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I... have finally decided to blog. I almost gave today a miss as well coz it's 2:36am and I'm thinking I wanna go to sleep since I've so much assignments to complete and SHIAT.
But I just want you to know.... I STILL VERY MUCH THINK ABOUT THIS BLOG. Every day. I'd tell myself, I need to blog. I need to keep it alive. Dude, since I was 13 I was blogging in this thing and I'm just gonna end it like that?! NO.
So here I am my friends.
And life has been whizzing by so damn fast, and so many things have happened YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW. So many birthdays I've celebrated and been so happy to be a part of and outings and meet ups with friends and family.
It has also been a very eventful point of time in my life. Even though I'm very busy, I must say.... this has been my MOST favourite semester in my entire NTU life so far. I love it so much that I'm being grammatically wrong by saying most favourite. Woohoo. Hahahaha,
I haven't posted anything for so long that I believe my hair has grown pretty much since the last time you last saw my beautiful short crop.
There are a few things I'm anticipating, but before I tell you guys about anything, I want to share with you a quote by Leo Tolstoy that my Fijian friend recently posted on Facebook and it's been something I've been trying to phrase and articulate all my existential life and here comes this Facebook sharing that was able to sum up all of the reasons as to "Why I am a Freethinker". All in one bloody sentence.
Here goes,
But I just want you to know.... I STILL VERY MUCH THINK ABOUT THIS BLOG. Every day. I'd tell myself, I need to blog. I need to keep it alive. Dude, since I was 13 I was blogging in this thing and I'm just gonna end it like that?! NO.
So here I am my friends.
And life has been whizzing by so damn fast, and so many things have happened YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW. So many birthdays I've celebrated and been so happy to be a part of and outings and meet ups with friends and family.
It has also been a very eventful point of time in my life. Even though I'm very busy, I must say.... this has been my MOST favourite semester in my entire NTU life so far. I love it so much that I'm being grammatically wrong by saying most favourite. Woohoo. Hahahaha,
I haven't posted anything for so long that I believe my hair has grown pretty much since the last time you last saw my beautiful short crop.
There are a few things I'm anticipating, but before I tell you guys about anything, I want to share with you a quote by Leo Tolstoy that my Fijian friend recently posted on Facebook and it's been something I've been trying to phrase and articulate all my existential life and here comes this Facebook sharing that was able to sum up all of the reasons as to "Why I am a Freethinker". All in one bloody sentence.
Here goes,
Yes, I love this quote so much so that I placed it as a post-it on my Macbook. And it's the only post-it on my Macbook. I don't even put post-its on my Macbook. So you can tell that's how much this quote means to me and resonates my beliefs in being a Freethinker all my life. The reason why I never want to subscribe to a religion. I told Christians that I wasn't ready yet when I was 14. Then when I was 20, I knew I was ready but I told Dear Lord O' Mighty that I was sorry and that I still couldn't give myself to Him because.... I knew what it was but I couldn't quite sum up what I was trying to say.
And here is this one quote, that explains it all. Tolstoy, you are one brilliant man.
Of course I have certain beliefs, I do believe in the existence of God. Well, knock knock, I sincerely hope you're up there. But I won't ever want to be a Christian or a Muslim or a Jew or a Buddhist or a Hindu because... I know that once I subscribe to any religion, I will be held back by certain customs I have to conform to because of my religion. And I feel that.. I can't be as open as I want to be about religion, learning and finding out more about other people and their beliefs. This is what makes me tick and intrigues me. People and their religions. So if I do end up being religious, I will definitely be constrained by certain things that I can or cannot think or do. I am stripped of the feelings that make me inquisitive about others and people.
People may say that, it doesn't mean you're a Christian you can't be accepting or open to other religions. Well, you're right. You can be, you jolly well can be friends and neighbours. But for every person who has a religion, there will always be an extent and a limit to how far you can tolerate or be willing to accept another person and his beliefs. And I never want to be bound by that. I don't ever want those nagging restrictions at the back of my head that tells me that what I'm doing is wrong or what others are doing is wrong. Let's just say, I am a Christian, and I have a Muslim friend. Well, I will definitely be open to having Muslim friends. I can even be best friends with my Muslim friend. But when it comes to beliefs, I am definite to say that my religion is right. And Islam is wrong. Christianity is right. And it will always be right.
I don't ever want to have to think that way because to me, there is no right or wrong religion. Yes, we may believe in different things and I may come to accept you for having different beliefs than me. But ULTIMATELY, I will always think and know that my belief is the right one. That's the bottom line. I know it.
Fact is, to me, that isn't true. I've always believe that there is no right or wrong religion. I actually think, everyone's religion is the same. So I am not the kind of person to subscribe to one sole religion. To me it's too absolute and extreme.
This is of course debatable, like all philosophical questions of life. But to me, having a religion subscribes you to only one view and thinking, which I think restricts so many good relations and things in life from forming. I feel like a hippie with peace and love and all that flower power. But I don't have that kind of mindset haha. I just wish religion wouldn't be so complexed or becomes the absolute bottom line of everything.
I'm blessed to have parents who never told me what I should believe in. I was born free to decide my own beliefs. Wasn't christened at birth or anything like that. And like many things in life, they let me choose my own paths. Very thankful for that. They, as parents, like all parents, have told me what NOT to believe in however. Hahahah. So in some ways, they still do restrict my freedom to believe in certain things. Maybe I secretly worship the devil but am told not to lol kidding.
Leo Tolstoy. Sadly, I'm not gonna read all of your material coz it's probably gonna be A LOT. But I must say, this. This one right here. Is. Genius.
Oh, and do ignore that "Ex-MOE teachers as star tutors" in the same post- it hahahah coz I was thinking, hey since I've a post-it might as well use it to its fullest. So there you go, that's one of my journalism assignments and I'm using that as a reminder.
Ahh.. I didn't decide to talk so much about that quote. So since I have, I shall start a new post on updates on my life so far. Heh heh heh, easier for you guys anyway. It'll be laden with pictures unlike this one all wordy. Not something you're looking for after all this time huh. Haha.
