It's been a long time coming eh.

I finally finished my internship on the 4th of July and today is the 15th of July. I was busy all the way since then till about 9th July because I had to get started for my GO-FAR Sweden trip.

We made this mini-docu as practice for our actual trip in September.




Teehee!

Our profile is our own schoolmate. Eileen. She's fantastic. So game on when we asked if we could feature her and my respect for her went up 10 notches. Muay Thai bro. She's so cool. And I keep telling her so hahaha.

Quite proud of it, though I think it's still quite amateurish. This video gave me confidence that the Sweden trip won't be as tough as I thought it'd be. Initially, I was really dreading this trip to Sweden. Because I knew that my video team was lacking a lot technically and I feel like I'll be responsible for a lot of things and the pressure was just intense because the expectations are just INSANE I TELL YA. INSANEEEE.

But after doing this video and the comments I received from our instructor were considerably not too bad, I think I'm less worried.

I am in fact, REALLY EXCITED FOR SWEDEN!!!!!

Our team met the Swedish Ambassador at the Embassy last Thursday and he passed us this whole stack of pamphlets and brochures on all things Sweden. Quite stoked to have a read at it : )

I'm excited for the new school term, yet at the same time a bit fearful of it because I know there's gonna be TONS of work to do. And I'll be shifting to my aunt's place at Dover throughout the semester again because seriously, Pasir Ris is just too far for NTU. I considered not shifting, but next sem is gonna be hectic as hell. I foresee late nights and crap coming along.

But it is my final year, and I've told myself to enjoy every last bit of it. All my colleagues at CNA told me to enjoy it before work comes crashing in. I really enjoyed my time at CNA so I would tell them, nah, I can't wait to get out of school. But after watching a certain movie called "An Education" last night, I was kinda inspired to really just have fun at school and enjoy my youth while I still can at school and learn all there is to learn before reality seeps in and the REAL world kicks in. Kinda sucks eh. I don't wanna have to think about financial woes sigh. Grown up woes.


As with every new school term, I had to select my mods, and silly me, SAME EVERY YEAR, I was the last to do this. I actually FORGOT about it, coz I was still on internship then and I couldn't keep track of things at school until my friend asked, "How's STARS?". And I replied, "What stars?" I actually seriously thought he was talking about superstars or some shit coz I was at Mediacorp. And then it hit me, O-M-G, I hadn't added my mods!!!!! I panicked. And well, since year 1, I never got a head start at these things. But it's ok, I'll definitely get them when school reopens ; ) I ain't worried. After 4 years here, things just don't scare me anymore like they used to.

I think school will look so different this coming August, physically and psychologically for me.

As a final year student, everything's just gonna be so different! I would view other students differently.

I've been on exchange, on internship, a lot of these things have shaped my mind and I feel so different and kinda grown up. Definitely different from when I first entered. So strangeee. The 3 years so far have flown by in a jiffy. After the coming year, 4 years would have been nothing. By the time I'm 50, it would all be but a very distant memory lol, ain't I oh-so-wise? ; ) Haw haw.

But I definitely have so much more to learn. This coming trip to Sweden in September is definitely gonna be tough, but I will learn a heck load from it. Also, my Final Year Project (FYP). That will be mind-blowing. I really want to make it a project that I'll remember and I want it to be a project that will seriously impact the community. Ambitious eh, but isn't that what an FYP should truly be? So much effort to push out a campaign or social awareness cause and just for what? Grades? No way!! It must make a difference. So bloody cliche, but oh yes, I mean it boys. and girls.

And after all that, I finally graduate. Can't believe it.. all those years of education. SO MANY years of education. Finally, I am about to reach the finishing line. I can already see it. Not sure whether to feel excited about it or what.

Then comes work... I feel so ambitious. But I don't know how to get to where I want to go. I need a lot of contacts, which I don't yet. I haven't worked at a lot of places, really don't know how I'm gonna get to where I want to go. We'll see though, we'll see.


As of now...

At this VERY POINT OF TIME,

I'm enjoying life.

Bumming around that is hahaha. It's a bit weird though, coz once I stopped being busy, I found myself with an infinite amount of time on my hands!! And what's amazing is that, I still find myself so TIRED all the time. For not doing anything! For goodness sake! What a sloth I am. But I just feel so tired and I take naps that last for 3 hours when I actually had a good amount of rest the night before.

I'm just Sleeping Beauty man.

My mom says it's all the backlog of sleepless nights since work began at the start of this year. Probably.

But anyways, I spent time with my girlies, celebrating friends' birthdays, and just having a lot of time for myself and friends and family now. It's great.


Regina's 22nd Birthday!
Pretty bad lighting the second one, but thanks to her editing, doesn't look too bad anymore.

Yes, as you can see, my hair has grown reallyyyy long already.

Despite the poll that voted for me to keep my pixie hair, I've decided to keep my hair longer, into a bob. Hee hee.

I love my pixie hair, but I feel that... I need to wear make up to contrast my short short hair. Also, I can't wear guyish jeans and stuff that I used to wear. I had to wear a lot of girly looking things to contrast the short crop for the past year, otherwise I would have looked like a boy. Plus I have no earholes so no earrings to make me look like a girl. So I really just want to wear stuff that I like and feel comfortable without having to wonder if people think I'm lesbian good god. SO I'mma keep it longer now. But I'm definitely not going back to the super long hair that I had. Not yet. Coz I don't like to maintain that kinda long hair. I can't. I'm a child.

And then hopefully, when it's long enough, I can perm my bob hair teehee. I love curly hair. I remember the time when I curled my hair for D&D and vavavoom, my hair had life to it.




Correct a not??
But oh god this photo is so old and quite gross. Smile until like that for what, think I Miss Universe ah, freakin disgusting. Jasmine's fabulous as always.



I was also watching the World Cup the past few days. Semi-finals and of course Finals. I couldn't be bothered to catch quarters. And semis and finals were free broadcast on okto ; )

The World Cup is indeed a fantastic game. It's like the Olympics, I absolutely LOVE to see how sports can bring nations and even people together. It's great. And the emotions... when the losers lose and the winners do nothing else but win. I can feel all the emotions of the players and all the hardwork and.. when they win, you can see the happiness and joy all over the person's face. Sports has that magic. And when people lose, you can feel their misery, sorrow... every human emotion all played out on screen. It's amazing.

And the WORLD is just watching them play. That's what's freakin amazing. Just thinking about how the entire world is glued to the same match is amazing.

Germany. How I'd die to be there right now to feel what a champion nation would feel. I told Yunxuan, who's there right now, that the atmosphere must be absolutely ELECTRIC. She's one lucky ass that girl. She sent some pics and videos over and boy, they're fantastic. I've always wished to be a part of something like that. I wish... Singapore has something to cheer for together as a nation. Support something together and triumph together. To just, FEEL as a nation. It's just sad how we don't collectively unite about something. No race, no religion, no sexuality, no BOUNDARIES at all.

Now that, is freakin amazing my friend.

I wonder if ever in my lifetime I'll ever get to witness something like that happen to my own little red dot. When everybody would get together and feel happy about something for the nation.

It's the first World Cup season that I watched the entire match throughout. Woke up at crazy timings just to watch as well. My very first World Cup.
The last time it was 2010 - Alevels year. I had no time for no World Cup then man. Was studying my ass off.

Wonder what it'll be like in 2018. I'd be freakin 26 man!

World Cups are a great way to remind yourself that time FLIES. 4 years just FLYYY. In-sane. I think I remember thinking back then that wow, at 22 I'd be in University. Would I be in WKWSCI? Ugh, better not think about it.. what if it doesn't come true?!

But here I am, just 1 more year left at my dream university school.

4 years down, wow. I'd be a working adult. Would I be any wiser then? Maybe more jaded? Haha.

But World Cups are wonderful life markers.


Anyways, I'm gonna end my post alright. What a long post to compensate my absence.
I always do ; ) Hope it's worth the read too.
I just suck really bad at multi tasking. Like right now, I've GO-FAR stuff to do, so when there's that at the back of my mind, I can't blog coz I hate thinking about 2 things at one time.
Guess that's great for my future husband eh? I just can't two-time him. Can't handle too many things at one go.


Here's a last photo of me and my workmates : )