Lacking in motivation right now in doing things. Sometimes it comes in spikes. Maybe it's because there are so many small things that I...

Waiting~

/
0 Comments
Lacking in motivation right now in doing things. Sometimes it comes in spikes.
Maybe it's because there are so many small things that I want to do. And so many big things that require patience and time. Then I get all jaded about everything and then end up procrastinating doing anything.

I actually slept my entire day away. Woke up at 11am even though I had 8 hours of sleep. Yesterday was the same thing.. I just slept the entire day. And then today after just barely 3 hours awake and having done nothing, besides eating and watching tv, I fell right to sleep again at 2pm and woke up at 6:30pm. Wth is wrong with me?!?!?!??! Am I sleeping beauty???

Perhaps it is after CNY and all that busyness of going around and eating haha. Everyone whom I've told about my employment status tell me to "Take your time. Don't need to rush". Alright then, I won't rush. But given how I'm like as a person, I like to take action and know that I'm doing something. It actually pains me that I'm not doing anything. Sigh!!!!!!

Hopefully good news will be around the corner~

In the meantime, here are some things that I've been meaning to do.

List of small goals
- Read "Hard Truths"
- Write cards to be posted locally and overseas
- Buy cotton pads
- Blog the rest of SEA trip
- Learn excel
- Learn photoshop (quite embarrassing since as a wkw grad, i'm sorta supposed to know how to use it?)

List of big goals
- Improve Mandarin
- Become financially literate

The list is actually short! Shall add on to it when I have thought more. But hey actually after listing, maybe it's just me who thought it was too much hahaha. Works every time I blog.

Anyway, I've been thinking too much about life. There is so much I want to do but I don't know where to start. I know there will be a time when it will be right and the time is not now. I watch and I read and I feel. And I've been tearing a lot these few days really easily. When there's something or anything that I feel for, I can't help but cry. I was watching Britain's got talent and cried while listening to this choir sing... I don't know why or how but mid-way through, I just cried and the tears kept coming. Jesus... I was even skeptical of the choir at the start.


 

I think it was like a slice of heaven... And then Lily Allen's "Somewhere only we know" came mixing in, and ugh that's a song that hits my heart every time.


You may also like

No comments:

Blog Archive