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[edited] this was written 3 weeks ago and saved as a draft. so it was written when I had just returned to Myanmar. decided to publish it today. to that old friend, this is for you~ [/edited]
I knew her when I was secondary 1, at thirteen years old.
She was a bestfriend then, but in between, life got in the way and we gradually lost touch. I never quite knew what happened to her after secondary school and the in-betweens. Yet, I would always remember her, somehow, at the back of my mind. I had even always remembered her birthday because it fell one day ahead of another friend's.
Perhaps good memories with people will always linger no matter how long a time it has been.
One day last year, I thought I'd seen her at my University. But I never quite wanted to say hi because she was a stranger to me.
Then again, life works in mysterious ways.
Some time in April this year, there was a talk on National Identity at NTU where a Minister was invited to speak. I decided to turn up for it. I saw her, she saw me, so we somehow decided to talk.
I was thrilled beyond belief to see her again and we talked about topics on Singapore that I had never quite talked about with another friend before. I was glad we reconnected.
Yet, I kept a distance because I wasn't quite sure if we'd be casual acquaintances and I guess I didn't want history to repeat. Good friends, lose touch, start over again. I didn't want to go through that process.
She asked if she could bunk in with me at my hall during the exam period for 2 weeks and I was like ok! Since I had space any way and well, if I can help, why not? I was thinking: how bold of her!
One day last year, I thought I'd seen her at my University. But I never quite wanted to say hi because she was a stranger to me.
Then again, life works in mysterious ways.
Some time in April this year, there was a talk on National Identity at NTU where a Minister was invited to speak. I decided to turn up for it. I saw her, she saw me, so we somehow decided to talk.
I was thrilled beyond belief to see her again and we talked about topics on Singapore that I had never quite talked about with another friend before. I was glad we reconnected.
Yet, I kept a distance because I wasn't quite sure if we'd be casual acquaintances and I guess I didn't want history to repeat. Good friends, lose touch, start over again. I didn't want to go through that process.
She asked if she could bunk in with me at my hall during the exam period for 2 weeks and I was like ok! Since I had space any way and well, if I can help, why not? I was thinking: how bold of her!
And yes, I was very skeptical. I thought she'd just wanted to be friends with me again because of what I could give. I was a senior (experience in NTU) and I had a hall room. Perhaps I over thought things and was distrustful. I harboured such thoughts.
So I was hesitant at the start. But... gradually, I opened up to her and felt like... the ten years in between our friendship never existed because we fell right back into our old ways of talking past midnight (i spotted some of my old blog posts and we used to talk on the phone for really long haha). And I think it could've actually been a blessing to have her around during exam period when it was so stressful! I daresay, I could attribute my damn good stellar A results in my last semester to her.
And yes, ten years. I really don't know how or why we lost touch for ten years. That's a decade.
Yet some things haven't changed.
Call me pantang or what lah, but to me, for her to walk back into my life as one of my good friends again, I feel like it means something! Something good : )
I've lost some friends, and gained new ones. This time, I gained one again from long ago and I truly think life works in very mysterious ways. 10 years.... wow I'd never have thought.
Now, at a point when I'm experiencing an emotional low, she has helped lift my spirits again simply through our shared experiences in life and world views. I can't help but feel like I've gained a sister again!
Lilian, this sounds dramatic, but thank you for coming into my life again!!! At a critical point, at the lowest of lows. When I couldn't help but first doubt. Now, I daresay you have my back and I have yours!!
So I was hesitant at the start. But... gradually, I opened up to her and felt like... the ten years in between our friendship never existed because we fell right back into our old ways of talking past midnight (i spotted some of my old blog posts and we used to talk on the phone for really long haha). And I think it could've actually been a blessing to have her around during exam period when it was so stressful! I daresay, I could attribute my damn good stellar A results in my last semester to her.
And yes, ten years. I really don't know how or why we lost touch for ten years. That's a decade.
Yet some things haven't changed.
Call me pantang or what lah, but to me, for her to walk back into my life as one of my good friends again, I feel like it means something! Something good : )
I've lost some friends, and gained new ones. This time, I gained one again from long ago and I truly think life works in very mysterious ways. 10 years.... wow I'd never have thought.
Now, at a point when I'm experiencing an emotional low, she has helped lift my spirits again simply through our shared experiences in life and world views. I can't help but feel like I've gained a sister again!
Lilian, this sounds dramatic, but thank you for coming into my life again!!! At a critical point, at the lowest of lows. When I couldn't help but first doubt. Now, I daresay you have my back and I have yours!!
Here we were when we first reconnected. I was so excited to see her again that I asked for a snap. In actual fact we were still quite awkward. 10 years leh wahlau. Like Channel 8 drama can.
Here's when we were young and stupid. Don't kill me hor Lilian.
But unlike my younger self, I now understand you as an individual. I respect how you function and how free-spirited you are. And there's nothing wrong with that. I don't know if you should keep searching though, coz maybe deep down you actually already know what you want.
Yet they always say life is a journey, constant discoveries, and new ones about ourselves.
That's what you taught me and I've become more confident through you too.
[edited] this is the end of the post that i had written 3 weeks back. but lilian, thank you for being there via whatsapp while i'm in Myanmar! glad to have so much we can talk about and how we can connect on so many levels. it won't be another ten years again lah. it'll be now and forevaaaa bahaha so cheesy. can't wait to share stories with you when i'm back my friend! [/edited]
