I feel like I've too much time on my hands now till Feb 15. LIKE THERE'S NOTHING TO DOOOOOO. I have thought about work, but am honestly quite lazy to LOOK for work. Plus people around me are telling me to just relax coz I don't have much time anymore, at home. But I don't want my mind to idle. Coz when it does, oh boy it starts to warp into something else. So hard to find the right balance. Of doing nothing and having TOO much to do. It's like when I'm stressed, I complain. When I'm restless, I complain. So hard to appease huh people like me hahah.

My mom's knitting a scarf for me. I know, say awww. She thinks I won't miss home when I go. Fact is, I think I will! I very much will. I'll miss the comfort and smell of home. With her cooking her soups and the wonderful smells that waft throughout the house, in effect making everyone hungry. I will miss that. I will miss morning breakfasts with the father. Swimming lessons with him as well. And the retarded bro and his stupid comments.

Of course, I will miss home.

But Asian as I am, I never tell these to them. Well, at least not in person. That's like over-dramatic coz I'm imagining everyone hugging and crying at the same time, THAT'S RIDICULOUS LOL.

And as much as I miss my family, I'll miss my friends too. Sometimes I think I'm a bit crazy for going somewhere without anyone, how stupid you lil twat thinking you can just leave everything and start anew so easily. Having friends is so darn essential. And I'll miss not being able to hang out whenever I want to with them and laugh and talk all night long. Or run to someone when I need to yabber about something. Complaints or life, ups and downs.

*Ah....*

I've been sending quite a number of people off for exchange and it can be quite an emotional thing at the airport. Sometimes when I look at them cry, EVEN I FEEL LIKE CRYING when I whisper my "Have fun" and "Go out there and see the world! What an adventure you're gonna have!". It's almost like tears of joy actually.

At the same time, I'd think "My god! It's not like she's gonna die or she's gonna be there for... ever. Cry for what. Siao." I think I can do that when I see my parents' faces. Yeap, you got that right. I hardly cry in front of my family or parents. It's quite lame to cry in fact hahaha. I've strong family members. I've never seen my dad cry EVER. Not even when his MOM DIED> GOODNESS GRACIOUS. What an ungrateful child! Hahahah, but yeah, anyway. I guess it's not normal to cry in front of everyone. So I'd prolly hold back any tears during departure. Maybe when I see my friends' faces?

Man, I can't even do hugs right. In fact, I feel squirmish if the person isn't someone I'd normally do a hug WITH. It's so weird!? I'M ASIAN ALRIGHT. Unless it's friends from wkw. Somehow, hugs with them are fine coz they are such a natural at it. I won't feel awkward at all. Tho I'm never the one who initiates hugs hahahha. But what in the world, I can't even imagine hugging my brother, that's EW that's DISGUSTING. We'd be like, "Wtf?!?!?!?!?!!?" to each other I believe.

It's just THAT STRANGE.

So, even though people tell me hugs are therapeutic, a part of me is like, F THIS SHIT. I'm not doing this coz culturally it's not my thing to do hugs. Even a little touch on my.... I dunno where, is sensitive. It's just NOT MA THANG. GEDDIT. DON"T COME NEAR MEEEEEE, biatch. Haha, ok that was a bit too much.

But yeahhhh you get what I mean. Hugs are not meant for everyone. The occasional hug is fine, good in fact. Becoz when you hug ALL the damn time, it's wasted when you REALLLLYYY need a hug. No more same effect as when you're desperate for a hug!

But who knows, after coming back from NZ and I suppose angmohs are super friendly, I might just hug everyone like crazy after that.


Then again, NZ has a brilliant culture and their form of greeting is like this,



It is called a "Hongi" and it is, "a traditional Māori greeting in New Zealand. It is done by pressing one's nose and forehead (at the same time) to another person at an encounter."- Wikipedia.


And this is Prince William rockin it.



Hell yeah.

Close contact. I might get used to this.

It looks... beautiful, really. So much culture they have, the Maoris.

Yet, there is much divide in their country between the Maoris and those of European descent. I read this culture book thingy and it specifically mentioned that it is quite taboo to touch on the topic of Maoris and their history. Hmm I'm not too sure though. I would love to ask and learn about these kinda things.


OK, I just keep digressing don't I.

Well, anyway let's just hope that I won't do the Hongi awkwardly coz ditsy as I can be, I'd prolly giggle doing this. But maybe not, coz that'd be impolite and definitely rude. Stupid Singaporean girl, can't do something as simple as this.


UrgghghhH!!! GET ME TO NZ ALREADY. I feel bad idling around when friends have started uni and I'm here doing my own thang. Then again... that's... a great thing come to think of it hahahahahaha. I can relaxxxxx. Yeap, let's take it that way. I am livin the life!

YEAPPPP, I shall plan my day-to-day chores and plans neatly.

I'm gonna start by packing my room. It's in dire need of tidying up. Anyways, it's Chinese New Year round the corner. Time to do some spring cleaning. AND I'm gonna leave for 6 months so the room better be nice and neat. Shall start with my books and notes, kept all the way since secondary school. Really need to find somewhere to dump all of that. And I think I might just find a few treasures here and there while unpacking and repacking. ;D

Singapore tour on Wednesday! Yeap, hope the weather will be fine that day. Oh it better not rain or I will........ yeahhhh..... cry or something. Wet my pants, I dunno.


Alright that's all from me. Have a nice week ahead. Monday Blues. But whatever, none for me so TAHAHAH GOODBYE.