!!!!

Freakin' aunties. I don't know them.
Pohling and Hui quan look really funny in the middle. Crashing into each other just for a bloody LV bag. FUNNY MAXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX.

But of course, we have AWWWWWWwww photos.

Lemme hear you say, awwww...

But they go a lil crazy afterthat as well,

After all that craziness, it was almost time... to head back to Singapore.......

But before that, it was one... last time at the beach.

Perrreetty couples shot.

Awww, I love this picture, Poh Ling!

Setting up the tripod, once again

FOR CRAZY SHOTS ONCE MORE!!!!!

One more time, one last time....

Hehehe! :)

Solo shots,

Rui Lin lookin at the sea, with a forlorn look.

Poh Ling looking for ants on her skirt

Su Xin and her JCRC pose. HAHAHAHAH.

Me, well, blowing my nose.

Hui Quan, well.. WHERE IS IT?

I LOVEEEEE THIS PICTURE!!
Neighbours fo life.

:D

Final group shot,

And we end off with something stupid,

Ahhh.... I can't ask for better travel companions for this trip. Great travel mates. I really couldn't ask for more. This trip, was reallllyyy funnnn. It's the epitome of FUN. Good clean fun of course.

I'm so lucky to have found these girls in uni! I love'em!!!! And I know it's too early to say this, but... Friends for Life? :D Heeheeeee.

And I did ask myself, is this the end? Nope... it is, cheesy, but only the beginning. We're all still in hall and another semester to go with these girls!!! So exciting!!! What's more, we all stay on the same floor. More auntiness and gossips to come our way. Luvvit.

I'm still unsure whether or not I wanna stay in hall in Year 2, or IF I can stay in hall for that matter of fact, but Year 1 so far, has been one heck ova joy ride. CAN'T WAIT MEI NUSSSS Hahahahahhaha.

So, with that, I'm gonna end off with a few more pictures of our ferry back home..... and that's the end.

Souvenirs for our other 2 gorgeous girls who couldn't make it for the trip

Trip back to Singapore!

Haha. Bintan was... cool. ;)

2011-12-16T05:43:00.001+08:00

Yayyyy, ok I've organised all my pictures! READY TO BLOG!!! I'm excited.

BINTAN TRIP 6th-8th December 2011

Anyway, like I said, the beach was really damn damn DAMN pretty. Like it was exactly how I imagined it to be.

The sun was so damn bright that we all had to squint. The sky was the right shade of blue... endless and filled with pretty clouds. The sand, white as... erm, not as white as snow but WHITE.. and soft. The sea was the right shade of sea blue...

I swear to God I didn't dare to Google how Bintan'd look/be like. Coz I was afraid of getting disappointed. I was expecting, rain, since it is the monsoon season BUT WE WERE DAMN BLOODY BLOODY LUCKY!!!!!!!!!!! Becoz the first day we went to the beach, the sun was shining strong and bright. But the next day, woah, thunderstorm and we had a cosy evening in our room funkying around. And the last day, the sun wasn't as friendly as Day 1 and there were light showers. SO HENG!!!!! Thank goodness!

That aside, I realise.... I can't count my mathematics in hundreds and thousands well. Like, I'm always giving them extra cash.. luckily they're honest enough to return like 50,000 rupiah to me all the time. RUPIAH'S JUST SO DAMN INFLATED!!! I mean compared to SGD, it's like..... we're "millionaires" there.

With that said, all of us thought we'd be queens there. Coz we had hundreds and thousands of rupiah with us... and thinking Bintan stuff'd come cheap. But... HELL NO! Everything there was so damn ex pls. Like a bag of potato chips could come thrice(or more) the price in Singapore! Wahlau, I swear you'll appreciate the cheapness of your mama shop near you can.

Oh, and actually, you don't even need to bring rupiah along with you. Everything's labelled in SGD. You pay using SGD. -.- Coz the bulk of tourists heading there are ooooh, guess what?! SINGAPOREANS!!!! Hahahaha. Expected lah. C'mon like a ferry there takes only 45mins-1hour?

LIKE IT'S FASTER GOING TO INDONESIA THAN GOING TO PULAU FREAKIN NTU. *rollz eyes. Haha!

K after so much talking I'm just gonna give you a rough guide, Day 1, Beach. Day 2, BALINESE MASSAGE MUAHAHAHAH Like shiok only? Day 3, Well, Day 3 was the most exciting. You just gotta stay long enough to find out what.

With all that said, LET'S FREAKIN BEGIN WITH PEEKTURES!!!!!!

Hmm, first picture,

Well, what else?

ME. Hahhahaha.

Despite the double chin, this is a nice candid picture haha!

F4.

Introducing.... TRAVEL MATES!

Tan Hui Quan!

OH Rui Lin

Erm, Ooi Su Xin.
She... was doing something.

This one, needs no introduction.
Oh, you don't know her name? You can call her bitch Poh.

The Rock,

A propagandic picture of True Asians.
PUNY EYES!!!! Derogatory: Slit eyes. -.-

This picture was taken very nicely.

I really like this picture! They look so cute AND IT FEATURES THE BEACH NICELYYYY.
LOOK AT THE CLOUDS!!! Like they were painted on a canvass of the sky.

Glad to have her there with me!

The Sun.. was really, damn bright.

Ok, this was when we just wanted to check the beach out and we were so enthralled by the sea, and everything there that we started taking pictures and almost forgot that we were supposed to find somewhere to.... EAT.

Mee Goreng

Go there... of coz must try their local delights lah?!
The only food place we went to was the hotel's restaurant haha. Coz everything else were either insufficient for our insatiable appetite or were too... you guessed it, TOO EXPENSIVE!!!!! Don't think you millionaire there can afford everything okkkk.

And of coz, once we were done with makan, IT WAS TIME TO HIT THE ~~BITCH~~BEACH.

Swim wear + Shades + Plenty of Sunblock and we were READY TO GO.

HEHEH ;D

Welcome to Bintan?

Neighbours FO LIFE.

I became Hui Quan's model

I realise, it can be hard to model, coz you've to pretend you're INTO doing something but.... you're not

Jump!

To my disbelief... A PLASTIC BOTTLE!! Cheat feeling only. But nvm, still better than ahem, pasir ris park. Or any of the beaches I've been to so far.

Love this picture.
You'll see me jump like that when I become Valedictorian of my cohort. HAHAHAH AMBITIOUSSSSS!!!!!

But omg, THE SKIES!!!! I loved the skies.

It was one whole endless stretch of THIS.

My crazy neighbours.

Notice the super clear water?

But back to the skies,
I insisted that we had to have our pictures taken horizontally with the skies...

Oh btw, the other 2 were suntanning. And didn't wanna have their pictures taken with their bikinis on. They said they were shy. Whatev!

Act yi ge cool HAHAHAH.

I find it damn funny when they use act yi ge.

Act yi ge F1 girls.

I like this picture

ACT YI GE CHIO HAHAHAHAHAH.

But man, I fell in love with the skies. I'm still in love with them. I always make a point to look at the skies whenever I'm overseas... coz it's hard to look at the skies in Singapore with buildings and skyscrapers so tall and obstructive.

And when you've looked at the skies long enough, you'd notice the orange hues in the horizon...

Observe the beautiful skies.... then look at my face. They don't tally right?
THAT was when I found out BOTH my cameras spoilt...... :(

I'M NOT GONNA TALK ABOUT IT. Too depressing.

The must-take shadow on sand picture

Ankle band

Pretty residue formation on the pillar.

An incomplete, otherwise cantik shell. I kept it.

I like how the colours orange and white blend together. Sometimes, I wonder how these colours form on shells... It's as if someone painted them. Nature truly works in mysterious ways.

Was fooling around.....

... when I accidentally took a zoomed in picture of myself.

Couldn't help but stare at my own face for a long time.
I dunno why. But I was intrigued by my own bare face LOL. It's as if I had never properly looked at myself before.

Legs. You don't even need to guess which one is mine. It's so damn obvious. Find the orang utan's!

Wah shit lah, I'm really damn hairy. :S Guys will run for their lives when they see my hairy legs yo! They'd mistake me for a chimp.

Anyway... it was starting to get dark.....

Hui Quan dancing hahahahahha -.-

A damn nice picture of Hui quan! You can see a very nice orangey pinkish hue of the horizon. Pretty.

Hehehe! Me likey this too.

Slowly....

Pohling taking it all in hahahah.

Nice!

Friends.

And we really watched the sky go dimmer...

Ballerina wannabe. My legs were not even properly 90 degrees hahaha fail!

And dimmer.....

Air drums.

Till, the moon was up,

Pohling was really bringing her inner model OUT.

Cool or what

Blur

Ahhh... the bg looks nice..

Ring the bell... for "service" ;D

Then, we had dinner. Same restuarant hahaha. We were pretty exhausted btw and we started talking about how competitive Hall 3 is and blahblahblah and everything suddenly became damn serious haha. But of coz, food was the best mood lifter.

Satay

Tandoori Chicken

Hui Quan had to take a picture of every dish we had. But the photos damn nice right!? Her camera's a Canon DSLR, so yeah that explains it all nyahahahaha.

After all that, we were pretty tired. Want to gossip also too tired.

OH BTW, Indo time is like one hour BEHIND SG time. So you could kinda call it jet lag. Or ferry lag in this case fwahahha. So in Day 1, we set off SG at 9.30am but reached Bintan at 9.15am so it felt as if we went back in time, sorta. So coool!! It's as if we didn't have any time wasted.

Day 2 was shopping and exploration day.

Shuttle bus out to Kampong Lagoi. I expected something looking SERIOUSLY like a kampong. But naw, it looks quite commercialised actually. To cater to the bulk of Singaporean tourists haha. And once you alight, the kampong folks'd all swarm you with Spas and massages and manicures and whatnots. But at least, Kampong Lagoi sells stuff at a cheaper price. Like finally, a can of coke really costs only 1 dollar like it should and not 3 dollars.

The place was surprisingly quiet tho. Like they were lacking in tourists.

As you can see, they sell small little souvenir-like items.. but they're repeated in every shop. So I couldn't exactly find much things that I found were interesting or unique enough for purchase. Like Hui Quan said, NOT EXOTIC ENOUGH. Hahah.

Nevertheless, we entered every shop to look see look see!

Pretty dream catchers

They have many of them there.

Don't mess with Miss Oh.

Was pondering on whether or not she wants this. Didn't get it in the end!

Act yi ge shy!

Pretty snowflakes

We realised, we HAD to find something to do. So we decided to try out.................

MASSAGE!!!! Balinese at that! And Hui Quan was damn funny coz we were trying to bargain for a cheaper price since a full body massage was at SGD31. She wanted to go all the way down to SGD25 OMG CRAZY EH THAT GIRL!!! But when I went back home, my dad said she was right and that actually 25 is still too much hohoho.

Eventually, we settled for SGD29. THEY EARN A LOT PLSSS.. Like 29 times 5. They rich already.

SLEAZY MAXXXXX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I realised, when I'm overseas, I learnt to be damn ON GUARD.

Since the ones who were promoting to us the massage were all guys, we were like, WOMEN DO FOR US RIGHT?!?!?! And they're like yes yes woman.

Still, not satisfied. WHERE ARE THE WOMEN?!?!?! SHOW US.

I tell you, throughout the whole trip I'm always thinking omg, what if people catch us and we're gonna end up as prostitutes blahblah. What more, kena raped by all these men.

But of course, there were women who'd be our masseuses. Many of them, in fact.

All excited to have a massage!

Especially this one. Hahahahha
Like Vietnam bride waiting for her man.

Anyway, it was my FIRST time ever having a massage. What more, FULL BODY. Wahlau eh NEED TO STRIP SIOLLL, we shy only. But of coz, just down to the undies. Two of our girls were bloody during the trip if ya get what I mean.

I got a single room with just the masseuse since we played oyabehyasom and I had to do it alone. I'm... fine.

The massage was DAMN GOOD THO. Like they'd massage everywhere including your stomach, head and little parts like your fingers and palms. Totally needed that since we all write so much. Of coz, sometimes it hurt but it's shiok at the same time? Like sometimes it felt like she was massaging my ORGANS. I could feel her rubbing against my liver and kidneys omg.

And my command of basic Bahasa Melayu came in handy dandy, and my masseuse was like, "ahh, you know Malay ah" but I'm like, "just a little bit." Hahah, pls don't talk to me in full sentences coz I'd be like, HUH!? Tolong ulang?!

Not many people were doing the massage.. in fact, we were their only customers there at that point of time. So I was wondering how do they earn a living man?! Is that why they send so many of them to be maids and domestic helpers to Singapore? And then hook up with the banglas hahahhaha. Romantic escapade.

Ok, digression. BTW HUI QUAN SLEPT DURING THE MASSAGE LIKE WTH!!!! But I must admit, the music was pretty soothing... Sleep-inducing.

All of us, after the massage. As you can tell from my messy hair and Rui Lin's teeko satisfied face HAHAHAH. She was like, "the raping is done" LOLLL WTS!!!!

Diva (that was typed on his name badge) was like, "Cantikkkk!" after taking our picture hahaha. Charming, that one.

The people there were nice lah. They've won themselves loyal customers!!! ;D

Kampong Lagoi

We were thinking of what else we could do coz we still had about an hour to kill before the final shuttle bus came to send us back to our hotel.

We all decided to get something to bring back to Singapore.. so we got these keychains with our names embedded on them.

They're those typical keychains, but they're quite pretty lah. And we managed to look around and the final one seemed to fetch the best price.

Su xin looks cool here only lah. Like one of them already.

In the process. He uses this tool to burn through the wood.. I thought he'd carve our names out initially.

Saw this pretty yellow bird in its pretty cage there.

And we also spotted this little rascal!

This photo was part of a cute story Hui Quan made up of him hahah.

Rui Lin, the biggest pedo on earth HAHAHAHA. With that creepy smirk and ahpei seating position and coke in one hand... omg totally pedo. Damn funny.

And everyone just wanted to get up close with the boy~

They were saying she has the same eyes as him LOL LOL!!!! And that she looked like his sister...

whereas... ON THE OTHER HAND,

... Poh ling looks like his MOTHER HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH.

Can totally feel her motherly vibes emanating in this picture please! And Rui Lin was saying she totally blends in with the Kampong people here, so she's a Kampong Lagoi girl HAHAH WTF!!!!

But I think this picture is nice tho. :)

Father and Son

Awww so cute, the way the boy's looking at his dad. His doe-eyed expression. His dad was very nice. In fact, the shop seemed the cosiest of them all? I think maybe it's coz we spent the most time there haha.

KAMPONG LA-GOIII

Empty.

Sat and chilled with ice cream/drinks before the bus came

Although Hui Quan doesn't look glam here, she still looks good right?!?!?! Like she looks damn angmoh lah with those angmoh eyes hahahaha. Or Kampong Lagoi eyes whichever you prefer.

Final group picture before we left Kampong Lagoi.

Retro looking counter and James Dean!!!!!!

Bus is here

In the bus,,,,

Look at retarded Poh Ling and Su Xin -.-

It's 5am NOW AND I SHALL CONTINUE WITH THAT NIGHT tmr And of coz, Day 3, our final day. It's kinda nice to blog and at the same time, relive these memories hahaha.. Stay tuned yo. While I get some sleep.

2011-12-15T14:01:00.001+08:00

I just added my mods on the waitlist! I reaaaaallly hope I can get Malay Level 2!!!

It's like the Vacancy is 22 and I'm like the 22nd person to register. HOPE I CAN GET IT. I RANKED IT NUMBER ONE. I'll know by 6th Jan, fingers crossed. Then I won't have to worry about it while I'm away from Singapore.

My other choices are People&Society, SQUASH(Like.... huh?) and another 2 ADM mods. Just to make up 5 choices. Wahlau, if I get ADM I will just jump down from the ADM building ok. Then the hill would be the Red Hill of Ntu.

Gonna makan tengah hari now, and afterthat I'll use my journalistic skills to bring to you the much awaited Bintan post. ;D You'll see it up here either by tonight or erm, dusk.

2011-12-15T02:34:00.000+08:00

Woah... Jiaqi just showed me this video of an Ah beng.

You know I've always said I'm not afraid to speak Singlish and that I'm proud to be A Neighbourhood School Kid (NSK-yes they have a term for it I just realised).....

WELL I HAVE SECOND THOUGHTS ABOUT THAT AFTER WATCHING THIS VIDEO

All I can say is what the f?

I almost chided Jiaqi for watching the entire 10 minutes of the video when I had the video played for a few seconds. Then I realised, wow, this is entertaining. AND HIGHLY ANNOYING.

Disgrace please? Or should I say, PREASE? What the hell, I swear, he deserves an award.

What's scarier is, although the majority of the video's ratings are 'dislikes', there is a substantial amount of "likes" for his video! That, is scary. They're increasing as we speak.

I thought the ahbeng/lian period was over....... I guess not. Especially since this video was uploaded like, 2 days ago? Ugh, ew. He makes my.. guts churn, and... well, just not pleasant at all.

If you're racist towards Malays, well, take a look at your own race first.

I dunno what to say. Prease eradicate all gangstas and bengz prease. This is bad.

p/s Oh Good Lord. He's a Tan.

2011-12-14T01:56:00.000+08:00

I reeeeeealise, Sports people can be... very...... serious.

They can be damn focused, that's one thing, but I realise I get quite intimidated sometimes becoz they can appear quite cold. Don't seem to smile or laugh much.... Not all lah, of course. But I think those who excel in sports are the ones who appear very down to earth. Ok, but everything's based on first impression. I'm sure they all have their own sense of humour.

But I do admire their drive. You can see it in their eyes..... Out to win. Their gaze, unwavering. I guess that's what I find very admirable about them. Maybe the lack thereof personally that's why. I think it's something I can learn.

Hey, I might just get a pair of running shoes. Like "omg" right? Hahaha. Wtheck, join Hall 3 then become like that. I dunno whether to pat myself on the back or question what possessed me and took over my body. Hahahah.

I think it's really coz of the Netball training. Practice later today again, better sleep soon or else I'll die again like the previous one.

Anw, I've uploaded the Bintan photos to photobucket! Decided I can't wait any longer for the photos to be transferred to my thumbdrive. So I downloaded and uploaded hahaha. I'd still love to get my hands on the real stuff. But for now, I'm gonna blog about the trip.

SO wait for the post tomorrow. Journalist on demand. Let's put some mass comm skills to use. Not like I've taken that module yet tho hahaha. 297 pictures to blog heh heh. I think more like, blogspot will die. Might have to release Part 1/2. Ketcha later! ;D

2011-12-13T00:58:00.000+08:00

Netball training was so. tiring. I'm not sure if it's coz I'm really so damn unfit, or coz I only ate 2 charsiew paus and chocolate for brunch?!

It has to be the latter. HAHAHAH Blame it on external circumstances. But I do believe I'm as unfit as a fuddle.

My vision even went blurry with colour being sucked out and all I could see were black and white. That would signal me to stop whatever I'm doing and REEESSSTTTT. Weakling! But I'mma gonna train coz I feel obliged to. Today, another 2 rounds round the pond! Saya Boleh!

I sent in film to be developed on Friday and I was asked to wait for 3 days before I could collect 'em. Love the excitement of waiting for photos to be developed! And I just collected it after netball practice. Out of 10 shots before my camera got spoilt, 7 came out. And they looked so, so, prettyy!!! Plus the special effect coz of the sand + water in the cam and overexposure -.- Dumb woman, exposed the film to light. But everything came out kinda nice? Couldn't help but smile at the Bintan pictures.

I intend to fix the old camera. Hope the Nikon agent shop'd be able to remove all the sand that got in. Man, I was really one heck ova dumb biaaaaaatch!!!!

I googled for, "How to remove sand from my camera"

And I saw comments from so many other different people and they all said they ACCIDENTALLY dropped their camera into the sand.

I, on the other hand, WILLINGLY, UNSELFISHLY, ALTRUISTICALLY, placed my beautiful nostalgic camera on the sand with no holds barred.

Retarded woman, I swear. -.-

Uhh oh vell,,,, that's what I get!

Anyway, I'm still damn psyched to blog about the trip, but I've yet gotten those pictures! They're only available on fb tho. Haha. Maybe I should just download them from fb first hmm... But I really wanna blog about it, before all the excitement draws away.... Dilutes, and fades into the not so distant memory.

This was the kinda fun we had. Retarded.

2011-12-10T23:51:00.001+08:00

Call us despos....

But.....

HAHAHAHAHHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Abercrombie & Fitch hunkz. LOOK AT THOSE ABS. FO REAL I SWEAR!! And they'd put their arm on your shoulder. They're paid to do that -.- Toy boys. Hahahah.

Omg, we totally did it. I saw those guys on the news but thought it was just one of THOSE things that happened every now and then without thinking I'd do it actually. But we happened to be in Orchard today. And Yi jie Happened to hear about it and went in search for them near paragon. HAHAHA "happened" was the word, I swear. I wouldn't even bother to do this please. Despo maxxxx!!!

But we did this for fun HAHAHAHAH. Yuanyun was totally like, NOOOooOOOo I'm not gonna do that. Hahahahaha!! She's the ultimate lookout for eyecandies and hunks but she was totally adamant about taking pictures with these dudes hahaha!! Asian pride. Kidding! But boy, those ABS WERE FREAKIN REAL!!!!

And I wanted to be next to the african american guy but i dunno how it happened and yijie got there first. DAMN! She calls him chocolate lol wth!!!!

OH AND YUANYUN SPOTTED THIS. They placed their pants real low? Till you could see that V shape of their ahem ahem. Sexy pleaseeee. LOWER!!! LOWEEEERRRRR!!!!!!!!!!! Hahah, ew oh gawd I sound like some ultimate bimbo desperate for hot guys. Ew, I'm so not that.

And I saw Silvia there and the first thing she showed me was her picture with them!! And I was like, WE"RE HEADING THERE NAO!!!!!! Desperate maxxxxx.

I guess it is a pretty good way to draw crowds and advertise for the opening of its new store. Like I actually know WHERE A&F is right now. I wouldn't even bother if I hadn't met them or heard about it on the news. Great thing to think of. Can be a bit retarded tho. BUT FOR THE FUN OF IT, it's really damn creative.

Anyway, they'll be there till Thursday so GO GRAB YOUR ONCE IN A LIFETIME CHANCE HAHAHAHA. Wth man, one of the models told me, "We'll be here on Thursday, so you can come see us again" What in the world!!!! I bet their egos must be damn big now.. seeing how all the Asian girls are throwing themselves at them. But heyyy, I was just there for the fun of it kkkkk. MUST JUSTIFY HAHAHAHA. Even a few guys went to take pictures with them.

Yijie wanted to go to the other side of the building to take more pictures with the other models but nawwww we didn't. Enough is enough GIRL!!!! She just doesn't know when to stop, can she?!

They had one female model there too. Had to take a picture with her, coz she so pretty!!
Hehe! Yuanyun with her new bangzey bangz. Nice huh?? Her fringe suits her!

Weeeee weeeeeeeeeee, daiso is yuanyun's fav hotspot. DAISO HOU DAI OR. (canto accent)

Joelyn you gonna be with us the next outing for Pepperlunch k!!! ;D

The desperate aunties.

2011-12-09T22:13:00.001+08:00

Just watched Pride & Prejudice and Phoebe in Wonderland today. Good movies, you should go watch. Can't help but always wish I could erase my memory and watch the same movie again whenever I find a movie I enjoy a lot.

And yessssssss, I'm back from Bintan.

Bad news first, I went with 2 workable cameras and came back with none. Not that I lost them. I spoilt them. Yeah, I SPOILT them. I was too stupid. Left them on the sand... water seeped in, and the sand as well. And ka bloody BOOM, they're dead. Devastating!!! Coz I brought a film camera.... an old camera and I was so excited to use the old camera and try film again. And I had to spoil it D:

I felt so bad. Luckily, Rui Lin and Hui Quan had good cameras to take pictures for the rest of the trip.

Good news... well, there are no good news. Because,

The entire trip..... was..... Great. I would say, it is one of the best trips I have ever gone. It was so damn fun. And adventurous. Literally. Adventure-rous. I... don't have much things to say, until I get the photos. It's just one of those days when I just want to relive those memories on my own once again in my own head.

I want to escape from the real world for a while. That's what happened in Bintan. I put myself somewhere without having to think about everything else- school, studies, insecurities... I was happy being myself. Well of course, my mind tended to wander off about school-related stuff and all but I told myself to enjoy the rest of my stay. It's really true, what they say about coming back to your own country and then knowing you have lots of things to do again. And reality shakes you awake from the blissful dream you were living the past few days. Sigh, you wish those days just never end.

But of course, a few days are enough. I just wish I never have to think about stuff that can make you so hard up.

It was a really good get-away. Very fun. It's been awhile since I had this much crazy ass fun. Getting into trouble and because of that, get really excited but anxious at the same time. Then unwind. And wish you could REwind after that.

You'll know what I'm talking about soon, once I get hold of all the pretty pictures. Mine aren't so nice. But I could give you a sneak preview ;) Hahaha.

Ahhhh, the trip was really damn good. It was damn fun I really wish the fun never had to end.

Glad the people Poh ling and I went with were good companions for a trip overseas. - Su Xin, Rui Lin and of coz, bimbo Hui Quan. Happy we're hall friends. Happy, SO HAPPY!!!

Sneak preview~

All these.... before my camera became unworkable. It was only the first day!!! So watch out for the next Bintan post, for even more photos on pretty Day 1 and other stuff on Day 2 and 3.

The pictures in my camera are not as bright as those of the rest, but man, the beach that day was... beautiful. It was exactly how I pictured it to be. The sky, sun, sand and sea.... Perfect.

Perfect, it really was.

2011-12-06T01:25:00.002+08:00

OK, I over-reacted niahaahhahahahaha. The person just switched privacy settings hahah, so it's not my problem. I was definitely, over. reacting.

This was what I did to find out. Don't laugh lah wahlau.

Ok, firstly my problem was why can't I view the person's profile even tho the name's there but it's in black and I can't click the name to link it to the person's page even tho comments made by the person could still be seen?

I made Yijie my puppet. I posted comments on her wall. So when I de-activated and blocked her, both ways, the comments disappeared. Unfriending, well, a friend once did it to me for fun, so I knew what would happen hahahahahahahaha wth.

Googled. Well, it's the most helpful tool. And it gave me my answer. All that fuss for nothing.

Yijie told me I shouldn't have facebook this way. Especially for someone who thinks too much, tho she found it highly entertaining... the way I panicked. And Jiaqi says I should permanently de-activate/ delete it. So I'd be the original me. Hahahah, whatever that means, Jiaqi HAHAHA.

Wasted a few of my heartbeats for nothing. I could've died. I'm ok. Coz I think I just need to sort my timetable out. Should I have a hectic Friday? Or switch one of my tutorials to Thursday? Which is pretty laidback in my opinion.

Story of my life. Now you know how easily I freak out. My goodness.

I really need to get used to this Fb thingum. How many months and I'm still not very knowledgeable with this tool. Like I said, it's a TOOL. Better not let it control my life my gawwd!

AND YES, I CAN SAFELY SAY NOW, Bon Voyage!

I've to wake up real early and reach the ferry terminal by 7:30am -.- Shit lah, coz I panicked I wasted precious sleep time. I'm sucha lewwwserrr!!!

Pretty pictures for you guys soon yeah? ;D

2011-12-05T23:59:00.000+08:00

I. am. FREAKING OUT NOWWWWW OMG OMG OMG OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

I can't believe this is happening. DOUBLE WHAMMY I SWEAR.

I want to f myself until I die omfg OMGGGgggggg.

Tomorrow is my Bintan Trip and THIS happens.

2 Things happened.

1) My timetable will not be as sui sui as I planned it to be. I want to cry now man omg. I realised I can't drop one of my cores, so I have 5 cores to take. Which means..... On Friday, I have to stay in my school from 9-5pm. Like literally camp at wkw for that long! Holy * Like, that's working hours? I DON'T GET PAID NO NOTHING. AND I HAVE TO DO THAT?!? It's not TGIF. It's... I almost said FGIF, but nah, I don't blame God for that. Ugh. And I thought I'd have a nice timetable with Monday freed. But I waited with bated breath when I added that mod I thgt I could drop. And it was THERE. Sitting on my monday slot. F YOU YOU LIL PIECE OF SHIT.

Now, with that said. What's next?

F YOU FACEBOOK!!!! You make me think about things that should not be thought about

2) I'm wondering... SOMEONE COULD HAVE UNFRIENDED/ BLOCKED ME ON FACEBOOK!!!!!????!!

F!?!?!??!?!?!

LIKE OMG. I dunno if I'm going crazy after that first thing happened to me so my mind's quite OFF right now and I think about all the shit in the world that can freakin happen. My freakin' * I'm not even sure, but I think about all the possibilities that can happen.

Don't piss me off right now, or I will piss....... ON YOU.

And it's not helping that I'm looking at sad stuff like,

http://www.buzzfeed.com/mjs538/the-most-powerful-photos-of-2011

The 45 most powerful images in 2011. Have seen some of them in newspapers before. Others......

Pls. Don't. Make. Me. Cry.

Sigh. Just when I thought I could leave y'all with some happy BON VOYAGE message before I go.

I guess. Shit. Happens.

2011-12-04T22:53:00.000+08:00

I like this ad even tho my dad thinks it's stupid hahahaha.

I think it's the music and they chose sucha nice place to shoot it at- Rome.

Chi Ling Lin very prettyyy.

2011-12-04T15:33:00.001+08:00

People, I'm noticing a girl-stache on my face. EW! I think I've been observing too much of my body lately. The vainess.

Anyway, I've kinda roughly planned my schedule for uni, next semester. It's quite a chore to have to do that fastest fingers thingy and rush with everyone to 'kope' vacancies. What's more I may be in Hong Kong during that period. Wahlau, their internet there better be good if not I plan the timetable sui sui then cannot get what I want, it's like a slap in the face. Hahahah, ok not exactly.

But I've chosen mods that sound pretty interesting to me. I think I will advance my level of Bahasa Melayu to Level 2. Coz I find it such a waste to stop there and still not be able to properly speak the language. I like Malay anyway, so it should be fine. And omg yes, one of my core modules is Media in Singapore. Fwahahahah, that's cool. Can't wait to study that. Shall drop one core, and complete my Liberal Studies requirement.

It's either Social Culture & Popular Trends or Coping with Cultural Transition. Both sound equally enticing.

See, uni sounds pretty fun huh? We get to learn stuff that seem more applicable to life and the news around us. But I guess, the fundamentals during pri/sec/jc were important too. That's how we got here in the first place.

Oh btw, I'm down with a lil bit of flu and sore throat after Marina Square yesterday. Sianzipua, better recover before Bintan siol! The weather man, it was raining the whole day yesterday tsktsk. But one pop of the clarinase, should be ok in no time.

p/s omg I just found out I've to register prescribed electives on the 7th. And I may be in Bintan then?! Wahhhh, don't tell me I've to do it there... This is damn sianz. Ok, this is really annoying. Need to bring laptop? And will there be internet connection over there?!??!? Omg. Uni doesn't sound so fun anymore hahahaha.

Nvm, I shall let Zooey Deschanel cheer me up. She's so kewt eh!

2011-12-03T11:42:00.001+08:00

Omg! The Bintan trip is 80% confirmed. I am exciteddddd. But it's the monsoon season and I seriously hope it won't rain there :( Or else quite wasted.

AND OMG MY MENSES BETTER NOT COME. Or I will just....... It skipped the whole month of November leh. Can't really remember when was the last time it came :S Coz ever since I began uni, it's been quite irregular. I think it's coz of the change in lifestyle. Like I was so slack during those 8 months of rest then now it's like, wow.

Man, I assume all my readers are girls since I'm talking bout my boobz and my monthly cycle. Hahahahaha. Oh, btw I hardly get cramps and I can't tell when 'it's coming, unlike every other girl. It's only when I get into the toilet and then I.... ok, nvm shan't describe.

OH, tell you guys one really amazing thing.

I RAN!!!! I jogged yesterday for at least 20-25 minutes. ACHIEVEMENT MAX!!!! That's like 2 rounds around the the big fishing pond. Can't believe it huhhhh. But I intend to do that at least twice a week? Coz I really wanna train for Netball Inter-hall. I mean, if you're gonna participate in something, better work out right.

But of coz, I was panting like a dog after that. Hello? The last time I ran was like, October. Ok, doesn't sound very long ago, but still? Hahaha.

Met my lovely Yuanyun yesterday @WHEREELSE BUT PEPPERLUNCH AT WS HAHAHAH,

Cui picture of us outside when the wind was blowing.
And YESSSS I BRAIDED MY FRINGE. (Youtube tutorial vid of course) Coz my fringe is so bloody long right now, it just does not lay the way I want it to. So Imma gonna braid it till I cut my hair some time in mid or end december. YAY.

Yuanyun and I are thinking of cutting our fringes, but she'll cut it first.

And of coz, we talked till the night made it safe for vampires to come out. We just can never run out of topics to talk about huh?! And my secrets feel safe with you. LOL sounds really funneh.

Anyway, I was telling her, I have plans to meet up with several people in mind during hols, but when I really have to get down to it, I'm actually quite lazy to do so HAHAHA. What the h.

And, guess what?

I have not gone on Facebook for 2 WHOLE WEEKS ALREADY WOOHOO!!!!

Pro or PRO????? Bet you guys will be like foaming at the mouth if yáll don't touch it even for like 1 day. Hahahaha. Lewsers. But I willl break that self-restraining order later today. I need the online social life I guess. Actually it's quite freaky eh, everyone's like online freaks coz they use fb everyday.

But life back to pre-fb time, is quite... how should I put it? Serene?! I feel less busy for some reason. My soul is at ease.

Btw,

These Dr.Martens' boots look good.

BUT they don't look like a very good investment. Like it's just a passing trend catching on. Plus, they don't come cheap yo. Ugh, they're tempting.

2011-12-02T03:09:00.001+08:00

School's OUT!!! Exams are overrrrrr woohoo. I feel happy but not exactly VERY happy? More of relieved that it's over.

I'm kind of worried for my results. Not the papers' results coz I found all 5 of my papers rather manageable. Like, I'm quite confident. It's... the OVERALL grade that I'm worried about. Coz I'm SOOO afraid my mid-terms would pull everything down?! I was in the post-camp mood then and like, wasn't even ready to study yet. Remember? I thought I was losing the motivation to study?? Only like, Oct-Nov period I finally got the will to carry on HAHAHAHAHA wts like as if gonna die like that. But YEAH, I seriously wish final exams have like more weightage. Like WAYY more weightage.

Now I know. How the system's like. Will work harder and do better next sem ;) Uni's still pretty fun actually.

In fact, my Level 5 hall friends and I have booked a trip to Bintan only JUST at Golden Mile fwahahhaa. It's not confirmed although the 5 of us have already paid coz we're risking it to see if there are any more hotel rooms left. If there are none, then the trip's cancelled. With a full refund of course. But not to worry, we have a backup plan. And that's to go to Universal Studios Singapore. OMG THAT'S A PRETTY GOOD IDEA TOO HUH?!?!?! I knowwww!!!

So, either way, it's a Win-Win situation ;D

Speaking of hall friends, my dad was like, "Again, hall friends ah? Never heard of you going out with your faculty friends"

Hmm, I was quite affected by that somehow.

Indeed, I'm closer to my hall friends. And yes, I do not want to relive that whole jc mess again. But this time, it's different. I like wkw. I'm actually quite proud of my school coz I feel like we're special. And no, unlike jc, I feel like I belong in wkw? Other than that, I have good friends but we're not as close as Hall friends yet? Like only to a certain extent we're close, but it's not the... I-will-jio-you-out for a date kinda close. Yet. I emphasise the Yet. Coz I'd still like to see the brighter side of things. That there WILL be friends I can hang out and chill and be myself with. Only time will tell. What's the rush, I believe I still have time.

Of course, I have that annoying inner voice that puts out that whatever sort of hope I hold for myself. The mother* cynic. Hahahah. I Hate It. It's like a battle of inner demons and wars with myself AGAINST myself. How FUN SIOL. WHO WINS? ME. WHO LOSES? ME!!! Place your bets darlings!!!

Am tryna be an optimist. Coz really, optimism quells every other form of shitness you hold on yourself.

Then again, I read too much into things. COZ I CONFRONTED MY DAD AFTER HE SAID THAT hahahaha. I ALWAYS make sure I clarify things or I'd hold it against my conscience if I don't. My friends will know this. Anyway, I was like, WHAT YOU MEAN BY THAT. He just said I always seem to be hanging out with my hall friends. Seriously, it's always the way people say it or the way people hear it. Something's always wrong. Hahaha. Comm skills.

Speaking of Communication. Damn, I love what I'm studying. Ok maybe just that one module. Everytime I study my module, I think about how it relates to life SO MUCH. Do you know we study the process of Breaking up? Like a couple breaking up. The whole lecture theatre was just so darn quiet when the lecturer was explaining to us the process of "Breaking up". It was TANGIBLE. Like, Joshua and I believed everyone was thinking about their OWN break-ups while the lecturer was explaining all the chim terms. I wished I HAD a break up before, then I'd get to analyse it. Fun. We also learn the process of how romantic relationships are formed. And friendships as well. ;D But urgh, I heard next sem's gonna be the shit coz there's a lot of dry statistical stuff. BOO-YA.

K, too much talking.

I've been wanting to say a lot since quite awhile.

Anyway, before I leave, I want to introduce to all of you this AMAAAAZZZZING blogger.

I LOVE LOVE her fashion style and LOVEEEEEEEEEE the photography of her and her clothes. Damn freakin good. Her photographer's her boyfriend. Like, I've always thought it'd be nice to have a boyfriend who's good at taking shots. Of you, that is. HAHA. Like I LOVE scenic backgrounds with yourself in it.

I've always imagined going to a place like this. I'm not even kidding I swear to.. God.

Nicole Warne @ garypeppervintage.bs.com
Australian.
Found her through Chictopia. Coz I found her dress sense damn unique and nice at the same time. Like I can go on and on with all the vivid colours she uses to match. It's amazing. This piece she's wearing that I'm showing is quite mild. Not her usual style. Won't post pictures here. So plzz check her blog out. Am gonna place her link up there among "Blogs I read" ;) Love it.

K see you, my eyes are dying. It's the first time today when I looked into the mirror and found that my eye circles were showing and noticeable. Was quite horrified. Like today's really bad. I think last night lack ov sleep yo. So TOnight must sleep. It's 3am. Like I mean what I say -.-

2011-11-30T13:08:00.000+08:00

This is damn random. But it feels like my boobz have grown bigger. Puberty all over again. Kidding. But to be honest, I don't like big boobs. I prefer being flat with small boobs hahahahaha. Wth. Big boobz aren't nice to me. Ew. I'd rather be like those high fashion models with their flat chests LOL. I'm still A cup, no worries Hahahahahah.

A very random post. Pls don't mind me.

OMG TMR'S MY FINAL PAPER CAN'T WAIT TO GET IT DONE AND OVER WITH!!!!! Can't believe the last 2 days passed so fast.

2011-11-27T22:59:00.000+08:00

I'll be back.. next week. I'm busy doing something useful like studying for my papers! Reading the discussion forum makes me stressful because of the knowledge everyone else has. Makes me feel like I'm lacking in something. Then when I think that, I start to lose confidence.

BUT, when that happens, I always Google. And Google, makes me happy. Hahahahaha. Search engines are man's bestfriend. PAPERS, HERE I GO.

I will get the As I want.

2011-11-23T00:56:00.001+08:00

Ya know, I think my body is at it's peak form right now. I may not be very fit but I'm sure I'm healthy as hell. Coz ya know why?

I shit. Not only do I shit everyday, I shit TWICE A DAY.

After lunch, I shit. After dinner, I SHIT.

So I just shit and shit and SHIT! You don't know! I'M JUST SO FULL OF SHIT.

It ain't lau sai. It ain't diarrhoea. I just dunno what you call this.

I wonder what's making my bowels so loose. But I'm kinda lovin' it coz this means my body is doing what it's supposed to do. Churning shit.

Thanks for reading this post. Bet you were going, "What The Shit?!" as you were reading. Hope you weren't having a sumptuous meal while reading this. Then again, I hope you were, so that you'd shit just as much as I am right now.

;)

2011-11-22T15:25:00.000+08:00

All things, China.

HANDSOME BOY!

I sound like a paedo, but boy is he handsome. I'm not as paedo as jiaqi who says she wants to marry him.

A video I came across, explaining the rise in China. So freakin' convincing. I remember making a speech on Asian Identity. Wow, I'mma believer.

Finally, the most articulate Chinese woman, ever.

Just look at the way she stands and how she projects herself. A stunner.

Yeap, everything's China coz I'm studying Media in China. Paper's next monday. Malay's tomorrow. 5pm. 3 papers at 5pm, so late. Gah.

2011-11-19T16:27:00.001+08:00

Erratic weather. It doesn't matter if you're in the East or the West. For some reason, it starts raining heavily at 3pm after a blazing hot morning.

Anywayzzzz I'm done with my first paper!!!! There is NO anxiety at all. It felt like I was taking a test. It's definitely not like A's or O's or T's. Just kidding bout the T's. But you get what I mean.

Even tho everyone's all cheering that they no longer have to touch that certain module again, I, on the other hand, feel a tinge of sadness precisely for that same reason. Dang I'm weird. I'm too sentimental for my own good. I feel sad when I have to lay something to rest after spending months with it. You know? Like you're never gonna see it again. The journey there was arduous and you want to get to the end point badly, yet you don't really want to see it end?

No joke man, travelling from East to the West and back again. 9am paper= 7am rise and shine. Hate this "I'm tired but I can't sleep" feeling.

Btw, I've been thinking a lot lately. Ok, not lately coz I always think. A lot.

I find it particularly intriguing but at the same time quizzical when it comes to life's journeys and fates.

You know how everyone, your faculty mates were from many other schools.... we went to different schools, different education systems but we all ended up here, in the same university eventually. I've always felt that it was quite amazing. Like, we all came from different backgrounds and had dissimilar experiences. Yet, it seemed like it really didn't matter which path we took, because inspite of it all, here we are, back again. From the very beginnings of the rigourous education cycle at PSLE, we then parted our ways and now we come back together at the final pitstop of our educational path, University.

DON'T YOU FIND THAT AMAZING???

We all went by different routes. And somehow, we're all moulded differently because of our different experiences in-between. Now, in retrospect, it seems like whichever schools you went to doesn't matter at all. Because here we are again, back to when it all started.

I was telling my dad all of that this morning. He agrees.

I'm kinda happy I went by the neighbourhood school route. Serious. I think I'd be a different person if I went the other route. Ok, not like I COULD. But, yeah, it's just different. I think I would be less thoughtful as a person? LESS VIRTUOUS hahaha. Coz it was the secondary period that changed me I think. Secondary school [edit]taught[/edit] me that friends were important. I don't think I would've thought that way if I went to an academically driven school.

Oh, how I love to look back at life! Don't you?? I love to think a lot from a very macro point of view and look at things in retrospect.

Story of my life.

Anyway, back to that paper this morning. I'm glad to write like an insane person again? Writing when you have no time is freaking thrilling. Like when you have much things to say but the darn clock is ticking. Woah, exciting. HAHAHAHAH.

And once the first paper starts, I think the rest of the dates for papers will come and go pretty fast. In no time at all, Dec 1st is here. Can't wait for exams to be over!!! GOT SO MUCH THINGS TO PLANNN FOR.

Btw, have you ever experienced a time when you listen to your ipod so much so that you feel like you're listening to the same songs over and over again? I am now. I think I need more music.

p/s thanks yingjie. l-o-l.

2011-11-18T00:49:00.000+08:00

1) Have been watching the SEA Games. Swimming. More Golds for Singapore plz. Don't let Malaysia catch up.

2) I think everyone's paranoid. Inferior. I am. I think everyone is. Now, we're not up against people from tpjc only. We're up against people from RJ and Hwachong. No joke you know!

3) Remind me to buy Rachael Yamagata's new album once exam is over on the 1st of December. Chesapeake. Listen to You won't let me. Pretty awesome.

4) Go study. I'm concerned about you too.

2011-11-15T17:26:00.001+08:00

- Sums up the way I feel about...

2011-11-14T01:08:00.000+08:00

Buay TAHAN!!!!!!!!

JOSHUA WAS FEATURED ON URBAN FOR ST!!! HAHAHAHAHAH.

I knew sooner or later he'd be spotted amongst the crowd and be featured for being fashionably fashionable hahahah like that makes any sense... fashionably fashionable -.- Vocab list needs to be expanded.

But yeah!! Omg, I love his sense of style too? And many people've told me he has an awesum dressing style ahahha. Btw, what you see here... it's quite mild actually. Like there are bolder stuff he's worn before. HE is my fashion icon. LOLLLLZ!

No shame you know that boy.. still can ask Lionel and I to "watch out for Urban." Wahlau, like I knew in a split second what he was asking us to look out FOR.

;D Boy, ROCK ONNNNNNNnn.

Anw, I think my abstinence from fb, is working.

Now, I need to get my game on for Exammmmms. I feel kinda slack actually. DEFINITELY not as chiong as A levels to be honest. Like, I don't feel as ganchiong. Look, I'm even blogging one week before exams haha.

BUT, I enjoy studying :S Before labelling me a freak, I have to say I really enjoy what I'm studying... most definitely... as compared to what I was mugging for A's. Like.. H1 chemistry and maths chapters like P&C and Probability... not my favourite! I don't even LIKE studying those things goodness!

That's why studying what you like... is so important.

I realise, every module I'm studying for requires me to write essays. No calculation, no anything else. I mean, even Malay. A 50-word essay haha!

I really hope I won't get writer's block on exam daysssss sigh! But all's good and swelllllll/ STUDY, GIRL!!!

2011-11-12T01:06:00.001+08:00

Ok, revision for Finals begins, so... I shall blog about stuff I've learnt.

So, you're gonna get free Communications lessons hahahaha. I'm gonna apply concepts I've learnt to my own life so it'd be easier to understand for both you and I and for me to remember. What's more, you'd prolly get to know me more as a person, throughout this whole process.

I find whatever I learnt in my introductory module verrrry interesting. Makes me think a lot about how people think and how they speak when we meet new people. How relationships are formed as well.

Very interesting, so stick around k!

Expect more of such posts like these to come along until the end of my Comms exam, which is the 1st of December!

Let's start off with Perceiving and Understanding- Chapter 3.

This was the very first chapter that got me very interested in my course, becoz it applies a lot to my life and probably yours too. Becoz it's about how we perceive others.

You know, when we meet new people. Or even just LOOK at people, we can't help but judge them right? Good-looking, average-looking, whatever. We learn how YOUUUUUU people judge others.

There are 3 stages that occur when we judge and perceive a person- Selection, Organisation, Interpretation.

FIRST AND FOREMOST,

This is what happens when we judge someone.

We go through a process called "Selection"

We pick out things that stand out to us, or are important to us. Change compels attention. And we tend to pick out things that we think are critical and ignore the rest. When we tell ourselves to focus on something, we will focus on THAT thing we're doing.

The next thing that happens is, "Organisation"
4 schematas help us with this.

Prototype: Let's say, your type of guy, or for instance, I use my friend's(Jiaqi) ideal type of guy: Tall, athletic and plays basketball. This is the Ideal type of person she is looking out for. Thus, we all have a "Prototype" ideal type of person we look out for, the best representation of something or someone we look for as a friend or lover, whichever you're desperately looking for HAHAHHA.

As for me, well, my ideal friend has to be someone I think is Loyal and fun. Someone I can really click well with when we joke around with one another and have similar values I uphold in life. And as for a lover, honestly, I have no "ideal" kind of guy. I really, dunno what I look for in life omg. I only know that, as long as I can communicate really well with that person and be able to disclose a lot of things, well that person would be it. Probably like a bestfriend? Looks, erm.. of coz we like eye-pleasing creatures. But that can be subjective as well, becoz not everyone thinks Jay Chou is hot. Ugh.

Like, everyone says that girls think that having a sense of security, is the first thing that every girl looks for in a guy. But for me, naw, that ain't it.

Personal Construct: I think this is very applicable and true.

Everyone uses personal constructs. This means that people use only 2 extreme ways of looking at a person.

Which means, when you first meet someone, the first things that MIGHT go through your mind are

-Goodlooking/ Not good-looking
-Smart/Stupid
-Interesting/Boring

If I knew Paris Hilton for the first time in my life, I'd prolly think- Hot, Fun, Dumb.

Different people have different sets of personal constructs that we use though. And usually, we use limited constructs to judge someone. WHICH IS WHY JUDGING IS BAD. We only perceive by highlighting certain qualities in a person.

Let's say a person is Not good-looking... but we don't realise that the person could be a very Loyal person as well. But thing is, we judge them according to looks first by using certain constructs. WHAT A SCREWED WORLD WE LIVE IN. First impressions and looks are indeed, very important in this world. Therefore, when people judge, it's usually according to appearances I suppose.

Stereotypes: Generalisaion about a person. Prediction about how a person would normally act in a certain construct we applied on a person.

Ok, I have thought of a certain stereotype that has been in my mind for... quite some time.

When I think of girls who come from Girls' schools like tkgs and all those chij schools, I'd think of them as independent-thinkers, opinionated and erm, bitchy hahaha.

But no, it doesn't mean that I dislike them. Becoz I have friends who come from girls' schools, but their kind of bitchy is a funny kind of bitchy.

But yes, I do admit that those traits come to mind upon realising that girls I first meet, were from girls' schools, heh. Coming from experience, I still think they apply. IN FACT, I have ever considered that, if EVER I WERE TO be enrolled into a girls' school, I might turn out as quite bitchy.

AND COMES THIS POINT which says that, stereotypes don't necessarily reflect actual similarities. In fact, by generalising them, we fail to see what makes them unique and different from what we categorise them to be.

Scripts: Guides that organise perceptions into ACTION!

We have scripts for practically everything we do. Like you know, when someone greets you at the doorway with a smile by saying, "Good morning!", you'd of course, unless you're as unfriendly as Jiaqi, RESPOND and reply the same thing. That's coz we're expected to do such things.

That's why we get annoyed by people and others when they don't follow your script and way of thinking. When you think that your boyfriend should do something lovely for you on Valentines' Day but fails to do so, well of COURSE you get bloody mad. Hahahaha. Indeed all these are proven in research, especially for romantic relationships.

According to research, it is proven that partners who see their r/s as consistent with their perceptions of normative scripts for dating have generally positive evaluations of their partners. And vice versa.

There you go, 4 schematas that help us to organise our perceptions.

AND NOW, The final part."Interpretation" of what we perceive. Why do they do that?- Explanations for what we observe and experience.

We like to give reasons to why people are like that.

I can't tell you what those reasons are, but I can tell you that when we try to explain certain things, we'd think why something happens is due to internal or external factors. Then, stability, specificity and control. Quite dry, so I won't go into those things.

Then there's the Self-Serving Bias.

It says that usually when failings happen, we tend to blame another factor for it and when good things happen, we'd claim credit for it. An example used was having an argument with your boyfriend/ girlfriend. Usually you'd blame the other party for being the arsehole. I think... this one quite true. Unless it's an abusive relationship. Coz, you don't usually hear your friend complaining to you, "IT'S MY FAULT IT'S MY FAULT" when they complain to you about their other half.

Guidelines for Improving Skill in Perceiving.

1) Avoid Mind Reading

I TEND TO DO THIS A LOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT. I always think, "Omg, that person must be thinking this this this" when actually I really don't know what the person is thinking. For example, I can get very paranoid when someone fails to reply me through texts or messages as fast as I would like them to, when I am eagerly anticipating a reply.

It says, in actuality, we seldom really know what others think. Like maybe the reason why the other person's not replying is coz the person had a nap or something. Dang, I should tell myself that more often huh? Then again, WHY IS THAT PERSON SLEEPING AT SUCHA CRUCIAL TIME!??! RIGHT RIGHT RIGHT!??!?! Goodness, I shall not mind read. I will not mind read. I will STOP MIND READING.

Or another thing I tend to mind read a lot is how I think a person might be judging me in a certain way. I am quite afraid that people may think I am annoying or irritating if I'm too loud or retarded. You know, sometimes I laugh too loud during lectures and people turn around. Or when I say something.... I'm damn afraid I talk too much or SOMETHING. Omg. This ALWAYS happens when I meet new people.

So, I should Stop. Mind-Reading. Paranoia sets in. That is BAD. So we should all not mind-read.

2) Check Perceptions with others.

Ask them how they feel about what you do

3) Distinguish Facts from inferences and judgments.
4) Monitor the Self-serving Bias.

OK THAT'S ENOUGH FOR TODAY I'M SO TIRED!!!!

Hope all that was informative for you! I'm tired now, gdbye.

2011-11-08T02:11:00.004+08:00

Hello people, I have officially deleted Facebook as an app from my iPhone.

I'M SERIOUSLY TRYING TO STOP MYSELF FROM CHECKING THAT PIECE OF SHIT TOO OFTEN. It's bloody distracting. And I'm NOT going to de-activate it coz I dunno how that thing works and I don't want people to think I'm sucha loser :(((( Hahahahah.

Distracting lah dey. SO, I will only check Facebook once every 2 days. I SWEAR, THAT'S GONNA BE MY PLEDGE FROM TODAY ONWARDS. I will slap myself if my fingers start typing "f-a..." in my search bar.

I will backspace and type "f-u-f-b". Go figure what that means.

DON'T tempt me my friends. I don't want to sell my soul to devil. I already did that and I am SUFFERING THE CONSEQUENCES.

Facebook= THE devil.

OH DEAR FRIENDS, YOU JUST DON"T KNOW!

My bro was laughing at my misery and retardedness when I announced to the world that thou shalt not touch facebook no more.

HELLO?!?!?! IT'S AN ADDICTION. I'm not even kidding!! Not an official disease tho. BUT BELIEVE ME, IT WILL BE. Incurable when it becomes chronic. So I'm treating myself during its infancy stage.

In fact, I think all you people are addicted to facebook. Only... YOU DONT KNOW YOU'RE IN THE KIND OF DEEP SHIT YOU'RE IN NAO.

Check this out, I EVEN GOOGLED IT.

How to Defeat a Facebook Addiction- wikiHow

DON"T LAUGH AT ME YOU STUPID SNIGGERING LIL WHATSIT!

Pls do a checklist on yourself.

You wake up and the first thing you do is "check Facebook". And it's the last thing you do at night.

Nothing else thrills you or you feel "empty" without Facebook. All you want to do is spend time on Facebook, even to the exclusion of getting work done that needs to be done, or meeting family obligations. When not being on Facebook causes physical pain, sweats, illness and you're champing at the leash to get back on it, your obsession has become an unhealthy one.

You're not able to go for more than a day without using Facebook. If forced to do so, you find yourself suffering from Facebook "withdrawal" symptoms, such as finding nothing else interesting, trying to find ways to get back to Facebook even if it means using a computer that is either out of bounds (for example, not yours), or difficult to get to, or you find yourself intensely worried about missing out on Facebook updates. These are all very unhealthy signs.

Even if you're not on Facebook constantly (indicating you need a reality check), checking it many times during the day is a sign of compulsive behavior. Spending more than an hour on Facebook a day will easily cut into all the other obligations you have in life and may cause social dysfunction problems.

Your real life isn't going so well and Facebook presents a fantasy escape life where everything seems unencumbered, neat, happy, and easy – all things that are the opposite of your everyday life.

Adequate sleep ceases to be important to you. Instead, you're prepared to stay up way too late just to be able to accommodate your Facebook neediness. After all, you excuse yourself, your friends might think it's remiss of you not to be around!

Nostalgia has you in its grip. When Facebook starts becoming a way through which you're living in the past, it's a sign of needing to break from it.^[6] Rehashing old loves and friendships with the hope that you can pinpoint the exact moment where your life should have taken a different turn and trying to patch it up through fantasizing over Facebook is looking backwards and beating yourself up over what didn't work out. Realize the importance of living in the here and now. This type of nostalgia is even more damaging if you have a loose tongue about the relationships you're actually in because other people will be reading your words and some may perceive them as a betrayal or as signs of an emotional affair.

You have tons of friends on Facebook but you still feel very lonely

I'm not gonna tell you which one applies to me. BUT I CAN TELL YOU 3 OF THEM TOTALLY FITS THE BLOODY DESCRIPTION.

I AIN'T GONNA TAKE NO CHANCES BITCHEZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hahahah, I sound like I'm over-reacting. But, my friends, this is for your own good. Go back to your old ways when the only thing you had was your house phone. And you were too young to own a phone. And you'd get very paiseh when you call wrong number. HAHAHAH, I bet everyone had those days.

SO, I'M STARTING A REVOLUTION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Not too much to ask for right? Once every 2 days. I'm so merciful.

No exceptions! There are really no exceptions! I don't think it's too late if you don't see any notifications for a day! A DAY.

SO FRIENDS, JOIN ME~!!!!!!!!

2011-11-07T23:23:00.000+08:00

Ok, it's kinda funny how typing a few words here and listening to a song can make me feel better within a few minutes. Hahahah.

Thanks, KT Tunstall. Sorry for spamming you guys with small "twitter"-like posts.

I guess, I was feeling stressed. Breathe, girl! BREATHE!!!!!!!!!!!

2011-11-07T23:16:00.000+08:00

Perpetually paranoid.
Snap out of this Tan Si Hui! SNAP OUT OF IT. Stop thinking so much. Stop mind-reading. Good god!

STUDY.

2011-11-07T09:14:00.000+08:00

Wedding Bells are Ringing....

Attended a wedding ceremonial on Friday. It was my dad's cousin's wedding. So essentially, along that line, I come into place... Cousin of a cousin? Haha!

It was such a pretty wedding! Held at Amara Hotel@Sentosa.. the hotel where I had Sec4 prom LOL. It was a small but cosy ceremonial. :) And weddings make meeeee happy! When you see 2 people, take an oath together to live with one another forever and EVER! It's a union between 2 people in love who want to commit and invest in a life long relationship... awwww..

And I find it kinda ironic that, during oaths where one says "... for richer or poorer....." and something like, staying faithful to your partner, for that moment in time, it feels like whatever that's being said, it is with true and honest conviction. But the moment reality seeps in, I see people divorcing so quickly. Lame.

But let us not talk about such ill-conceived thingums on such a glorious occasion!

Now that's the Bride and the Groom.

KIDDING.

Holy shit, that'd be incest if I married my own bro. Ewwww... EW EW EW EW EWW.

Love the glasshouse.

And loveeeee this place!!!

Dammit, autofocus on the food instead of the place.. guess the camera's hungry too.

Had our lunch here, the ambiance damn good.
Music sucks tho. Like who plays "Love today" by Mika on a wedding?! LIKE SERIOUSLY. Sucha gay song for a wedding. Hahahah.

Ooooh lala. I attacked the dessert first, heh.
Like usually people have dessert after main course. But since the dessert was still wholly in-tact and untouched, you know what to do. ATTACKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyway, I have another piece of beautiful news to share. And that is, soon, I will have another wedding to attend.

This is a damn cui picture of me after sailing lah wahlauz.

But whatever it is, JESSICA MY COUSIN'S GETTING MARRIED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wedding bells are ringingggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg

I can't believe it! WE CAN'T BELIEVE IT. Even SHE DOESN'T BELIEVE IT EITHER. LOL!!!!!

I feel really happy for her. ;) Engaged at 27. I think that's pretty young, albeit appropriate and best age to get engaged. And he proposed to her on her birthday hahah awww.

I think all of us cousins can't wait to go for the wedding!!

Like, can't believe we were all once young like,

THAT!

And, THAT!
Haven't seen my jap cousins in a longggg time. Hope they're coming to S'pore soon.

Now, she's the first among all of us to get married.... Awwww!!!!!!! *BIG SMILEZ.

Happy for you, Jess! And happy for us!

Now.... what I'm thinking is....

Once she gets married, and has kids, I'm gonna be a bloody Aunty. WTF. That's damn old and..... what can I say? AUNTY!?!?!?! EW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Omfg Aunty Si Hui? Wahlaueh. I think Aunty Sally sounds better HAHAHAHAH WTF!

I'm gonna go buy vegetables at the pasar now lollllllllzzzz.... oh my.

Yeah, I think way too far. Let's wait for the actual wedding before I imagine her pregnant HAHA!

Andddd, before I end this post.

Did I tell you? I'm going to China, MY MOTHERLANDDDD to witness my grandfather's brother's son's wedding. HAHAHAHHAHAHAH. Please, don't ask me where I fall along that line. It's such a long ancestral line, but I am honoured coz I get to go back to my erm, origins, to witness a traditional Chinese wedding! That's AMAZING. I mean, in this day and age, it's difficult for err, migrants of China to see such things once again.

Sorry uh, but I find it quite shallow when I tell people such things and they go, "Er... you... You're not from China right?"

OMG! Of coz I'm not lah wahlau, go witness wedding means Chinese citizen meh!? Omg! Your ancestors didn't come from China? I dunno where they came from, then! ADMIT IT, WE WERE ALL ONCE FROM OUR BEAUTIFUL MOTHERLAND, CHINAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. I mean, along that blood line ahahha.

Yes, the one country I want to visit now, is China. Believe me, it's not Europe.

I am AMAZED by China. Seriously. The way it has grown into an economic giant and powerhouse is astronomical.

Hopefully, whatever I've said will materialise coz my relatives have not bought airline tix -.- SO whatever I'm saying may just be fruitless imagination.

So, this whole post has been dedicated to the beautiful notion of "Unionship". Ahhhh.....

I am excited!

2011-11-06T02:14:00.000+08:00

Picture time!!!

Theme week. I think my school's so cool to have this whole "Theme" week thing. Not like losers engineering and all. HAHAHAHA, I am just kidding dohhhh. Don't wanna step on ahem, certain people's toes hahahahha. *peeps @Jiaqi.

Monday- Kampong Glam.

I came in FLORAL from top to toe!

TOrrrally does not match I tell ya! In fact, I looked I was dressed in my PJs yo. Oh god!
People in hall told me I looked like I was wearing my pjs.
I thought I looked like I was wearing my pjs.

Only wkw people told me they liked what I wore. HAHA! I swear, during theme week, the only place I didn't feel like I stood out like a sore thumb was when I was in my own school, wkw. And I'd speed up my walking pace just so I could reach the place faster! Phewz.

LOL. Hall people can never understand.
Btw, I literally just WOKE UP when I took this picture. Really like PJs huh!??! Btw, Su xin looks real sexy in her presentation outfit. Hahaha.

LOVE THIS PICTURE!!! And the prints! ;)
Ming min looks pretty here!
Am carrying the floral bag Vivien gave me on my birthday heeeeee totally fit the theme that day!!

Love the pic coz the 2 girls here are tall girls. I realise it sucks when you look like a bloody giant when you take a picture with a petite person. Like, damn out of place uh.

Joshua and his take on "Kampong"

Zara in batik.

Yay!!
Omg, btw look at Weiqing's skirt. I FREAKING LOVE IT!!! THE WATERMELON SKIRT OMG!!! To die for.

Anyway, I did my last speech presentation for CS2005 mod that day and it went really well!!!!!! It was a duo speech and I was lucky my partner's really good to work with. Like how the hell did we come up with the topic on the Squatting Toiletbowl. Am gonna miss making speeches fwahahhahaha, I'mma so weird.

Tuesday- Uniform day

Ahahahaha love that day. Have always wanted to wear my uniform once again.
But I didn't wanna be like everyone else. So I wore, Coral-pines uniform. Yeah, pronounce "pines" like how you'd pronounce the back part of Tam-"pines".

Fwalalalalala CORAL-PINES JC.

Joshua was so serious and into character, taking the pledge and all.

It was kinda funny while walking in NTU. Coz someone said something like, "Is that Jc or....." HAHAHAHA. Like the person couldn't make up his mind what in the world I was wearing.

L-O-L.

FEE-ERCE.

I swear leh, Fashion Editorial anytime I'm with him.

Sepak!

Happy Boi_101

Like this, despite over-exposure.

Bad kids.
Omg, just look at Josh.

Model.

Heh!

Btw, I think I look very..... what's the word. I think I look very "bare" for some reason when I'm in uniform. My face looks more bare than usual. Like, BAREEEEE.

-Skipping Wednesday coz it's Cui Day. Who takes photos when they look cuiiiiiiiiiii.

Black Thursday!

All these are kinda like after-Halloween photos hahahaha which explains my "eye shadow". Fits the whole black theme tho hahahaha.

And..... OF COZ, WE HAVE HALLOWEENNNNN. Halloween was held on Thursday night.

BOO YAAAAAAAAAA!!!!
Dang, I look awesome.
Btw, the make up on my face here's already peeling off after the first round of scaring people in the Haunted house.

It was really fun scaring them omgggg!!! AND LAUGHING AT THEIR FACES HAHAHAHA. Damn fun to be ghost can. And now, I know how it felt during Fright Night. It's actuallly more fun to see people scared than to see them laughing at what you're doing. Coz it'd feel like your efforts were wasted if they're laughing. SO PLZ SCREAM LIKE WHAT ONLY whenever you go for Fright Nights.

Ee ming!!

WALDO! DAMN LOL!

Harry, duh. Hahahah

Yun Lum damn funny. She was Wednesday Adams hahahahahah the freaky elder sister in Adams Family. But I love Wednesday Adams!!!!!!

Zara damn pretty in her costume!!!!! Love the nose esp. And her makeup!

Lollzzzzz she insisted on hugging the ghost hahhaha.

GAMBINO!

The Ghosts. Hahahah we awesomez yo!

Omg can't stand Yunz face.

Polaroids we stole hahahaha!!! Supposed to pay to take siah wahlau the girls were kraaaaazy. Stole the cam and took like 5 of 'em in the lift HAHAHAHHA.

But it was fun ;)

In fact, after Halloween, I'm starting to like my school more. I used to think my school was ok only lah, but mannnn itsa real fun! Just hope the rest of my 4 years are gonna be just as good heh heh!

I know this sounds weird, but.. I'm still hoping to find a good girlfriend in wkw!! Like, I think every girl needs a good girl-friend to talk to! I have so many in Hall, but I wanna find one I can totally click damn well in Wkw! I make it sound like I'm searching for something. But INDEED, I am! I have girlfriends in wkw, but I wanna have a close one whom I can REALLY REALLY click with. Like can talk and is super fun to be with. Hmmmzzz. Joshua's cool but he's a dudeeeeee. Need a girlfriend yo! Then it'd make my stay in my school and ntu much more meaningful!!

2011-11-05T00:26:00.000+08:00

I am feeling very happy now. Dunno why.

Must've been the 3 tests I had yesterday omfg. Not the fact that I love tests ok, BUT THE FACT THAT I COMPLETED 3 TESTS IN A DAY. Killer, I tell you. Seriously feeling damn accomplished now. So I relac a bit today on a Friday, no harm.

Hope I'll do well lah duh! CS201, Media in China and Malay. Phew!

And maybe why I'm feeling so happy's because of this video, it made me go :)

No, it's not one of those stupid baby videos of kids talking hahahah, so you're safe to watch.

Yesterday's Halloween was funnnnnn. Didn't expect it to be so fun. I was a ghost for Haunted House. And Theme week! Was I too busy studying that I forgot to update y'all that my school had this Theme week thing?

Monday was Kampong glam. Girls came in Floral teeehee. Tuesday was Uniform Day. I totally came with Coral blouse and Tpjc skirt. Don't want people to know where I was from. Not for the fact that I'm embarrassed that I was from Tpjc lah! But I think it was a unique get up too hahahaha. Totally doesn't match ya know Coral blouse + Tpj skirt. Wednesday was Cui day so it was just us in our wkw shirts. Thursday's All Black! Along with Halloween celebrations that night.

You guys shall see the photos here soon ;) Heh heh heh!!!!

But anyway, you know, I've always assumed that this blog would only be read by people I know from jc and sec sch only. Now, come to think of it, I never know, but Uni friends may be reading this. Feels a lil funny actually. Maybe it's coz everything since end of sec 2 and my whole life afterthat is spelled out here. SO weird if they read such things. My past and all. Guys, if you look hard enough you might find something like a criminal record in the archives. Hahahahah. Of coz, I'm just kidding. Then again.... :O

Life is fine. Just need more rest over the weekend and Hari Raya Haji. Thank goodness for that!

And hermmm, finals are coming. My last paper: 1st Dec. Homgg! I've never had exams extended till December siol. Like december reminds me of Christmas Bells..... and happy things. Ah well, UNI. Hahahah.

See you soon, pics will be up ;D

2011-10-29T03:12:00.000+08:00

Ahhh I do feel like I'm neglecting this blog a little bit. But I have a lot of things to say... just not enough time. Or maybe distracted hahaha I wonder which!

Anyway yeah, am fine. Just wish I'd mug more and check facebook less. Hahahah, oh god, what an addict I have become. But, hey, you guys were all addicts before I became one.

ANDDDD, came back from a nice night celebrating my sister of a different mother's birthday! TAN YUANYUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D Hope you enjoyed the night with all of us, my awesome best friend. Nothing has changed between the 2 of us and our circle of bestfriends and I hope this'll never change. Coz I love the friendship we have! You're an awesome friend, I'm so serious like I've never been so serious before!!!!! Trust me. Hope you liked what I gave you toooooo! Better empty all the contents inside. I'm so scared you won't see the gift I bought for you siah.

KKKKKkkkkk Happpy birthday Tan Yuan Yun! AND I'LL SEE ALL OF YOU GUYS SOON YEH. Tests coming. Exams coming. Oh, the stress. So much work to do. Someone told me, "ur uni life seems hectic" hahahahah, I kinda like how I'm kept on my toes all the time, but at the same time, wish it'd go slowwwwer plzzzzzz!

2011-10-24T01:58:00.000+08:00

Staying at home today! Not staying over in hall.. Only Tuesday night and staying over for Deepavali! Yeah ditch my family and go rebel hahahah. Coz I've e learning for the week and there's only one lecture to head for today so I don't wanna go to and fro for just an hour -.-

But I feel damn evil coz Joshua's group is presenting today! Feels as if I'm ditching him eh... Plus, they take attendance and I already missed the previous one coz I freakin overslept hahah shitz like 3pm lecture how to oversleep right. Nap lah dey!

Then again.... The thought of traveling from pasir ris to boon lay for only one bloody hour and then back again... When I can do a lot of other more productive stuff... I guess that outweighs everything? Just feeling bad for Joshua haha. We totally supportive of each other onez.

And yeah I'm traveling to and fro coz I've dental appt on Tuesday at simei! I'd rather travel from pasir ris to simei first so I don't have to make double trips? If ya get what I mean!

Anyway, birthday on Facebook is quite... How do I put it. Revelating? I mean I've nv experienced it before and I had this dilemma if I should thank everyone when I actually decided not to, before that. Like I find it ridiculous thanking every single bloody person and what for thank when your thanks ain't sincere right! So I decided to 'like' small wishes and go to others' walls specially to thank them. Heh. Like I think I went sincere max. I didn't even realise nobody had done that till a senior told me I am tryna be damn sincere.

But the most sincere thing to do would be text or call. I think that'd be sincere, to me. I used to think text is pretty bleh but it has upgraded to a higher level now ever since facebook came about. Haha. I'm talking like a virgin right. But ever since conformity, I'm still pretty amazed by it! ;)

Recently, I've been getting real distracted. Can't seem to focus when I study. I re-read the same bloody paragraph or sentence over and over whilst my mind's preoccupied. Ok hopefully it's just this weekend. Coz I'm damn tired too and keep falling asleep haha. And I really need to get my game on. It feels like I'm perpetually drifting in and out. I need to find something to work towards to reignite my drive for studying. Am starting to lose it, which is bad. Am trying to find that fire that was present during my A levels period hahah. Who put it out??!!!

Speaking of A levels, omg but I can't help but always feel anxious for my friends taking it coz I remembered the level of anxiety I experienced last year. GIRLSS YOU CAN DO IT!!! Push on k!!! Reap the rewards later!

Indeed, I should tell myself that too. One more month before 5 weeks of hols too!! Hahaha. All the best people. Studying is fun! Hahahhaha I kid you not.