Just a few days ago, I was afraid of 'the struggle'

I kinda got my answers. More enlightened.

After watching this TED Talk:




What a great talk. TED Talks are always awesome.
It's true.. Vulnerability and Shame.

I don't want to struggle because I don't want to fail. My fear of failing because, I don't want to be ashamed after I fail. My ego is telling me that. And being vulnerable is just so.hard. I think it's so hard. I always numb myself and make sure I don't feel vulnerable. Being vulnerable feels weak to me.

But I think to live as a wholehearted human being, we need to live with our vulnerabilities and embrace them as they are. I always thought the "we are all imperfect" is a damn cliche thing. But as I grow older, I understand what it means to be imperfect. To always think there's something wrong with ourselves that we try to perfect each and every thing. That we're just never good enough.

It's so important to be aware of our vulnerabilities.

I've always had the insecurity of never being the best. Even up till now, I always want to be the best when I know I'm good at something. So I'm always fearful of never being the best. And because of that I feel that I'm not good enough when I think I'm not the best. It makes me drive and strive so hard, and sometimes lose myself. I have expectations of myself that are a tad too much and I feel ashamed when I don't attain what I hope to.

Watching her talk.. I kinda understand myself better but it'll definitely take a while before I can get used to being comfortable with being a vulnerable human being. We are all vulnerable.

I love her quote: "To dare greatly"

I think to fully understand what she means, you have to watch her talk. I always love quotes that has the word "dare" inside.