Ok, I think I freaked myself out last night. I assumed I was wrong after reading one thing and immediately assumed I got it wrong, without checking other sections to ensure it was true. The section I was in was for students applying on their own. I have Ntu to do that for me. So the deadline is December. I just freaked myself out for nothing. I swear, I'm such a mother*. I gave myself unnecessary hyperventilation. I'm retarded. I really am, retarded.




I can see all of you looking at me like that. Hate you all.

I think having made one mistake the day before, I felt like I was susceptible to more mistakes. And it was only a day before one shock, so I immediately thought, "Omg, not again". And my entire system just shut down. My brain shut down. No wonder... Such a retard.

Only right now, when I mustered the courage (hahah macam rape victim) to check out the website again, I looked at other sections and re-read that part. It looks like I read it too quickly and assumed I got it wrongly. That section wasn't for me... they were for independent applicants.

Once again,

WHAT A RETARD>

But I'm still feeling a bit insecure. Hope I got it right this time. And Waikato needs to change its website or there will be more unfortunate cases. Like me, a retard.

I can slam my head into the wall siah. This is what I call over-thinking every little bit and assuming I'd made mistakes. I think I just mind f-ed myself. RETARD!

I was so scared at 12.50 am last night, I unleashed my thoughts on so many innocent people through Whatsapp. Jasmine, Lucas, Hilary&Deyong, Suxin&Ruilin (wtf they were in korea and I was letting it all out on them. give them a break, bitch!) as well as Yuanyun through text.

RETARD!

Now you know. What I'm like when I'm freakin frantic as hell. >>> Retarded.

Bro and I have a kfc song that goes,
"Kentucky Fried Chicken,
Retarded~ Retarded~"


Now I know, how dramatic I can get.


Ironic how I watched this after reeling in shock last night. And it composed me for awhile. This dude is funny. Only recently stumbled onto his channel.

So that's it of the whole retarded episode. Thanks for following this 3-part series. Now I know,




p/s ok, actually I won't blame myself. Ntu gave me that link in their brochure. So I immediately assumed it was for me. Their fault, not mine!!!! I'm not a retard!! You'd be a retard just like me if you were in my place.