I was reading this article about how a 12 year old girl wrote a letter to her future self, which was to be opened only 10 years later. The girl unfortunately died of pneumonia and her parents found out about her letter and shared the contents of it. You can read the article here.

She wrote words of encouragement to herself and I found it very smart and intelligent of her to do such a thing at that age. It was sad that she never lived to see the day when she'd get to open and read that letter to herself 10 years later.

Then, I was thinking... I should do the same. Coz let's say, I'm turning 22 this year, 10 years later, I'd be 32! So much would've gone by. And if I were 12 years old and had done the same thing, I'd be reading a letter I wrote to myself this year. I wonder what I would've said. PSLE sucks? I hope life after 6 more years of education hasn't ruined you. And if you're in University now, good job Si Hui! Coz you've always thought University people are really smart and old hahaha.

So I'mma type something to myself right now for my future self 10 years later. Today is 12th January 2014. To be read again on 12th January 2024. Woah.



"Dear Si Hui,

Hello hello, I am here talking to you and yourself from the past in 2014.

It's pretty awesome now in 2014, you're in your third year of University, doing an internship now at the one and only media broadcasting company in Singapore. Life is treating you pretty well actually. One more year to go and you'll be thrusted in the working world.

At 32, you've probably gotten a good taste of what the working world is like. Today, on this day in 2014, you fell down coz you geh kiang went down a steep slope and didn't wear an elbow guard.

Ouch.

Looks terrible, and you constantly ask yourself why you always fall down when you go roller blading.
But for every fall, you get up and you tell yourself, that wound will heal, you hope there won't be scars but you know it'll heal. And well, at least you tried that steep slope. Maybe you'll try blading down again but you know prolly never to go down that stupid slope again. Yet, you're proud of yourself for trying.

10 years later, I hope you've been telling yourself that constantly. I'm sure you've had your share of failings and tryings and disappointments time and again but know that you should always stand up and give yourself a chance. 32? Nah, that's not very old.

I hope you've accomplished all that you'd set out to achieve when you were 21. You wanted to do so many things, and by 32 I'm sure you have. I'm so certain that the 32 years old Tan Si Hui has achieved so much in her 20s. But there are still some of the ambitions that you wanted to do but didn't get to, and I urge you, 32 year old Si Hui, TO GET OUT THERE AND DO IT. You're not too old. You're not old. If you don't do it now, you never will and I will have to write another letter to myself at 42 to do it. And that would be a little too old already so get out there and do it you lazy bum. Don't make excuses.
Right now at 22, I'm of course more young and energetic but hey, if you don't do it in your early 30s, you're just never gonna do it.

 If you're successful by 32, I want you to know that, you must always remember to have humility. No matter what, you must remain humble and true to yourself. When you were 22, arrogance was a characteristic you despised and so, you musn't be a hypocrite 10 years later. That's stupid. Remember, you're never above anyone else. You are one and the same, like everyone else. Always contribute back to society if you have the means and time to do so. And I know you do, I can imagine your guilty look now, Tan Si Hui.

 - You just took a 2 mins break from writing this to check Facebook.

Yeah Facebook was TOTALLY IN. I dunno about 2024. Maybe there's some really cool social media app thing. Or maybe technology is just so bloody advanced that... I really dunno, it's some invisible thing that's hooked to your brain or some shit. As always, you're very amazed by technology. You're always slow when it comes to technology too hahaha. Last to sign up to these things. Take time off technology sometimes and busk in some good-old ways.


I have a very important question I want to ask you, Tan Si Hui.


And that is.... ARE YOU MARRIED??!?!??!?????

Are you married omg, are you married Tan Si Hui????? DO YOU HAVE KIDS?! ARE YOU A MOTHER NOW?! WAS CHILD LABOUR PAINFUL!?!??! I hope your vageegee doesn't hurt now.

Is your husband caring? Is he handsome? Is he smart and intelligent? And most of all, Does he love you?

I swear to God I hope he does. If he slaps you, you know what to do. Take your children and run far away from him. When you were 22, you always know that when a man gets violent, he will never stop being violent. I hope you're not a hopeless romantic.

I also hope you're not jaded by married life. But you're probably not, I mean you're only 32. Not like 42. Ahhh, Tan Si Hui, how's married life? I've always wondered ya know and only you will know by now as you read this. I hope you've learnt to cook coz that was one of your major concerns. Being able to know how to cook for your children lol lol. If not, please enrol yourself into a cooking class. Chinese food first please, coz you are Chinese.

If you do have kids, I wonder what are their names. At 22, you can't give a shit about kids names. So you prolly had a tough time deciding. Was it a boy first? Or a girl? Remember, to love them whether or not boy or girl, I know you want boy first but hey... girls will be good older sisters : ) LOVE THEM AND REMEMBER TO......... LOVE THEM!!!!!!!!!! Don't forsake them coz of work.

Also, what's their race? Full Chinese? At 22, you thought having full Chinese kids was boring. Have you married an Indian guy and given birth to Chindian kids?? Hahahahhahaa. You are retarded really.


But then again.... at 32... YOU MIGHT NOT EVEN BE MARRIED. You planned to get married at 30 when you were 22, so at 32... hmm.. there are a number of things I need to ask you.

Are you dating?? Are you seeing any guys? Are they good guys? How long have you been dating?

Coz if you know HE'S the ONE, don't bloody wait for him to propose to you already. YOU do it. HURRY UP AND GET HIM TO GET DOWN ON ONE KNEE AND HAND OVER A 32-CARAT DIAMOND RING NOW. Why 32? Coz you're 32 years old hahahahhahaha, that was bloody lame. But, please, don't wait no further. What are you waiting for?

Is the HDB price and COE price freakin high now? Are there too much things bogging you down that the 22 year-old-you never had to think of? I'm sure you've a lot of financial concerns now and probably financial stability is something you're constantly thinking of. Migrate? No, never think of migrating. You know you loved Singapore so much and nothing will make you leave your country. Let me tell you Si Hui, sort out your finances now, think it through, slowly, you're never someone to rush through things. Clear anything that you want out. And be organised.

Back to your love life.

Is the guy someone you don't see a future with? If it is, you know what to do. Break up. Don't wait any longer. You know deep in your heart that he's not the one for you so DO IT.

If you're not dating... THEN WTF ARE YOU DOING?!??!! On the shelf at 32!!! Get up and find someone to love my friend. But you know what, if you're still single, always remember and know that you are always awesome. I wouldn't understand how you're still single coz you know you're awesome lah. Men must be blind. If no one else loves you, you must remember.. TO LOVE YOURSELF. Don't fall into despair, coz there's always me to love you. It's quite sick, coz I'm imagining myself um... loving myself. Whatever that means you sick people out there. But yes, always love yourself for who you are and never go back on that. I may be 10 years younger than you but this one, you gotta trust me on that : )


Family and Friends.

Mom and dad must be real old by now... Like really old. I hope they're all in good health. I hope dad never stops feeding his fishes and going for his bike rides. You know he loved doing that. Did he really get a motorbike? And I hope mom is still funny as ever. Kor kor and you loved to make fun of her. Oh, and brother. Meet up with him if you haven't. He's your only sibling and you and him will only always have each other. That sentence probably just committed a number of grammatical sins but whatever. Remember how you two always laughed at each other? Lame jokes only both of you know. Time has passed and you probably haven't had time for one another in a long time. Go out. Watch a movie, do something. Oh and I hope Kor gave mom and dad the grandchildren they've always wanted lollll. He's supposed to get married first what hello two years older? Well, I just hope the family is still on great terms and everyone is healthy and happy. (and someone strikes 4D)

As for friends, wow, I dunno if you're still in contact with ALL of them. But your 22 year old self hopes that you still have your secondary school, jc, university friends close to you. Well, those who matter. And if you don't... hmm.. I understand. Well, people change I guess. EVEN YOU. You probably changed. I hope you didn't fall out with anyone or gotten distant with your friends. Coz friends are always important to you. You can never sustain yourself without them. So, ask them out for coffee or something. I don't like coffee actually, maybe you decided you like coffee 10 years later. Have a chat, a laugh, bring back the good old times, when everything was more or less simpler. Oh, the things we talk about- silly girly things. I admit they are now hahaha so that I won't have to laugh at myself 10 years later. So yes, I hope you remember that we promised to be friends for the longest time ever till we become grannies and maybe our kids know one another too hahaha. Wow that is forward looking indeed.


Last of all,

I want to tell you that, I want you to be happy. Whatever you're doing right now, I hope it's bringing much happiness and joy and not stress or things that just bog you down. Get out of it and do something for yourself or someone. No need for you to be unhappy over things that waste your time. BREAK FREEEEE and do things you want to do now. Things were much simpler 10 years ago, you have a lot more responsibilities now, but I'm sure the 32 year old you will know what to do to take control of your own life. Travel, if you've the time. It used to be one of the things you had the freedom to do when you were younger. Start your own talk show lol. Do whatever.

Oh, what is 'lol'? Well lol is laughing out loud, but you never really laugh-out-loud, it's just a term that's just used all the time. Lol.

I'm gonna end here now because my Macbook is dying at 8% battery. I think future laptops will definitely last longer than mere 2-3 hours. And lighter too. They're prolly not called laptops anymore. I dunno what they're called.


THE FUTURE IS MINE TO IMAGINE AND YOURS TO KNOW.


I'm excited for you Si Hui, really I am. Don't disappoint me hor. I send all the love in the world to myself.

Yours Truly,