A photo for sentimental reasons...

I shouldn't look so happy because in all honesty, I'm really scared!!
Yeap if you guessed it..... I'm saying goodbye to my spectacles and hello to perfect eyesight!

I've thought about it for a longggg time. A long time meaning at least 3 years. To do lasik.

There are many reasons why: the main one for convenience sake. After doing so much travelling and mountain climbing and knowing that I'll be doing more of those in the future, I've decided I want to correct my vision without me needing to think about contact lenses, and bringing along lenses solution that has to be in a 10ml bottle (hahah annoying airplane restrictions). Lucky chaps who've perfect eyesight!!! This is the pain us speckies have to go through.

Also, I've started working. I foresee my work hours becoming increasingly irregular and I don't want to have to worry about whether I should take out my lenses because lenses in the eyes for too long is bad and yada yada. I foresee doing a lot of outdoor activity if I ever become a reporter. I need my eyes!

It'll also be a good investment. I told myself that once I get down to my last set of contact lenses, I'll make my decision. Indeed I have, and I told myself, let's do it. It'll save money in the long run because I no longer need to buy contact lenses or solution. I also wanted to get a new pair of specs but hesitated knowing that I had a bigger decision to make.

Lasik doesn't come cheap. It's a grand total of $3-4k. I don't usually spend a lot of money. When I buy clothes, I usually only spend during cny period - what a girl. But when I know something is worth the buy, I'll have a good think about it and take the leap.

Contact lenses have never really bothered me - yes, I could go on wearing them but I think with all the factors I've laid out, I'd rather go without them. Besides, I don't use and have never used coloured contacts or any beautifying lenses - I think they make people look artificial. I no longer like wearing spectacles for they make my ears painful because they're heavy and fun fact: my eyes are not aligned, so the frames will never be straight. What I do like about them is that they frame my eyes :) So that's something I'll miss, being able to change my look with just a pair of frames. My colleagues couldn't recognise me when I started wearing them the past 2-3 weeks (when a vessel burst haha and because I had to prepare for my lasik op)

I've waited so long to make the decision because I am scared. I'm very scared in fact! It's my eyessss we're talking about. I worry about many things - if in the long run, the vision goes blurry again. The side effects. Becoming blind - a possibility. I'd be depressed.

And as silly as it may be.......... I'll miss my spectacles. I've made it very much a part of my identity - that geeky lil me hehe.

There's also a really silly childhood principle that I've held on to for a long time. You see, when I was 15, there were so many stories of plastic surgery and perfection. I told myself never would I ever go for any of those. Including lasik. And I'll show everyone that you can wear specs and still be awesome. I wanted to be perfectly imperfect hahaha. But now, there are other reasons why I want to do away with my spectacles. Perhaps, it also symbolises moving on to adulthood.

A lot of the fear is emotional more than rational. It feels like I'm doing away a part of my soul. Like you'll be seeing glassy eyes after I do lasik. You can't see through my eyes and into my soul. But I'm aware that it's not a rational thought and it's just me being dramatic heh.

I've had two cousins who've done it, a close friend who's just done it. And someone who's said it was the best decision ever. Over the years, I've mulled over it.

And I think it's about time :)

p/s the appointment for my lasik op is in fact today. consultation + operation all on the same day. wish me luck!! won't be blogging about the procedure unless something goes horribly wrong or if i become emotionally unstable after that hahahahah. choy ah!

p/p/s happy to have my momma with me. she coincidentally took leave the same day too and when she found out, she said she'd go too. i told her she didn't have to come with me but she insisted. well at least i've a hand to hold on to, i can only imagine being wheeled in and ya know how they do it on tv and the tears and the "noooo don't leave me". hahaha ok it's all in the imagination. my mom's really supportive - guess it's because she was one of the pioneers in her generation to wear contact lenses so she'd want me to be just as pioneering lol. jokes.