Not me, but YOU!

SO I posted ALL of this yesterday.

I knew beforehand that mailing can get really expensive and indeed it was. A total of 75 bucks just to air mail all of these to Singapore! SHEN JING BING! Pay what? Pay fuel charge ah? Or air ticket? Business or economy? Siao leh.

But I have to mail them. For specific reasons ;D So.... yeah. I had to.

Anyway, I'm so happy for my friends back in Singapore coz either their exams are over or ABOUT to be over. And I smell freedom for so many of them. Coz I know how freakin stressful it must have been for them. 

To be honest, I dunno how I'm gonna go back to Singapore. Coz right now, my brain is the size of that of a chipmunk's. It has shrunken. I am such a lazer right now. What's more, I was clearing some stuff in my thumbdrive and they reminded me of university life in SG. 

They were all videos that my friends and I made last semester for my comms mods.

I watched, all of them. And some made me want to tear up coz I truly think every video was awesome. From short films, to broadcast journ news and one we did depicting city lights in Singapore... Even those that, at that point of time, had not seemed to have met expectations or were pretty average, appear to me now as videos that are... how should I put it.. PRETTY AWESOME!?!? Hahah. In New Zealand, I hardly do much for my assignments. So when I look back at all these videos, I question myself and wonder how I ever had that much energy to do so much things last semester. They're all great videos and I never give enough credit to myself. I just remember being really.... really tired and exhausted the previous semester. So much so that I died a little.

I thank God that I'm here a lot. A breakaway before I move back into study and ready-to-gogogo mode again. At the same time, I've come to realise and appreciate the quality of academic excellence we all strive in Singapore. Tons of effort and definitely a lot of stress, but the results are THERE.

So when a Korean friend who has resided in NZ for about 6 years came to me to rant about stress at school and bank account, I found it hard to empathise with her. Coz I couldn't understand how it can ever get stressful here haha. To me, they're excuses for her to party. We see things through different paradigms and experience different things and I feel bad not being able to provide a listening ear. When you tell me stress, especially here in NZ, I really cannot understand.

But there are also so many things that I've learnt from NZ that I'd like to share with you... ANOTher time.

It's back to readings now! How abrupt but yes I'm ending this relationship between you and I right here, right now. I'm so glad that for some reason yesterday, I started to gain interest in the papers that I was studying for, here again.

And that's, Awesome.

p/s I WILL START BLOGGING ABT MY SOUTH ISLAND TRIP THIS WEEKEND. I cannot promise but it is likely. Coz I won't be going anywhere so I will have time : ) That is if I don't procrastinate or whatever.