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Hello!Tan Si Hui, 19 on 19th October, wow love the number 19!
I am Singaporean and forever will be.
Coral Secondary; Tampines Junior College; NTU WKWSCI
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Monday, February 27, 2012
My photostory
At the start of every race,
Like a tree, we stand alone
Little did we know,
from young,
Till old,
You've got a friend.
But as the days wear on and
the end is near...
.. they'll leave you
And you finish this race,
alone.
That was my take on Life.
I didn't get positive feedback from my tutor, but my classmates were very nice for supporting some of my pictures!
Felt quite emo after that, but to be honest, compared to the rest of my classmates, the effort put in for my photostory was really very little. They took like 300-400 photos whereas mine didn't even make 200. And they already had a story in mind before taking pictures while I, on the other hand, took the pictures THEN formed a story hahahaha damn slipshod. I'm such an asshole. So after awhile, I thought, ah what the hell lah, not the end of the world.
It's actually better to experience a setback now than later. *positive psychoing here, don't ruin the mood.
My photos didn't have much link with the next and relied a lot on the captions. I was expecting it already hahhaha but what to do! Amazing race no time to stop and take proper photos man. It's point, snap, RUN. They liked the picture of Poh ling though HAHAHAHA. They saw it in angles I never thought of,
"I like how the light shines on her face. It shows half of her face"
"I like the model's expression"
"I like the lines of the track which shows a journey"
WAH NIANG, it's as if THEY captured the image instead of me lor wahlau. Lim peh didn't even know all that signified something hahahaha.
Shucks, I felt so thankful at that point of time when you're standing there presenting and you know the teacher doesn't like the presentation but you had support from friends.. meant quite a big deal to me!
I tend to take criticisms personally, which is a bad thing. I should take it with a pinch of salt and acknowledge that it's directed at the work instead of "me". Tsk tsk. But I was so lucky my mind was preoccupied with flea on Saturday and the evening was spent with my family. God bless them! *sprinkle holy water. Coz they say, "an idle mind's the devil's workshop". Now I know what to do when I get sad.
I think I need to have more confidence in something I have whether or not I like what I'm to present. This way, I can persuade my audience to believe in it. Then they'd go ahhh, and nod in agreement. Brain wash.
Anyway, recess week is HERE. Finally. If only it were 2 weeks instead of one... Because,
I have absolutely too much things to do/complete. I used to think jc was definitely harder than this. Now I'm not so sure.
1) 204 News Reporting
2) 2002 Term Paper
3) 2006 MV Script
4) Malay Project.
Remember how I said you shouldn't be me during that hectic week. I think from now on, you'll never want to be me. Hahahaha. SO much things to do, I was so tired today that I fell asleep from 3.30-7pm even tho I woke up at 12 that day. What a waste of time, but I was really damn tired. And now, as I blog, I feel like I'm wasting more time :S
So, do expect fewer posts. Sadly. Unless I feel like venting frustration, then yeah I probably would post something.
But thank god for the night of old music last night coz my dad and his friend were reminiscing about old times. And the oldies just gave me inspiration for my Music Video thingy that we have to do as a group. My god, I used to think doing these things would be fun but knowing that you have other stuff to do, man, the fun is taken out of the equation.
Anywhos, I hope I can call on my friends if we need actors in the video! ;) This is what friends are for. You know? Music video? Thanks! Loads of kisses. ¶ 1:05 AM 0 Comments
At the start of every race,
Like a tree, we stand alone
Little did we know,
from young,
Till old,
You've got a friend.
But as the days wear on and
the end is near...
.. they'll leave you
And you finish this race,
alone.
That was my take on Life.
I didn't get positive feedback from my tutor, but my classmates were very nice for supporting some of my pictures!
Felt quite emo after that, but to be honest, compared to the rest of my classmates, the effort put in for my photostory was really very little. They took like 300-400 photos whereas mine didn't even make 200. And they already had a story in mind before taking pictures while I, on the other hand, took the pictures THEN formed a story hahahaha damn slipshod. I'm such an asshole. So after awhile, I thought, ah what the hell lah, not the end of the world.
It's actually better to experience a setback now than later. *positive psychoing here, don't ruin the mood.
My photos didn't have much link with the next and relied a lot on the captions. I was expecting it already hahhaha but what to do! Amazing race no time to stop and take proper photos man. It's point, snap, RUN. They liked the picture of Poh ling though HAHAHAHA. They saw it in angles I never thought of,
"I like how the light shines on her face. It shows half of her face"
"I like the model's expression"
"I like the lines of the track which shows a journey"
WAH NIANG, it's as if THEY captured the image instead of me lor wahlau. Lim peh didn't even know all that signified something hahahaha.
Shucks, I felt so thankful at that point of time when you're standing there presenting and you know the teacher doesn't like the presentation but you had support from friends.. meant quite a big deal to me!
I tend to take criticisms personally, which is a bad thing. I should take it with a pinch of salt and acknowledge that it's directed at the work instead of "me". Tsk tsk. But I was so lucky my mind was preoccupied with flea on Saturday and the evening was spent with my family. God bless them! *sprinkle holy water. Coz they say, "an idle mind's the devil's workshop". Now I know what to do when I get sad.
I think I need to have more confidence in something I have whether or not I like what I'm to present. This way, I can persuade my audience to believe in it. Then they'd go ahhh, and nod in agreement. Brain wash.
Anyway, recess week is HERE. Finally. If only it were 2 weeks instead of one... Because,
I have absolutely too much things to do/complete. I used to think jc was definitely harder than this. Now I'm not so sure.
1) 204 News Reporting
2) 2002 Term Paper
3) 2006 MV Script
4) Malay Project.
Remember how I said you shouldn't be me during that hectic week. I think from now on, you'll never want to be me. Hahahaha. SO much things to do, I was so tired today that I fell asleep from 3.30-7pm even tho I woke up at 12 that day. What a waste of time, but I was really damn tired. And now, as I blog, I feel like I'm wasting more time :S
So, do expect fewer posts. Sadly. Unless I feel like venting frustration, then yeah I probably would post something.
But thank god for the night of old music last night coz my dad and his friend were reminiscing about old times. And the oldies just gave me inspiration for my Music Video thingy that we have to do as a group. My god, I used to think doing these things would be fun but knowing that you have other stuff to do, man, the fun is taken out of the equation.
Anywhos, I hope I can call on my friends if we need actors in the video! ;) This is what friends are for. You know? Music video? Thanks! Loads of kisses. ¶ 1:05 AM 0 Comments
Wednesday, February 22, 2012
I love this behind-the-scenes garypeppervintage video! The visuals are... wooh.
I'd really watch it if I were you. Full-screen encouraged.
Australia just has the most amazing sceneries huh? I think I'd go there on exchange just coz of that.
Anyway, I wish I had a vacuum cleaner that could suck out all the thick mucus in my nose. My nose kinda hurts a lil just by the constant blowing.
And yeah, I only have vids to share with you guys. Am too tired to post up much about whatev I'm doing. Are you tired of reading this?
Ok if you are, I've this thing that has been in my head for quite a while.
You know, I've never used the word "judging" so many times in my life before... only till I came to uni and I hear it so often that I use it just like everyone else. "Hey, don't judge!" "Judging you.." "You're so judgey!" Judge judge judge. Is that all everyone does everyday? Isn't it tiring to be judging all the time. And BE judged. Tiring leh. Tired till at a point of time, you can't really be bothered anymore. And it'll be funny when you look at it from another vantage point and watch how everyone judges everyone. Then you sigh and go, "Society".
Wouldn't it be nice if nobody judges and everyone just lives the way everyone does and then everyone wouldn't have to be self-conscious about anything. What your size is, what you wear, how you dress, what you say and practically everything you say or do. Kena judged left right center. SO tiring.
Then I wondered... when we judge someone, is it right to do that? Is it even ethical? But it's only natural right?
Are mean girls... really mean? Or are they just being "true" to themselves. Am I the one being fake here?
Let me give you a scenario.
Let's say I'm the biggest loser in school. As a friendly, i-get-along-with-everyone-else person, you try to be nice and make friends with me. However, a judgmental person wouldn't even give 2 seconds to talk to me. Essentially, everyone would think that the judgmental person is just being mean and everyone would want to be the nice guy.
But really, if you think about it, WHO's the fake one here? Trying to be nice or being straightforward and brutally honest.
My train of thought was disrupted. Friends came into room.
So, I was just suddenly thinking about such a dilemma. So who's right? Being nice but potentially fake, or mean but superficial in a sense that you don't hang around with losers like me.
We've always had this pre-conceived notion that all mean people are superficial. But actually, are they the ones who are actually not superficial but doing what they deem is right and true to themselves? Not taking into account that they may be wrong, but more of, they're doing what they REALLY want to do. And that is, not to associate themselves with losers like me.
Now the nice person looks bad for even wanting to be friends with me. But the nice person is nice right? I mean, whether or not the dude truly wants to be my friend, that's one thing. But the fact that the person actually made an effort to be nice to me, is commendable. Right? Or is it just... a face.
What kind of fake is fake?
I think I just created a School of Thought.
oh and btw, I forgot to update on my hall key. Well jiaqi managed to find my pouch lying somewhere at a staircase. She called me. I got excited. Only to find out that the pouch was intact BUT THE DAMN KEY WAS GONE. I have completely no more faith in the human race. No more. My address was written there with my name and everything. Hall 3 Tan Si Hui blahblahblah. SOMEONE should at least have the DECENCY to send it BACK to Hall 3 instead of being such a PERVERT and keep it for themselves. AND PERHAPS think about raping me or my disgusting god-forbid roomie. Or maybe the more rational thief would what else? Want to steal my things in the room I guess? I dunno! SO DISGUSTING! Who wants the key as a souvenir? Can use to masturbate meh? So small bloody hell. Arouse what siah. Only your xiao didi? Woah, the word xiao didi sounds so ahlian why did I even use it. But yes, back to that. It's just disgusting. Poh Ling and I imagined the person to be some ordinary looking PRC (no discrimination but that just came to mind for some reason) with specs and wearing a striped collared shirt and black baggy pants and black shoes and fair skin. HOMG THAT HAS GOT TO BE THE DUDE WHO TOOK IT. Pervert!
I'm going to report him now. ¶ 7:55 PM 0 Comments
I'd really watch it if I were you. Full-screen encouraged.
Australia just has the most amazing sceneries huh? I think I'd go there on exchange just coz of that.
Anyway, I wish I had a vacuum cleaner that could suck out all the thick mucus in my nose. My nose kinda hurts a lil just by the constant blowing.
And yeah, I only have vids to share with you guys. Am too tired to post up much about whatev I'm doing. Are you tired of reading this?
Ok if you are, I've this thing that has been in my head for quite a while.
You know, I've never used the word "judging" so many times in my life before... only till I came to uni and I hear it so often that I use it just like everyone else. "Hey, don't judge!" "Judging you.." "You're so judgey!" Judge judge judge. Is that all everyone does everyday? Isn't it tiring to be judging all the time. And BE judged. Tiring leh. Tired till at a point of time, you can't really be bothered anymore. And it'll be funny when you look at it from another vantage point and watch how everyone judges everyone. Then you sigh and go, "Society".
Wouldn't it be nice if nobody judges and everyone just lives the way everyone does and then everyone wouldn't have to be self-conscious about anything. What your size is, what you wear, how you dress, what you say and practically everything you say or do. Kena judged left right center. SO tiring.
Then I wondered... when we judge someone, is it right to do that? Is it even ethical? But it's only natural right?
Are mean girls... really mean? Or are they just being "true" to themselves. Am I the one being fake here?
Let me give you a scenario.
Let's say I'm the biggest loser in school. As a friendly, i-get-along-with-everyone-else person, you try to be nice and make friends with me. However, a judgmental person wouldn't even give 2 seconds to talk to me. Essentially, everyone would think that the judgmental person is just being mean and everyone would want to be the nice guy.
But really, if you think about it, WHO's the fake one here? Trying to be nice or being straightforward and brutally honest.
My train of thought was disrupted. Friends came into room.
So, I was just suddenly thinking about such a dilemma. So who's right? Being nice but potentially fake, or mean but superficial in a sense that you don't hang around with losers like me.
We've always had this pre-conceived notion that all mean people are superficial. But actually, are they the ones who are actually not superficial but doing what they deem is right and true to themselves? Not taking into account that they may be wrong, but more of, they're doing what they REALLY want to do. And that is, not to associate themselves with losers like me.
Now the nice person looks bad for even wanting to be friends with me. But the nice person is nice right? I mean, whether or not the dude truly wants to be my friend, that's one thing. But the fact that the person actually made an effort to be nice to me, is commendable. Right? Or is it just... a face.
What kind of fake is fake?
I think I just created a School of Thought.
oh and btw, I forgot to update on my hall key. Well jiaqi managed to find my pouch lying somewhere at a staircase. She called me. I got excited. Only to find out that the pouch was intact BUT THE DAMN KEY WAS GONE. I have completely no more faith in the human race. No more. My address was written there with my name and everything. Hall 3 Tan Si Hui blahblahblah. SOMEONE should at least have the DECENCY to send it BACK to Hall 3 instead of being such a PERVERT and keep it for themselves. AND PERHAPS think about raping me or my disgusting god-forbid roomie. Or maybe the more rational thief would what else? Want to steal my things in the room I guess? I dunno! SO DISGUSTING! Who wants the key as a souvenir? Can use to masturbate meh? So small bloody hell. Arouse what siah. Only your xiao didi? Woah, the word xiao didi sounds so ahlian why did I even use it. But yes, back to that. It's just disgusting. Poh Ling and I imagined the person to be some ordinary looking PRC (no discrimination but that just came to mind for some reason) with specs and wearing a striped collared shirt and black baggy pants and black shoes and fair skin. HOMG THAT HAS GOT TO BE THE DUDE WHO TOOK IT. Pervert!
I'm going to report him now. ¶ 7:55 PM 0 Comments
Monday, February 20, 2012
I really wanna wear this dress someday. SO sexy.
And I'm listening to this song in hopes that it'll make me feel better. Been feeling so darn down the past 2 days and hours. Can't study properly and I've a presentation on friday. Come on Si Hui, you can do it.
WELL, WELL, WELL. ¶ 11:23 PM 0 Comments
I'm sick :(
Shouldn't have eaten so much fries during Manpang's birthday hahahaha. Greedy shit.
I think I've come to appreciate my parents... in times when I'm so down. Down with flu and sore throat. That's when you want to "teh" your mom and she'll shower you with all her soups and remedies. Just when I thought I don't need parents no more coz of hall and I'm-so-independent and I-don't-need-a-man. Actually, I still need my parents. Badly!
Am just gonna update you with 3 pictures.
Birthday KID.
Fav girls!
Anyway, I celebrated my cousin's birthday the next day. So maybe that's why I never got a chance to rest. I slept at 11pm and woke up 12pm today, still feeling lethargic. But I had to pull myself together and lug myself and my barang all the way to Boonlay Nanyang Walk Hall 3. Sianz to the max. Hate it! Especially when I'm sick and I am just so tired.
K no more complaining. And btw, if you don't know, yeah I got my GL position. We got to know which group we're in. I must admit, it is quite an awkward group. :SSSSSS I hope everything goes fine.
I'm scared! ¶ 8:54 PM 0 Comments
Shouldn't have eaten so much fries during Manpang's birthday hahahaha. Greedy shit.
I think I've come to appreciate my parents... in times when I'm so down. Down with flu and sore throat. That's when you want to "teh" your mom and she'll shower you with all her soups and remedies. Just when I thought I don't need parents no more coz of hall and I'm-so-independent and I-don't-need-a-man. Actually, I still need my parents. Badly!
Am just gonna update you with 3 pictures.
Birthday KID.
Fav girls!
Anyway, I celebrated my cousin's birthday the next day. So maybe that's why I never got a chance to rest. I slept at 11pm and woke up 12pm today, still feeling lethargic. But I had to pull myself together and lug myself and my barang all the way to Boonlay Nanyang Walk Hall 3. Sianz to the max. Hate it! Especially when I'm sick and I am just so tired.
K no more complaining. And btw, if you don't know, yeah I got my GL position. We got to know which group we're in. I must admit, it is quite an awkward group. :SSSSSS I hope everything goes fine.
I'm scared! ¶ 8:54 PM 0 Comments
Friday, February 17, 2012
Today was the first time I cried in school.
Had a presentation for photo story in class today. I didn't have to present this week so I got to look at a showcase of pictures by my classmates. There was such an emotional build up that when it came towards the last presentation about bangladeshi workers, I just broke down. Journalistic stories hit home for me.
It'll be my turn to present my photo story next week so maybe then I'll show y'all the pictures.
Watched soccer finals just now. Embarrassing max. ¶ 10:46 PM 0 Comments
Had a presentation for photo story in class today. I didn't have to present this week so I got to look at a showcase of pictures by my classmates. There was such an emotional build up that when it came towards the last presentation about bangladeshi workers, I just broke down. Journalistic stories hit home for me.
It'll be my turn to present my photo story next week so maybe then I'll show y'all the pictures.
Watched soccer finals just now. Embarrassing max. ¶ 10:46 PM 0 Comments
